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EE: The Transition
Posted Jan 23, 2007
I send you messages from the other side... beyond the fragile curtain whih veils the transition to University...
Hi guys 
It's been a while since I've written anything up here, and I have to admit, it would be very difficult to give you any kind of adequate summize of what's happened between my last entry and now. In a blunt way, the entire world order has more or less been changed, and reflectively the bulk of it is for the better. Costs have been incurred, mistakes made, perhaps even long-fought battles were entirely in vain, but on the whole I'm happy with the outcome. I dare say I'm...contented. Happy. Enjoying the general state of things.
University is great stuff: it's like a bizarre trial-run of adulthood, while you still get to have the perks of still being in a scolastic environment. I'm suprised at how directed the work is, I was expecting more freedom... but I'm not going to complain, I still have an awesome library at my disposal 
Oh, the journals...
People-wise it's been really good. It's certainly highlighed the mistake I made at secondary school, with my choice to go to an all-girls'. My companionship is now exclusively male, and for the first time in a long time I feel socially satisfied. More worryingly [for me, anyway] I've found a boyfriend who I can't help but admit is pretty damned wonderful in every way. It's all good. The whole experience is really a lot like, well, some kind of fairy-tale moment. Not that there aren't people at home I'm missing [read: a /person/ at home I'm missing], but I'm certainly all the more richer here.
I'm vowing that this year I'm not running from things that scare me. I'm looking stuff in the eye.... and then running away 
The important thing is /trying/, really.
I hope you all are faring well, where-ever you may fare.
EE
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EE: State of shock
Posted Aug 21, 2006
A-Level results...
Well...
Erm...
I got all As 
I'm still in a state of shock...
...Warwick in October though, folks
EE
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Latest reply: Aug 21, 2006
EE: Melting
Posted Jul 21, 2006
I'm melting!
What is up with the heat at the moment? It just won't let off... I've literraly had to migrate downstairs 
it being far too hot to do anything upstairs. It's far too hot to be near the laptop too.
Oh, for the coldness of November...
But all the same, we should be due storms soon, right?
thunderstorms
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Latest reply: Jul 21, 2006
EE: Evolve or Die
Posted Mar 29, 2006
Hey all.
You know, I've been thinking too much lately. But I miss the way this site used to be. I feel like all my friends have flown the nest, so to speak. I mean, you're all growing up, settling down, having kids, finding dream jobs etc.. I kind of feel left in the wayside. I always struggled along to find a place in RL, and you guys gave me a virtual niche here on g2. And now it's like my niche is moving on without me. I know ultimately I need to re-build it, but, wow, have you noticed how g2 has grown too? Even she's growing up without me! Heck, I remember the days when you clicked "Who's online" and the average number was 50. I've had to unsub from "ask h2g2" and I can barely keep up with the general chat forum 
...I just don't have the time I need to find a new footing. Because all I seem to be doing is schoolwork. It's completely demoralising. I'm not getting anywhere at all - I mean, I couldn't even get Cambridge - wasting my days in unfulfillment in fromt of a textbook can't be that rewarding otherwise. I *hope* I'm waiting for something better, my own life movement in a positive direction... but I know I'm not. Really. Becuase these things go in a circle in my life. I promise myself each stage will be better, but it isn't. So I don't want to lay false hope in finding a rainbow anytime soon. Ultimately, I know I need to change myself. Evolve or Die. You can't expect the world to accomodate you. I just really don't know what I want from anything. I need to work it out. I need to get back some of the bravery I had when I was younger.
...Are friends online "real" friends? What makes a "real" friend? Do you find it so much easier to distance yourself from these screennames and forget that they're people? Is it easier to walk away from them? Is it an inevitable part of our society? Sure, the internet makes the whole world a smaller place, but it increases the distance between us. If you never see my face, will you remember me? Is this all too much for you to think about?
I don't know.
To all my friends - past, present, and future - I wish you every happiness, every joy, every fulfillment you desire. Whatever I may or may not mean to you, I hope if you need someone you'll remember me. I hope everything works out for us all in the end.
Peace
EE
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EE: I'm back....
Posted Dec 11, 2005
Howdy hi!
I'm back now, hopefully... Had my interview at Cambridge... now I've got all the way 'till January to find out if I'm being offered a place *bites nails*
Lovely city, though. Lovely university too. And this comes from the biggest of cynics!
Hope you're all fine and dandy
EE
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