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eating disorder
Posted Apr 26, 2005
Well, as some of you know, I'm a recovering anoretic, and was also bulemic at one point in time. I say I'm recovering because it never truely leaves you. Once you've got it, it stays with you forever. This past week has been hell for me. I've got finals (college) in two weeks, work non-stop, and I've realized that slowly but surely I'm slipping back into my old patterns. In a way, that fightens me. On the other hand, it enthralls me... it calls my name and begs me to come back. I found that I miss the "high" from not eating. That little dizzy moment when you stand up too quick. The pride that for yet another day you've eaten next to nothing. The rational part of my brain says to stop immediately. That health is more important than trying to reach some goal that my twisted mind has set as an "ideal". But the emotional part of my brain is telling me to head down that rabbit hole again, full throttle. I don't know anymore. Well, just letting off steam. If anyone wants to weigh in on the matter, feel free. I do ask that no one post any "hate" messages. If you can't be neutral, don't speak. Thanks.
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why?
Posted Apr 12, 2005
Why is it that men freak out over girls that are bi- or lesbian? Why is it that when you tell them you aren't into dating them, men get all offended? Why is it that when guys found out you "don't like their equipment" they instantly start thinking of you as some sort of man-hating femi-nazi? Why is it that women in relationships get all paranoid if you talk to their boyfriend/fiance/husband? Why is it that when you break up with someone they either get all depressed and never want to talk to you again, or they start to stalk you and moan about how much they want you back and how sorry they were, blah blah blah.? Why am I writing this? Hmmmm I need a beer. And a hug from a girl I know. She knows who she is.
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