h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

*sighs* But I can't help it.... *hangs head in shame for being hopeless and then goes back to doing what she loves - singing*

I never thought I'd die alone. Another six months I'll be unknown. Give all my things to all my friends. You'll never step foot in my room again. You'll close it off, board it up. Remember the time I spilled the cup, of apple juice in the hall. Please tell mum this isn't her fault.

*sighs* I love this song. Sorry, when I am listening to a song I love, I have a habit of quoting the lyrics.

Its a very dark song

Most songs I listen to are like that... well, most of them are dark. Not all of them are quite as sad as that. Another song I like about suicide is where my current MSN display name is from. My display name being "I will make it go away. Can't be here no more. Seems this is the only way. I will soon be gone. These feelings will be gone." I love that song so much. *smiles weakly* Although I think I took too long to start listening to the song I am listening to now. See, it's the kind fo song I will listen to when I am feeling down so that I won't get into a worse mood, but by the time I started listening to it I was already feeling really sad. *sighs* I'm hopeless.

No your not, everyone gets sad

Yeah, but I get sad far too much. And I don't deal with sadness too well. Then again I don't deal with happiness too well either. *laughs pathetically* Yep, I was right, I'm hopeless.

don't be silly


*dusts you down*

Your fine

If you say so... *doesn't believe you* Ah, but at least I go everywhere prepared for a bad mood. Although that comment is not reassuring to anyone, as everyone knows my coping mechanism, and no one approves of it, not even people I know who cope with things in the same way I do. On that note, I wonder how much time I would have to react if Blake or Tara tried to come in here... the door is pretty screwed, so they'd have to ty hard to open it... hmmmm.... *ponders*

*goes to lie down as she is tired, and if she doesn't fall asleep, will check back later to see if you've said anything*

I went for sunday dinner

Yeah, and I ended up falling asleep on the couch and Tara put a cute looking blanket on me. That was a surprisingly comfy couch. Yay! Couch!

That was nice of her

Yeah, I know.

Ah well, at least I had a nice night last night. Pity that I am still feeling down today. In fact, I am feeling even worse. And when Tara and Blake were arguing out the back of Tara's house this morning, I was stuck sitting inside all alone, so I of course grabbed my little blade out of my pocket and had a few moments of fun with it and my leg, although Tara and Blake came back inside fairly soon, and I knew that they would do this, so I was a bit hasty so there weren't many proper cuts, like, most things just turned into pink lines which sting, but didn't bleed. Ah well. *chews on one of her brother's guitar picks*

you shouldn't cut yourself, thats not good

Why not? The cuts heal, they just leave scars. I don't mind having scars. No permanent damage. It helps me cope with things. People always tell me I shouldn't do it, but now I think about it, I honestly don't see the downside to it.

because it's not an ideal way of coping

It's the best way I know of. It works for me.

Its not good sweetheart

Why not? Why? Whenever I ask someone why they say "I don't know." or "There are better ways to deal with things." or "It'll leave scars." I don't care about scars, and this works for me! No one can ever come up with a proper reason for why I shouldn't do it.

Theres a risk of infection for a start


You may well end up losing a leg if it's really bad

I don't do anything too deep and usually wash the cuts instantly unless I'm in a really bad mood or don't have the opportunity to. And we take risks with everything we do. Without risks, where's the fun in life? *feels like quoting a bit from a Manson song which is only slightly irrelevant* "Without the threat of death there's no reason to live at all." Anyway, I've only ever needed medical attention for one thing I've ever done and that was when I accidently got that sewing needle stuck in my chest, which is an expirience that I have learned from and will never be careless enough to do something like that again.