This is the Message Centre for Saint DIABLOS.P.O.D. -Patron Saint of Goths
i want to tell people
Saint DIABLOS.P.O.D. -Patron Saint of Goths Started conversation Apr 7, 2003
my mind is doing me no favours being home i need to get back to york where i wont have constant reminders
5 years ago yesterday my grandad died slowly and painfully. i think about him alot i miss him i wish he was here now
things on my mind in part
1) Loneliness so wretched i cry myself to sleep or try to avoid going to sleep till i collapse in exhaustion so i wont think about things, its not working
2)Wele please be ok i miss you i really want to see you sometime
3)Roo i miss you why did things happen the way they did? i just dont know or understand anymore
4)Eman i tried i really tried
5)Lucy i miss you and knowing it is making me feel worse
6)David there is nothing i can do for you, ive tried but i cant help people who dont want to be helped im there for you if youd give me the chance
7)Loz i want to meet you but ive not got a reply to the e-mail i sent you
8)Nikki i just dont know
9)Emma be strong itll be ok
10)George find a reason to live no matter how minute and build on it please for me dont destroy yourself
11)Amy keep well and look after pb and tom
12)i love you all on h2g2 ive said it before and have always meant it as i do now
13)Rl friends arent what they are cracked up to be
14)Fei keep well and dont let him bother you
15)i need a real kiss and hug and the person i want it from i cant get it from
16)My life has been so much worse but there feels like there is something big in the depths at the moment its not long before a disaster will hit again
17)i cant help feeling self pity at the moment, i know it is but im almost wallowing in it
18)Emily it was really good to see you again
19)i wish i was better with my words
20)i wish i knew who i was i had it sorted and it changed i know itll never be straight forward but i honestly thought i had it
21)Mom misses me when im away but i dont miss her and being at home makes me realise that more is that a really bad thng?
22)Mom has to cope with david on her own now, hes never been my responsibility but now e feels like it even more and i cant help as i just dont know him
23)this is all probably more than any of you care to know but i feel a need to tell you all
24)Emily i hope one day i meet you
25)jude and hev i know you are looking out for roo id expect no more but i cant be blamed for everything
26)jessy and cutie i love speaking to you
27) i just dont know what to do with myself
there is more but i cant really go on maybe later
i want to tell people
Emily...overly fond of the ellipsis...and top ten lists...submit yours @ A87824361... Posted Apr 7, 2003
I think all I can really say or do to that is - 
i want to tell people
Cutiechops:0)...............' THE LOUNGS '.............NUMBER 1FAN''...;0) Posted Apr 7, 2003
hiyyyaaaa D 
lots of big problems on young shoulders...n by the sounds of things,most of them r other ppls problems.....
u make urself no#1 priority,,stuff other ppl 4now...get urself n ur problems sorted 1st....ur gonna make urself ill babe
take care of urself n i chattin 2u aswell babes
loadsa
EM---XXXXXX
i want to tell people
Abi Posted Apr 7, 2003
Hey honey
I am sorry you are feeling so blue
Have you tried talking to someone? It would be good if you could try talking to someone in your family, or a friend.
If you don't feel up to that, the Samaritans can be very helpful. You can find them online at http://www.samaritans.org.uk/ if you want to try them.
Abi
i want to tell people
Amy Pawloski, aka 'paper lady'--'Mufflewhump'?!? click here to find out... (ACE) Posted Apr 7, 2003
I am taking care of Tom and PaperBAby, and Tom's taking care of us too
You take care of *you* little bro
i want to tell people
Saint DIABLOS.P.O.D. -Patron Saint of Goths Posted Apr 8, 2003
Abi no offense but you always seem to be recomending them to someone and i dont need them ive coped with so much worse and will continue to do so.
i want to tell people
Saint DIABLOS.P.O.D. -Patron Saint of Goths Posted Apr 8, 2003
s to everyone es and
i want to tell people
Emily...overly fond of the ellipsis...and top ten lists...submit yours @ A87824361... Posted Apr 8, 2003
chin up honey, don't let the fear or whatever get you, you're better than it and you can beat it I'm sure
i want to tell people
the other omylouse "multiply (1*6) by (6*1+0+3)!" Posted Apr 9, 2003
(i wanna b d blue blob there ok?!)
am trying to work out if i count as RL or H2G2 friend! probably both methinks. pop round as often as u like when i get back next week ok? we'll work our way thru all the vids at the nearest store if nothing else!
oh & tis normal not too miss ur mum (point number.... whatever t'was!), dont worry bout it. it affects us all differently on a sliding scale from 'homesick & cant cope' to 'woohoo im free, never going back'. i keep bouncing along in the middle there.
you should've read the studentdom book (i think we all should've read it last year actually, but we cant go back only forwards) tis really good. am jus over half way thru so will pass it back to u over easter.
take care, if u feel the need to escape for a bit offer to take chloe up the park (or jus go on ur own), tis the best place to escape to i always used to find. leave all ur worries hanging at the gate and be free for a few hours.
love n hugs
omy 
i want to tell people
Galaxy Babe - eclectic editor Posted Apr 10, 2003
wish I could help - I'm here anyway.
i want to tell people
Tabitca Posted Apr 10, 2003
Thinking about you wish i could do something to help. You have lots of friends on H2 G2 who won't judge you and want to make you feel better. Take care of yourself.
i want to tell people
simply scruff singing a rainbow Posted Apr 11, 2003
hey honey, keep smilin babes cos even if u don't mean it, it'll always help a little. put your worries in your poems and forget 'em for a bit. luv and hugs
scruff X
i want to tell people
Saint DIABLOS.P.O.D. -Patron Saint of Goths Posted Apr 16, 2003
its where most of the materials for my poems comes from anyway
i want to tell people
simply scruff singing a rainbow Posted Apr 27, 2003
yeah i figured it might, i do the same, helps for a bit though don't it
scruff X
No. 21
Only Homo sapiens Posted Jul 25, 2003
Well you know how I feel on that one!
We know it's normal...
love u xxx 
Key: Complain about this post
i want to tell people
- 1: Saint DIABLOS.P.O.D. -Patron Saint of Goths (Apr 7, 2003)
- 2: Emily...overly fond of the ellipsis...and top ten lists...submit yours @ A87824361... (Apr 7, 2003)
- 3: Hati (Apr 7, 2003)
- 4: Cutiechops:0)...............' THE LOUNGS '.............NUMBER 1FAN''...;0) (Apr 7, 2003)
- 5: Clelba (Apr 7, 2003)
- 6: Abi (Apr 7, 2003)
- 7: Amy Pawloski, aka 'paper lady'--'Mufflewhump'?!? click here to find out... (ACE) (Apr 7, 2003)
- 8: Saint DIABLOS.P.O.D. -Patron Saint of Goths (Apr 8, 2003)
- 9: Saint DIABLOS.P.O.D. -Patron Saint of Goths (Apr 8, 2003)
- 10: Emily...overly fond of the ellipsis...and top ten lists...submit yours @ A87824361... (Apr 8, 2003)
- 11: the other omylouse "multiply (1*6) by (6*1+0+3)!" (Apr 9, 2003)
- 12: Galaxy Babe - eclectic editor (Apr 10, 2003)
- 13: Tabitca (Apr 10, 2003)
- 14: simply scruff singing a rainbow (Apr 11, 2003)
- 15: Saint DIABLOS.P.O.D. -Patron Saint of Goths (Apr 16, 2003)
- 16: simply scruff singing a rainbow (Apr 27, 2003)
- 17: Saint DIABLOS.P.O.D. -Patron Saint of Goths (Apr 27, 2003)
- 18: Only Homo sapiens (Jul 25, 2003)
More Conversations for Saint DIABLOS.P.O.D. -Patron Saint of Goths
Write an Entry
"The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy is a wholly remarkable book. It has been compiled and recompiled many times and under many different editorships. It contains contributions from countless numbers of travellers and researchers."