h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

...was what I have always have been taught in life. The thing is it doesn't always tell you which bits of life you have to put effort in to. Though perhaps, in my case I just haven't looked hard enough. Like at the end of my nose.

In recent months I don't think anyone could complain about my contribution to the post with my regular article (I wont mention its name), but something I have realised has gone by the wayside. The art of good conversation.

On h2g2 (on the face of it) it seems fairly simple to get your "quick fix" of conversation. If you leave enough comments in enough peoples pages, then there is a fair old chance that someone will get back to you quickly. However, you do have to keep the conversations alive, and if you've got it right, you should have left a list of conversations long enough to last you till dooms-day.

Which is great if all you want to do in life is type away endlessly. I tried this early on. And its a great way to feel appreciated. But if you take on enough things you'll get sick of it pretty quickly, and you'll start slowing down to a grinding halt.

Its a bit disheartening, and pleasing, in equal measure to wake up and find you've got about 30 messages to reply to. Some people obviously deal with this better than I am.

But no, I wont let my self wallow in self-pity like this. I'll try and summmarise what I am on about.

I suppose I'm almost in some sort of internal conflict. But not in a schizophrenic way.

Part of me, the part I prefer to see me as, is extreemly motivated, willing to take on any task no big or how small. The other part of me is very lazy.

Catch me at various points during my life, depending on your first impression of me, I will appear one or the other. Generally, the more motivated side will win through. Just.

But that conflict moves further a field.

I have often thought to myself, that I can be incredibly intelligent, yet dumbfoundingly stupid all in one sentance. And I think this transfers from the two sides of my personality, when I am motivated and have had time to think through what I have been saying, people have often said they have been impressed with my abilities. But alas, that side is not seen often enough.

This follows through in to my confidence. I occasionally can appear very confident, almost to the point of arrogance - and people can resent me because of it. But then I am often quite insecure, and need some sort of confirmation that what I have done is good - when I shouldn't really need that.


And the stupid thing is that I know more-a-less how I work, but I don't know what to do.

Actually, thats not entirely true. I know that I am learning all the time. And I think what I need is experience. And isn't life all about experiences?

Its all a balancing act. Life, that is. And this is the another part of my character. I'm an optimist.

I believe that no matter how bad things get, there is always a way out. But I'm not "clappy-happy" cheery-smiley sort of person. Maybe its the Irish-man in me

Now all I've got to find out is if I've put enough effort in to my exams to get a decent average for the year.

We'll see.

Anyway if you've read through all that, and you're still awake - Well done. you deserve a medal.

Thanks for reading

Verc

...and overanalysis is a crime that we all commit

Yes but I seem to commit it more than anyone else

Thanks for replying

*hands FwT his medal*

I thankya you!