h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

Oo. wondered wlehn that was; 2 months ago today, as it turns out, when I had my last ever cigarette odd how I had vaguely stuck in my head, the date of the fifth Mind.... I think I'm developing a snus addiction instead I so not gona tell the nurses or doctors about that... ther'es soemthing ... quite.... re reassurmingly naughty... and '2legs'... about being able to sit in the chair in chemo.... taking my infusions.... blasing my brain out with music on the MP3 palyer.... and on snus at the same time err. I didn't say that right? err, just... like in case its the kinda thing that err... ight get me in trubble.... at this rate surviving teh chemo and stuff will be a breeze.... and I'll die from all the punishments I'm building up; either that or chronic/accute liver failure from everyoen who seems hell-bnet on getting me utterly wreckled <stiffdrinK. the moment chemo stops

so almost two years since I quit smoking I think I've smoked twice in two years, both hardly anything and each occasion wasn[t just* tobacco so that makes it OK in a strange way - I oughta get a cigar to smoke on the 5th Feb, to celibrate having quit

I just finished this years ration. I bought 20 Gauloises when I was in Germany two weeks ago and smoked the last on Friday. I can't buy them in Denmark any more so only smoke 20 every January

that seems a very sensible way to do things - I think I've got the hang of having quit enough now, that the very occasio9nal one, isn't anything that bothers me, at all and it has been very occasional a celibratory cigar is def in order though, esp if I'm away this weekend coming as planned (dependant on healthy), so it kind aworks out extra good timing Just wish I wasn't so ill, whilst now being 'well'.... its clearly some new version of 'well' I don't kinda get... I felt better during chemo, certainly had mor eenergy and less pain

Any chance of getting some thc drops?

I'm not counting on them to cure anything (although they might, what do I know?) but lots of people say they help fighting pain, nausea and stuff like that.

I don't really get nausea, just lower bowels upset due to the meds, and the steroids slowely disolving my intestine, and the pain comes adn goes a bit really, which doesn't particularly bother me... - actually teh not feeling pain thing is the main problem; its not I can't feel it, jsut I don't care one way or the other that some part of me hurts, or there is a scaple cutting my skin or a needle going in, - a bit like on methadone or the other one like that; they don't stop the pain as such, just make it so your brain doesn't care; I'm just so utterly detached from everything most of the time, no sense of having a body any more at all, at least not one that is 'me', err... like now I can feel and sense my fingers moving typing, etc, but it doesn't feel like its me doing it

Got two supprised today!;

was talking to W, and as we're at hospital tomorrow, for oncology, thought whilst there we would go interigrate endocrinology, face-to-face, so they can't fob us off like on the phone, to get results of my recent bloods, and ask 'where are my upcoming appointments?'


then;

got an Email from nurse with IGF1 results! (that is the one wich is to do with growth hormone; you can't measure growth hormone itself in blood, so you measure the IGF-1, which GH is converted too, by the liver, instead), mine came back at 31.9, which is in normal range (16 to 39); mind, I need to ask them; is that a real* reading; or am I pooling GH in blood, as cells can't use it properly, due to my thyroid levels being abscent?

Then, - Dr consultant phoned me! - two apps I could have had, so took the first; this Friday, to look at what to do now I can't tollerate the thyroid meds, - also I'll ask her then, about the ostioporosis, and the results of the cardiac scan I've not had yet, plus push once more about the oedema...