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word paintings A - Z
Posted Jul 14, 2005
A is the ache that I feel in mine eyes
when the tears have lost hope under pain-shattered skies
And A is the angel that walks me to Zed
The Alpha/Omega there in my head
And B is for breaking - the crack in the shell
The space that exists between heaven and hell
So you dress as Beauty and I'll play the Beast
Let is both take our place at eternity's feast
what? to be continued .....
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hullo
Posted Jun 27, 2005
now I am cactuscafe and cactuscafe2 - got my identity sorted out at last - strange to have been in the virtual world - I forgot to introduce myself in a normal kind of way - like - I'm a woman, I'm fifty, I'm married, I'm an artistic type, I have a mind like a bendy cheesegrater - a very inspired bendy cheesegrater -
cactuscafe
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picture titles
Posted Jun 21, 2005
thinking about the picture titles of Paul Klee and Joan Miro, and the cut-up writings of Brion Gysin.
I wonder if the void is the spaces between words, the curious juxtaposition of images, the sense in the no-sense?
despite it all, tonight it is an extraordinary world
cactuscafe
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pressure
Posted Jun 20, 2005
cactuscafe 20 june 05
I'm gonna crack this pressure thing - I love writing, and I want to enjoy it for the rest of my life, but there's always this thing, this Mrs. xxxx slug sticky thing which slimes me and goes "but you're not going to make it in the world of writing ..you are a drop of monster juice in a holy river" and I'm gonna say, well, I may not be published, I may not be practiced, I may not make sense, but the magic and mystery and music of words are in my soul so there .... I can drink from the holy writing river too."
Amen
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thoughts on pressure and wordpaintings
Posted Jun 16, 2005
16 june 05
dear journal and other people if you are out there - hullo
cactuscafe is my name on this site - have just written my introduction after months of deliberation - decided to tip in and just be myself - tried to delete my membership but couldn't - good thing, after all, I will never delete my brain - I need to learn to celebrate my brain -
what is this inner pressure to be so perfect? - I write the way I write -I called my intro Word Paintings, as I am about word paintings and word music- to write is my delight, my joy, my sanctuary, my survival - it is a surrender to a greater spirit which moves through me -
ridiculous pink candy visuals melt to Mozart. delusion paramedics arrive in the green night. siren sounds are sonic stripes of mystery. I think about you at the quicksilver roundabout. I think about love and the ache of it all. hatred scars beneath my fingernails bleed "forgive" in the coldwater dawn. five minutes into the bluesky watercolour, I see a hologram butterfly. the TV light in the jasmine night flashes black and white.
what? this is the way I write. these are my pictures. I have nowhere to go but these pictures. I don't want to do anything with them other than live them. (these examples are random - not intended to link with each other, yet they do in a strange kind of way)
what? there's that pressure again. people will think I am crazy. people think I do drugs. I am neither. I am fifty. I am an artist. I just want "authentic" on my headstone.
goodnight journal
cactuscafe
p.s. do people read this? yikes? who's reading it? are you writers? talk to me
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