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Post 41

Feisor - -0- Generix I made it back - sortof ...

I think that your move to find ease within yourself before anything else is a great idea - one step at a time is the only way to start a journey smiley - biggrin

It's nice to know that I have been some help smiley - ok

What race were you watching?? Where in Oz was it?? I'm not into sports so I don't keep up with that sort of thing smiley - laugh

Great country?? Yeah - we like it smiley - laugh - I'm sure that you would too.


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Post 42

wildiris

the amazing race is an american show that takes teams of people around the world...it is a contest like survivor, the last ones there win a million $. they were in sydney to start, not sure where they are now...have to watch friday night...its one of those so called reality shows where they put people in unreal situations and see how they cope...the last to survive wins a million usually...i guess we are entertained..i used to watch the croc. hunter with the kids all the time too... always have wanted to go to australia..i think it was when i heard that there was no snow there, when i was a kid that made me want to go there...there was snow on the ground yesterday, there is something wierd going on with the weather, most definitely...it was the mildest winter i have seen, and the longest...its almost may and there was snow...the plants dont know if they are coming or going..well take care wildiris


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Post 43

Feisor - -0- Generix I made it back - sortof ...

smiley - ok Someone told me about that show - but what you saw must be a new series that we haven't got here yet - I don't watch much TV but I haven't heard anything here about them shooting here.

I hate to tell you this but The Croc Hunter is a bit of a joke over here - but all the money he's earning is going to a good cause - his zoo in Queensland is supposed to be quite good smiley - biggrin

And we HAVE got snow here BTW - The Snowy Mountains have a ski season each year and The Blue Mountains (about 2 hrs drive from Sydney get the odd snow fall each year too. There are mountains in Tasmania that have snow too. But we don't get snow like you do - the capital cities are snow free. Australia really has a very varied climate - there are rain forests in some areas and deserts in other areas - it's a big place, not just beaches and stuff - we even have big cities smiley - laugh

You would love it smiley - biggrin


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Post 44

wildiris

i knew that the croc hunter was a joke, i could tell, he is insane, but it is for the animals, so thats good...i have seen parts of australia there, and on survivor...i know i would love it!!! i love this country because it is soo big, and not many people...not sure about the population of aust. but there is only about 30million here..and it is the largest country in the world. there are 6 time zones here, mountains, prairies, no deserts, too much snow for that...but they have droughts all the time in the prairies...it was colonized like aust. and there are those issues with the natives as well...this country right now is a safe haven for immigrants..but i think that that will be changing soon...the states are freaking out because they think that we harbour alot of the terrorists that are out to get them..i wouldnt doubt it either...politics yuk this stupid war on terrorism is going to go too far...watch out for the next major war...its coming up...as soon as the americans egos are hit again that will be it...they have the money and the big guns to do it...canada has nothing..not much national security here..hope you have some...we dont have a choice but to go with the states...we have to support anything that they do because of the resources that they buy from us..if we lose that we lose billions of dollars, and we are too polite, peace keepers wow dont know where that rant came from but what the heck its there...take care wildiris


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Post 45

Feisor - -0- Generix I made it back - sortof ...

smiley - laugh Yeah - I know what you mean - the government here just follows the US without thinking smiley - grr Unfortunately it seems to me that we have politicians and businessmen leadiing our world and not statesmen.

I've been working long shifts lately so haven't had much time online.

Haven't forgotten you - just busy smiley - biggrin

Hang in there ....

smiley - cheers


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Post 46

wildiris

i have been busy too, i got a job on mon..and started tues. im cooking in a belgium restaurant, its pretty nice. i know the owner so he knew that i could cook, it was just a matter of time...i will be working the day shift, which will be wierd because i have worked nights for quite some time now, and the shift in my schedule is a little off for me, but i will get used to it. hope everything is going good for you, not very talkative today, went out last night and danced, but i also drank, so feeling a little weak...take care wildiris at least i have something to occupy my time now, and i am getting out and talking to people and meeting new people, not obsessing about the ex so much


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Post 47

Feisor - -0- Generix I made it back - sortof ...

What??? And you can cook as well??? smiley - wow I am impressed!!

Good luck with the new job - I am sure that the total change in routine will do you the world of good smiley - biggrin And a restaurant is a great idea - you'll meet lots of different people.

Keeping busy is the best move smiley - biggrin

All ok here - Real Life is still keeping me busy

Take care of yourself

Feisor
smiley - peacedove


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Post 48

wildiris

guess i didnt tell you that i am a chef, sorry, yes i am a cook, have been for 12 years. very tired of food though....but i can do it.. really tired right now, but i am keeping busy, and trying to stay out of trouble..smiley - winkeye have been looking for an apt. so that i dont have to stay at my parents house forever...and so that i will be in town, not have to drive 20 min. back and forth, it will save me money in the long run, since i have to spend 50 dollars a week in transportation, and i will have more freedom, and be in my own space...well hope that all is well with you, take care wildiris


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Post 49

Feisor - -0- Generix I made it back - sortof ...

Sorry that it's taken me so long to reply - unfortunately I am one of those who is currently fighting the BBC servers - the pages take so long to load, and life is keeping me so busy (no complaints there though) that I usually give up smiley - laugh

I think that the move into your own place sounds like a great idea - it will get you away from your parents (and I KNOW that sometimes a little bit of distance there is an advantage smiley - smiley - you'll probably all get on better when you don't live on top of each other) and you'll save time and money.

Just be careful that you don't become isolated and insular from your friends and family. It'll be fun foor you setting up a new home smiley - biggrin

Good luck smiley - cheers


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Post 50

wildiris

i have been having the same problem with the slowness of the system, i havent been on for a while...probably wont be getting a place just yet, will have to find another job, it has become part time now with the hiring of new people..most arent too happy about that..also the kitchen is ridiculously hot...it was 148 degrees the other night in there, thank god i wasnt working, usually it gets to 125 when i am in there, sweating like crazy..actually i think that our brains are starting to cook. have been puttering around in peterborough, my parents live in the country..talk about isolation..i have been starting to make friends again i guess, i am still fairly uncomfortable around groups of people, always have been...too shy, and cant cope with all the energies around me, if i stay in my own head space i am ok. well i will probably only be writing here once a week, so i hope that everything is going well with you and that you are taking care of yourself...kerri


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Post 51

Feisor - -0- Generix I made it back - sortof ...

Servers are being a smiley - bleep again .... so won't say much smiley - biggrin

Just stay smiley - coolsmiley - winkeye and look after yourself smiley - biggrin


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Post 52

wildiris

am doing my best to stay smiley - smiley, meeting people, and getting to know old friends again....working and sleeping...enjoying the sun when i can, and walking...my parents are away, and are bringing back an aunt of mine to hang out with us for a few weeks....hope all is well with you, i guess it is what you call winter there now...its almost summer..the flowers are out, the water is flowing, and the fields smell like manure...they are filming a movie in the small town that my parents live in, a disney movie called the music man, in about a week, they have been redecorating the buildings so that matthew brodrick and molly shannon can sing in the streets...it will be fun to see a hollywood movie being filmed here... dont know what kind of culture you have there, since i have always lived in north america...people are flocking to get a glimpse of the set, and over a thousand came to audition for 30 bit parts...i was working or i would have gone too i think, a bit shy though...well gotta get ready for work...take care wildiris....i signed off with my real name last time, oopps guess i should get here more often....smiley - smiley


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Post 53

Feisor - -0- Generix I made it back - sortof ...

Glad to hear that things are going well for you smiley - biggrin

The movie sounds fun - is it a remake of the original Music Man - you know "76 Trombones" and "Trouble Here in River City" and all that??
They are shooting Matrix 2 or 3 or something in Sydney at the moment and I saw an article in the paper that they are going to fly a helicopter REALLY low - right through one the main streets in the CBD - that should cause a few traffic jams smiley - laugh
They shoot a lot of movies in Sydney - there's a big movie studio in my area where they did Moulin Rouge last year and the last Star Wars thingy was made here too.

Yes Winter has arrived - but it's just cold and windy - no snow - temps are around 15-20C (that's about 50-60F) - so although we complain - it's really not all that bad. We have lovely cool sunny days and, if you can find somewhere out of the wind it's very pleasant.

Am working long hours at the moment, I do bookkeeping for a few small companies (along with other jobs) and it's just that busy time of year - oh, well ... the money comes in handy.

Keep looking after yourself - you seem to be a bit more content - keep it up smiley - biggrin

Feisor


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Post 54

wildiris

yes i am a bit more content...yes it is the remake of the original music man...same costumes etc...the set is getting a little dreary, all browns and greens, they start shooting tomorrow, today is tues the 11th of june i think, yeah it is....summer humidity has started in full swing here now...it was 38 today with the humidex...i love sweating...not really...im a spring and fall person, could do without the drastic cold and heat...i am starting to get a good routine down, my parents are still away they should be back tomorrow...and i didnt even have a party here...ah to be a teenager again....i have been running into old friends..and sort of making new ones....still get a little paranoid when i go out, too many people, dont know very many any more, just working on being able to be around people and not recieve all the energies that are around me...im a little too sensitive still...at least i can get drunk or stoned just by having someone that is around me smiley - smiley hope that all is well, take care of yourself..and your loved ones wildiris


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Post 55

Feisor - -0- Generix I made it back - sortof ...

"at least i can get drunk or stoned just by having someone that is around me" - well, at least it's cheaper that way smiley - laugh

Have a really busy week - went to my nephews' birthday party - yes "nephews" - 3 of them - 1 year old twins and a 3 year old all in the same family!! 3 boys under 3 may seem like bad organisation smiley - yikes but at least she had the sense to have them all in the same month (a few years apart) so it's only one party a year. The twins were born on the 12th June and their brother on the 15th. But it was a bit hectic - all those kids!!!! smiley - laugh Oh well ... at least I could escape - their poor parents are trapped!! smiley - laugh

Been working long hours all week and am working all weekend - I need the money though, so can't complain.

Any chance of you getting a job as an extra on the movie shoot? That would be fun - you should give it a go.

Must go now - it's getting late and I have to w*rk tomorrow smiley - grr

Talk to you soon ....
Look after yourself smiley - hug


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Post 56

wildiris

the movie is over...sorry that i took so long i have had a crazy week...helped my friend set up a show in an art gallery...dont remember if i told you actually about it..it was a poster show...posters of all the action that used to happen around town here but doesnt happen anymore..no cheap theatre space...no artists have money so that causes a problem...also i have been working craziness which is good...need the money....i dont have any nephews...never will but i bet it was fun maybe one day i will have children...the world is a crazy place...summer has officially hit...its hot....cant wait for fall...just found out about being able to play cds while you are working on the computer...told you i was a newbie..listening to dido i think i should turn it off it can be depressing...well hope all is well and that you are taking care of yourself as well...love wildiris


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Post 57

Feisor - -0- Generix I made it back - sortof ...

First, sincere apologies smiley - grovel

this thread got lost among all my ACE stuff and I HAVE Missed you!!!

I've been really busy lately and haven't been here as much as I would like - usually just a flying visit ....
But generally all is ok here - but how are you getting on?? Are you getting "things" worked out? Is life being kind to you? I really hope so.
I hope that you will forgive my tardiness - it really was not on purpose smiley - hug


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Post 58

wildiris

no problem...i havent been around at all in at least a month...not taking the time to actually...i was working like crazy....socializing too much...had my art show, realized that i cant stay here, and am just trying to figure out what i am going to do about that....well i think thats about it...havent been communicating much with anyone lately...i mean honest communication...the socializing is mostly just being with a bunch of drunks anyways hating myself lately...will get over it soon take care love wildiris...thank you for caring


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Post 59

Feisor - -0- Generix I made it back - sortof ...

Art show?? tell me more ... what kind of art?? How did it go??

"realized that i cant stay here" - smiley - ok so turn the negative into a positive - make that your goal ... something to work towards - make a plan of action .... where you want to go ... what you want to achieve etc and go for it!! Sometimes our feelings of discontent are because we have nothing to strive for - worth giving it a go ...

Hating yourself?? Don't do that!!! If you don't like yourself others will pick up on it too - be positive - even when socializing with the drunks - and there's nothing wrong with that (sometimes) smiley - laugh

I really feel that you need to stop thinking about what's wrong with your life and start working out what you need to do to change it - and I KNOW that you CAN do it!!

smiley - cheerupsmiley - cheerupsmiley - cheerupsmiley - cheerupsmiley - cheerup

Look after yourself - I'm thinking of you

smiley - hug


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Post 60

wildiris

thank you for being such a positive person...i must have been having a really bad day the last time i was here...the snow is starting to fall here again...which means i will be spending more time indoors..and will try to get on line more often...been working on a plan of action...still not sure what i want the most right now...an education...or to see some of the world...but have been saving money to do either, and finishing paying off debts....still working a fair bit...and taking time to think, and socialize without the alcohol, i can have a drinking problem, if i allow myself to, and i really dont need that right now...still trying to build up my own self esteem...but i do need to be able to do that with others i think...learning to open up to people as well...last weekend i went to visit with my ex and her family and it was awful...i was uncomfortable and couldnt stand the yelling, and the ridicule....and i couldnt stand up for myself at all...so i left... thankfully actions speak louder than words...anyways hope all is well with you too...how come you dont write about whats going on in your life? oh the show was mostly of my paintings....i did a retrospective thing from childhood to now...it went well i think, people seemed to like it, i do abstract paintings...with oil on canvas....some pencil drawings too ....sorry that i can be so negative...i am really trying to see the bright side of life....thanks again for all the kind words and being such a positive person take care love wildiris


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