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2legs - Hey, babe, take a walk on the wild side... Started conversation May 24, 2015
bleh. an odd day... or so... well. difficult to say if more or less odd than any other days at the moment really. its all kinda very relative and fuzzy logic-esk in its oddness really
William went home, but he's back tomorrow. I did useual cleai cleaning, steralising etc, cooking. eating. bought some food from nextdoor, and not much else really, today... tidied a bit in bedroom, to make space for the new plastic container/box; for holding all my Lush bath bombs, bath melts, bubble bars, etc.
doesn't seem long since the last trip out to Lush.... and we've got that on the 'must do' list for tomorrow I've only got one bomb, left, sekora I think, and I've used up the final couldren melt, I had left, in my bath today (with the mayday bathbomb today).
combination of aqueous solution, coco butter, coconut butter, and Lush Dreamcream moisturisers, today, over the course of the day. hands getting very stingy now, so much handwashing on them... - just using alcohol gel now, they sting pretty much all over, as the skin is kinda raw... the dreamcream helps the most, but with constant washing.... its kinda hard to constant moisturise too, especially when I do need em just dry/clean for things like sticking tubes of gunk into my eye those cool little eye drop thinggies, I got are so useful... - got given a box from the eye clinick, and then I bought a box from the pharmacy the next day as I'm going through them so aquick; also put in for repeat prescription for them at GP at same time (but won't get hat until tuesday now I think, at eariestl.... - at least I get the free scripts once I can get em on script.. they're like five quid a box of thirty, and I'm using two each time I put the cream into the eye, and that's like four times a day; plus just using the drops on their own sometimes, when the eyes are really itchy/sore/dry) at least I remembered to get some decent soft tissues too .... - yeh, just using cheap kitchen towels is OK sometimes... but... nah..
Bought the new ribbon ... err... was it yesterday I guess... err, probably... a white one, for the final infusion Thursday, in my handbag, ready and waiting - still undecided what I'll use for radiotherapy; a can't use the same style ribbons, they're ... kind abig and I cna't fit more on to the hairband I thnk - maybe thinking ... beads... or very thin ribbons.... not sure yet - assuming they still wanna zap me with the ray gun...
finally got round to putting more stuff on the IPod. enough for 5 X 24 hours in hospital now - just praying I don't actually need to do that long in hospital at any point <g
must try finish the letter of complaint stuff, over the weekend, regarding the doctor in the eye clnic... - though oddly, as I say, she did a bang up job as far as I can tell, actually, medically/clinically.... - and these little neat eye drop single dose thinggies are ... well they just work
probably oughta think about sleep. think I managed about three hours in two blocks last night. but... kinda... too... dunno, right now... well, vaguely hot flushing eery few minutes anyhow, whih is't exactly conductive to sleep... - think I'll have a final cuppa cammemile tea, then try sleep.... Bee needs more cuddles I think... though she got a lot earlier today - she's probalby still a bit damp from that I did
really no idea what bought it on... again... just... yeh. kinda odd... - I was really relaxed, chilled out, zen, blissy, having spent.... well about an hour in the bath, with the bath bomb, melt, coconut shampoo, then coconut conditioner, etc... - didn't really intend to spend quite so lo lon in th bath, but I've gotten so fed up with my indescisive leg hair, the only logical option was just to help the chemo drugs finish off what they couldn't quite be bothered to do... and that feels a whole heap better... it... was... getting so patchy in places... yet massive no hair in others, and... then... almost like it'd decided to go try grow a pony tail elsewhere... seriously MmM.... nice n smooth, espcially with the bath melt/oats to moisturise in teh bath, followed by the dreamcream aftera
socks. MMM ,
I'm ahving an 'odd' affect on William err... yeh. like moreso than ... 'useual' I mean
err. err... Its gotta be some weird hormone thing in me, and feramones too I'm guessing... - William couldn't even smell the dacarbazine when I was ... dunno sweating it out or soemthing; I could smell it, and anyhow, that's gone now, thankfully... but... MMMM. - kinda nice to know I can... induce that ... affect in another person, even moreso when its William, of course.. even if... its potentially some insane wird chemo affect on my hormones/feramones or something - a truely evil chemo side affect.... inducing such... err... hmm. whilst symultainiously making me so damn tired and fatigued that I'm..... just about... unable to ... phsyically have enough... strength... stamina err... energy or anything to ... take advantage o such.
kinda didn't get to do much for William's bithday Friday... hope to make that up tomorrow... so I really oughta try sleep so I can have some chance of hain.... some energy tomorrow keep getting really light headed walking about ... sure its blood pressure or something damnit....
yeh. really oughta go try sleep I guess... I've a delisciously evil ... plan to try... tomorrow... I think... William will like gona make something nice for dinner tomorrow night too, as I just couldn't cook anything Firday night, was too light headed to stand up and cook in any sensible way... well, other things too like tiredness and lack of concentration and then coordination kicked in so it was a bad idea Friday night best go dink this cup of cammemile and then head to e bed, and cuddle bee
Socks.
2legs - Hey, babe, take a walk on the wild side... Posted May 24, 2015
Oh. lordy. well. made it sort of into bed, circa 3 AM, after cammemile tea, and stuff, and, must have drifted off by 4 I think, as I don't really recall much of any dawn chorus (not many nights in the last four months or so I've not clocked hearing the dawn chorus, its getting a lot earlier now, but, if anything, less impressive for some reason...) woke about 8.
hmm. which. oddly. means 8 hours sleep! (err, over like four or five days I guess) - so nearly just about come to the conclusion I've some sleep thing, wavering about in my brain since, like forver,which, seemingly now, kinda gotten so much worse, probably since the gran mal... (whatever actually caused that), and, judging by my petit mal the other day, and, well, I think I've had a few other petit mal fits; the time I was pouring water from the kettle; bang. - sure that would explain a seemng gap, when one moment pouring the water, fine.... next moment.... I've rather wet groin, tummy, and legs. hmm. kinda hot too (and, no, it didn't burn me, go figure?) and, a couple other times.... I think I might have just kinda 'tripped out' for well, like thirty seconds even, or maybe a bit more; almost impossible I think to judge if I've had really s short ones like that... anyhow... yeh... kinda thinking the grand mal, or perhaps something else, has triggered some kinda extra bit of dammage on top of the cammels back that is the injurys from the 90s, and... well, if not, then soemthing like epalepsy is a good guess I recon... - added to the list of things to drop on the doctors at some point
blimey, may one live in interesting pa pathologies indeed well. we'll see... possibly just soemthing really stupid like blood pressure... I keep having really obscenely low blood pressure... - yet even when its the docs actually clocking it with their measuring devices.... they just kinda shrug... =- its kinda like, I guess... 'ou have cancer', 'oh, this... nah nothing don't worry....' which... is a bit of an odd attitude really.... - medical profesionals don't like doing 'all kinds of everything', which is a pity, when I'm nothing but an 'all kinds of everytihng'..... in oh so many ways
err...
medical rubbish... yeh.. that wasn't even what I was going to type... I've got the concentration of a...
busy day.
up circa 8.
bathroom abslutions after dressing, err, actually dressing involved sorting out the laundry at the same time, as I changed trousers and stuff, and threw themn into the laundry box/bag ablutions.
took laundry down, put launry on, kettle on, cleaned kitchen, steralised kitchen, made coffee, laundry on, phone on, twitter read, coffee poured, drugs taken, hydration. sorted out a few bits.... broke the phone... fixed it... did a towel circle in the house and gathered all that up, and put fresh out coffee....
eventually cooked. duck eggs, fried, wholemal bread toasted, and an obscene amoutn of butter
this sense of taste, scent texture.... senxuality ....... sensing thing is odd. - its less like I've had a problem of loosing taste, or anything, as, well, I've not done that at all; its all gone the opposite; heightened stuff..... which obiously affects flavours, textures, feels of food, drink etc 0- my sence of smell is, like... dynamite and... that can have some kinda odd consequences.... - not entirely sure I'm re-growing into my old allergys I grew out of in my twentys - I can certainly sense pollen a lot more than i Used too; sence it in my eyes... nose... throat, on my lips sometimes, gums, etc just walking about noticing it in the air...
I'm g gona run otu of tea eventually; I seem to get the taste/scent/texture of a given tea... bash it for like 48 hours, then.... it ... kinda vanished; then useually find a new tea... and repeat - pity really, as the synesthesia thing comes and goes simularly; soemtimes I don't get the colour of tasting jasmine tea... soemtimes I do... jasmine is off the menu right now; fennel is good, cammemile is amazing the lemon and green which I bashed for like 100 teabags in a couple of days, has just vasnihed; can't smell it, or taste it yet, the weaker by far cammemile, is all kinds of amazing, right now
kinda hard to describe. but... this .... heightened scent/taste/feel on food and tea etc... its not just taste... and food.. and stuff... - my skin is doing the same to touch. with touch... but... even moreso... and, a bit more consistantly, just.... err, so ultra .... sensative to ... touch and ... stuff... and...
energy a bit higher today, kinda making me wanna just get on do stuff, but don't wanna flounder too early in the day... I've... a plan... so cunning...... - plus have a trip to Lush to make; I've nearly run out of bath supplies! and... yeh... like this bit more energy today.. kinda ... fits in with my evil, evil... plan.... which mnay... or may not, involve the fact William will be here today, and we'll ahve the house empty for most of the day/evening... and... and... my heightened skin sensativity thing and ... stuff... and ... stuff... appears to be amenable to William too... only half the time I've so little... energy... strength... etc... I'm so crap at being ill... I can't get teh hang of it at all... stuff to do
Socks.
2legs - Hey, babe, take a walk on the wild side... Posted May 24, 2015
I did. although.... also used a fair bit on a walk just went out into town; emergency visit back to Lush to spend an obsessive obscene amount on more bath stuff! yes... that recent doctor thing... that was just so weird.... threw me so much... - To be honest, all the actual physical nonsense.... feeling light headed, pain, aching, loss of strength, general weakness etc... I ... I'm stupid or big enough to just push through that... probably not always in a sensible 'd 'doctor recomends rest' kinda way... but, heck, if it means I don't lose quite as much strength, stamina, etc., by the end of htis, I recon its worth it... but... just the stuff in my head right now... that's the worse bit really... and... convinced most of that, isn't really anything to do with teh c chemo side affects, though some probably is... - todays been very good... so far... and... certainly isn't over yet... gona cook a nice meal for W and I tonight and... a few other things planned too I think, maybe another late night walk out, as that was rather nice the other night and my overall masterplan o of returning to fitness once chemo is over, mainly involves just walking forver basically, as I've always found walking such a good general way to build strength, and fitness and... lets face it, gyms and all that jazz really ain't my thang though I may see if I can get a GP referal for some fitness type thinggy which I think they may do, just to speed things along at some point soon after the chemo and/or radiotherapy
stopped off at the cafe on the way back from the trip to Lush and had and
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