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16 grays of radiation. more than half way through.

Fed up. tired, and exausted.
should ahve writen this yesterday but I didn't turn the PC on, so didn't.

Get to see Dr again today, bfore fractionation today, in the 'review'. this is an exercise is utter futility. - I can't understand a word teh Dr says due to his accent; William sits there and trasnlates for me.
Also, last time I was tehre, the Dr made it quite clear that he doesn't want me to tell him of any side affects I have, as he said "I expect you will have no side affects of this". so I can't really see the point me even telling him anything; they don't pay any attention to anything I say anyhow. - have given up tryign to ask about the scan from teh end of january that showed I might have a rain cancer. - if they don't want to tell me eitehr way, then they don't... nothing I can do... so sod it. I don't care anymore anyhow.

Sore throat now, swallowing getting harder, due to radiation dammaging my throat. but I'll not bother mentioning that. its only pain afterall.

on the positive side, might get bloods back today, and find out if I'm endochrinoogically famel or male. that will be nice ot know.

I'd like these hot flushes to stop. - can't put moisturiser on as I'm having so many hot flushes, which is doing nothing to help with the skin dammage from the rdiation. so I'm just ignoring that dammage and pain too.

I don't have anything I can say, but just wanted to let you know I read this...

Thanks. I'm sure abnormal insanity will return just as sure as I know wher eand what it is My new pink blouse should arrive in the next few days - so ... so... tempted to wear my bondage black leather corset to see the Dr this afternoon... but... with the hot flushes... its such a bad idea asides anythign else

You could always lubricate the radiation damaged skin with some analgesic ointment. Can't hurt - literally.

Last time i went to the hospital - for a minor procedure hardly worth mentioning - they found a little something in my bladder and told me they would examine it to see if it was something to worry about or not.

Given that they've some ten years ago or so found and removed a little something with incipient cell changes from my colon and three years ago removed a quite aggressive cancer from my prostate and an adjacent lymph node you would think that they would contact me about the outcome of this examination, but no. Had to find out by logging on to my medical journal on the net to put my mind at ease.

Oh well, all's well that ends well and so far everything is tickety boo as my grandmother would have said (had she ever learned English).

Off to see my tomorrow to have my waterworks checked. Hopefully - and very likely - for the last time

Well I'll try one final time with the Dr today. then just give up on them I think, and wing it. would still like to kinda find out if I'm male or female; shoudl ahve the blood resutls from that today. and, it'd be nice to find out why my brains entirely ceased funcitoning - chemo? the gran mal seizure? because I've a brain tumour they won't gell me aobut? or they've forgotten about (letter went missing), or, because its some weird endocrhine stuff. no idea. I'm so past caring.

oh, the hurting of the skin doesn't bother me, its just that I'll likely end up with perminantly scaring in the areas; mind, not like they've actually had teh decency to tell me which ares they are zapping; I've no idea.

hence I don't kno if the sore throat is radiation connected or not...

pain doesn't worry me. - I'm goign to try convince them to remove my p port, from my chest, when they finally decide they're gona do that, without any anasetic. - I had it put in with only local anasetic, not general as most people seem to have I think; I wanna feel what it feels like, having it cut out, wth no anasetic. just. for . . fun.