h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

For those of you who know me (if you don't why are you reading this? , you know I can get depressed. Well, four months ago, after my last university exam for 2007, my parents said that I had to go down to Hamilton for the holidays so they could use the flat. They subsidize it so I couldn't refuse The first thing my parents said to me after hello was that I was a fat pig. I know I'm overweight, I hate that about myself, I'm trying to get thin, and I didn't need them to point it out. That was shortly followed by "why the h***" didn't I have a girlfriend, and that both my sisters have boyfriends. Basically they spent the whole time making reference to the fact that I am alone. Now, the one thing that really makes me depressed is being alone, so you can understand just how bad they made me feel. I've always been afraid of dying alone, when I was six I got a girlfriend because I was afraid to be alone even then. They have always maintained that I don't have depression, in spite of my high school forcing me to see a councilor because of it. My mother had depression when she was younger, but apparently I'm not allowed to have it. In fact, I went to the Parachute festival primarily to avoid them for four days because they were making me feel so bad. On the second night of the festival, third night I was there because I was helping out, I had a major breakdown. I just went to my tent and I couldn't move because I felt so sick and angry and upset... I am incredibly glad that my friend Aimee was at Parachute too, it was only her looking after me that night that stopped me from doing something incredibly stupid. After parachute my parents got even worse, telling me that i was basically worthless and should go back to Auckland. Because of them wanting to use the flat, I had lost the job I had in Auckland, and so would have starved for two months. I was working at Versus Research in Hamilton, and was still paying my rent. I was meant to go up to Auckland on Sunday the second of march, the day after my birthday and before uni restarted. They decided that they couldn't wait that long, so on the morning of the first they drove me back to Auckland and just dropped me off at the flat. And then I had my birthday party on sunday night. It went alright, but yesterday I find out that someone I used to like is telling everyone she didn't come to my party because she hates me. The reason she didn't come to my party is because she didn't know I was having one because I didn't invite her. She didn't care when I nearly died last year from peritonitis, she was too busy getting indignant because her friends had pushed me into trying to be friendly with her and she was too far up herself to care that it wasn't my idea, and that I'd rather have been left alone if she was going to act like that. Plus I've also been single for over a year now. I don't throw myself at anything in a skirt like some people I know, I'm not that desperate that I'll take the first person who gives me the eye, but it would be nice to have someone special in my life again.

Blarg...

(forgive me if I seem to be whining, I don't want to but i needed somewhere to vent.)

I just did the self test on www.thelowdown.co.nz and it said i "showed signs of clinical depression" so I'm going to go make an appointment with the uni councillors soon, to have some tests run to see if I do suffer from depression.

rait mate! we haven't really met yet, BUT I can tell you one thing for sure and that's tha's got a mate here ME! nuff said
read MY P/S and have a free smile please

Hunny.. you really do have a friend in Prof


He did wonders for me a couple of years back

thanks guys. I probably do need to see a councillor, i'm kinda scared to though... Blah, I really don't want to go on meds

thank you for the smilie. I shall keep him in my living room, on top of the tv in his own display case []

free for a chat any time NBjust tell the New Zealand government, to put you on the same time as uscan natter longer then

Don't forget, the lad has to do his Uni work too!

7 x 8 =

carry 2 - 1 recurring, add Sq root, then think of the last number ???? what's your favourite colour - cabbage


I'd better go ask someone, it's beyond me

That's why he's there, and not you!

I'm getting to uni, in time

Yes, Prof..

I don't think the government will be that helpful. It IS election year though.. You should do a planning degree. All the cool people are doing them

I've left my body, to medical scienceso I get to Leeds unierr! after I've kicked the bucket though

You should try to get them to test revivifying techniques on you and then claim that you are a member of staff if they succeed

though they might claim that you are university property, and any attempt to leave would be considered you stealing yourself...

I like that idea

I've had a laugh with my body, might as well someone else have a laugh afterplus, as a Yorkshireman(tight wallet)no funeral costsno church service, I'm an atheist just dump me in a taxiand away

Going to go home soon and make meatballs for dinner Man i feel sick though, I think i'm getting a migraine. Not good but what can you do eh. At least my friend will be there tonight Its surprising how many of my friends feel the need to cuddle me and sleep in my lap if i'm waiting for a lecture to start Apparantly I make people feel safe. Don't really know how when I don't feel safe myself but hey.

well rest out my friend and if it's migraine, shade your eyes

enjoy the night as much as poss' though

lol i'm in a well lit planning studio, there's no way i can shield my eyes. And from what mel was saying, it sounds like she's planning a surprise for me ^_^ as a late bday present