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Post 1

Countess Freyja

boat cancelled. drove all the way to weymouth for nothing. feel numb inside. have been crying non stop since the dude said the boat was cancelled. meh. this sucks.


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Atari - Tok'ra (With my symbiote Jullinar)

smiley - hugsmiley - cheerupFigure out something soon and see him againsmiley - cuddle


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Post 3

Countess Freyja

smiley - hug

yeah, i'm better now. didnt get to see him over half term, but he's coming over for a few days in the easter hols. will be cool.


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Atari - Tok'ra (With my symbiote Jullinar)

Yay, enjoy that when it happenssmiley - biggrinsmiley - hug


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Post 5

Countess Freyja

will do smiley - smiley

just got to persuade someone to phone someone now.. ben cant persuade his parents and i cant persuade mine. but yeah, he should be coming over in less than 5 weeks smiley - biggrin


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Atari - Tok'ra (With my symbiote Jullinar)

Yeah, I remember when it was like that with us "Well we'll meet as soon as our parents phone each other...but they're not phoning!"smiley - laugh


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Post 7

Countess Freyja

OK i'm gonna kill this computer it lost everything i wrote to you. grr.


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Atari - Tok'ra (With my symbiote Jullinar)

Computers are stupid like that...yeah I hope you're okay to write it all again


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Post 9

Countess Freyja

I cant remember what I wrote... Umm.. Oh yeah they still havent phoned and now its really expensive for him to come on the plane. Muh.

So how're you? I'm ill. But I still have to go to school. Everything's stressing me out and my nose is running like a tap and I keep on producing loads of phlegm. Its not fun. But I only have seven actual school days left. In 9 days it'll all be over. Yay.


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Atari - Tok'ra (With my symbiote Jullinar)

Can you maybe remember what you wrote about? That sucks, just try and find some way to see him and hope I guess...
Well I'm not so great at the moment; me and 4 friends got ambushed by 40+ neds/chavs and I got knocked over, kicked in the kidneys and generally beat around, so I might need some treatment for my left arm cause I can't move it properly. I gave a statement to the police and I've been off the last two days. Bleh. Are your easter holidays in 9 days? Lucky...


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Post 11

Countess Freyja

that was what i wrote about..

no i am seeing him (i think..) but he might have to come on the boat and it'll take ages to get to weymouth to collect him. we'll lose about 5 hours together if he gets the boat.

Aww, poor you that sucks smiley - hug. Chavs are f**king scum, hate them so much. I hope you feel better soon.


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Post 12

Atari - Tok'ra (With my symbiote Jullinar)

How far away are you from each other?

Some Chavs are scum, but some are okay. I just feel sorry for them, most of them just get it from their parents. Hate divides us, I only feel it against people, never groups cause it's so bad to generalise.


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Post 13

Countess Freyja

He's in Guernsey, so its pretty far. But luckily Guernsey is closer to England than France, unlike Jersey.

Yeah you have a point I suppose. I dont really know any proper chavs, just townies and trendies. Some are OK, but a lot think that they're better than me and make fun of me. But going on the boat to Guernsey is totally full of chavs, I get loads of dirty looks and people making jokes about me. I'd hate to be a chav, I dont understand why people like it.. I suppose they say the same thing about people like me though..


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Atari - Tok'ra (With my symbiote Jullinar)

At least it's closer than when I had to come from Edinburgh I supposesmiley - erm

Yeah, I think chavs become chavs because so many people are like that so they just go with the majority, it happens to people with low self-esteem. In the beginning it meant something because of the whole working class/upper class thing but it means nothing now. I saw your site, you've like gone totally goth! IT's pretty cool though, it suits you. I look pretty diffrent myself now, I have long thick curly hair which has been straightened a few times, I end up looking like Thurston Moore from Sonic youth. Since you probably don't know what that looks like, here's a pic of him...

http://www.mentalsewage.com/2000/02/229.html

Well longer than that but that's the closest I could find...somtimes he has longer hair...

Howa are you doing?


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Post 15

Countess Freyja

Not really, its harder to get to cos the plane's really expensive and for the boat you have to go to weymouth or portsmouth which are both really far in the car.


Yup, they just get comfort through following the crowd and being sheep.

Lol, yeah. I've gradually been turning goth for over a year now, but this time last year it wasnt so obvious. Hehe, thanks. Oo cool! I cant look at the pic yet, I'm at school (all sites except for BBC sites blocked) but I will when I get home. Sounds cool though! Long hair on guys is awesome.

I'm pretty good at the moment, thanks. School's getting more relaxed with the end of term approaching. I've become slightly addicted to Danzig o.O I listened to Satan's Child last night and now I NEED the album. His other stuff's pretty cool too but Satan's Child just has something about it (and no its not the name). How are you?


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Atari - Tok'ra (With my symbiote Jullinar)

Yeah well it's still nearer.

Yeah, you definetly suit being a goth. Have you had a look at that picture yet? I really want an early 80's pic of him because he has about the right hair but I can't fnd one...smiley - sadface I would agree, it sucks when guys cut their hair real short, it's wasting so much!

I can't wait for this term to end, it's been tiring with all the tests and work and so on, it'll be good for it just to end. Cool, sounds like you're as addicted to Danzig as I am to Sonic Youth...I'm alright thanks, I got out of school for an extended lunch today for a doctor's appointment to see how my arm is getting on, it really is getting better now so yay.


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Post 17

Countess Freyja

Or is it? I dont know any Geography cos it sucks.

smiley - smiley thanks. Some of the stuff I wear I'm not allowed out in like my jeans (I dyed them black and ripped the knees, and now they have HUGE holes in which I like but I'm not allowed out in them on my own cos 'its giving off the wrong message'). I might be dying my hair purple in the summer. I edited one of my pics so that the hair's purple and it looks pretty cool. Yup I have seen the pic, its cool smiley - smiley.

It'll be finished for me in 25 hours. Am looking forward to it. We have language plays this afternoon. Just 3 more lessons of this term, and we probably wont be doing any work. I'm glad to hear that your arm is better smiley - smiley

I've made Jo very happy. Her CD got confiscated on Tuesday, she was supposed to be getting it back tomorrow but I asked the teacher and he gave it to me today. So she's very pleased with me. Teachers have such a biased view on Satanism (it was confiscated for being 'Satanic'), they all think its Devil worshipping and its NOT. The majority of people have a narrow minded view of Satanism. Yeah, Marilyn Manson is a Satanist but Satanism isnt wrong. But teachers dont know that.. Sorry I'm going off on one again. What do you think about Satanism?


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Atari - Tok'ra (With my symbiote Jullinar)

Yeah geography does suck the way it is taught at school, it's better just to go to different countries and find out what they're like yourself.smiley - winkeye

Whatever, I hate it when people get told there's a reason they can't wear what we want...it's how we express ourselves and if you can't wear dyed black jeans that's just stupid. I have some jeans myself which I plan to rip, what's the best way to do it? Yeah you'd look cool with purple hair.smiley - smiley

Well I'm glad Jo is happy with you. Can you tell me a little about Satanism? I believe you when you day it's not devil worship and that it's discriminated against but what about it do you like?


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Post 19

Countess Freyja

Yeah, I cant wait to finally give it up at the end of this year.

Yup. I also got some OTT black trousers. I have a pic of me wearing them but you cant see the full bagginess of them and my face looks stupid. They're really baggy and long and have lots of metal bits, and i'm not allowed to wear them to school. i'm not allowed to wear band t shirts to school either, which sucks. to rip jeans, just cut a rip just below the knee, and pull it apart. i went too far and there are huge gaping holes in them. but i like them so muh. i'm thinking of getting some baggy 3/4 lengths for summer.

She got a bit /too/ happy and gave me a hug and pulled me on top of her.. wasnt particularly fun. Satanism is basically self worship. http://www.churchofsatan.com theres a lot of information on there. Satanism basically represents indulgence and self gratification, which i completely agree with.


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Post 20

Countess Freyja

*poke* reply to me smiley - cross


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