h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

A Poem

This world... is tender... is lies
Night in all it's honesty is calling me
All my wants have turned to clay
All my needs have come to stay

This world... is glorious... is fake
Nothing can be as savage as Earth
All my hopes have flown away
All my mind has blown away

This world... is more than I can take
I'll take Death's hand and go dreaming
All my tears will dry away
All my fears will fade away

Dear.

It is a beautiful poem, but the sadness wrings my heart.

And I am hurt - don't you listen when we say we care? Are we worth so little? I'm talking about Steph, Amy and me, to start with.

But I guess your own feelings are so strong, that imagining ours fade in comparison?

Let yourself be loved - because you are.


Milla

I'm sorry. I know what it feels like to be the one trying to make someone understand that they are loved and cared for believe it.

When someone that hates themself and believes that veryone hates them and that those that don't hate them should is told that they are care about or even loved it goes against their entire perception of their reality. It isn't as it can feel it is, that they simply don't care about how you feel. How much the hurt you feel because someone loved is hurting. It is simply that sometimes and for many at all times it is not possible to accept.
The idea that they are very much alone comes from the fact that very few people in RL show the same concern. And that online friends are only there when they have abit of time free from there own lives to chose to be there.
Words are very powerful thing and do a great deal. But if you are in a certain state of mind they can seem to be meaning forms on a screen with no sicerity only pity beghind them.

Thats OK. I have had times of not liking myself a lot, but not of the magnitude you have.

About online friends - the fact that we choose to come back should tell you something though

repeating my words: Let yourself be loved. You are worth it.


Milla

I find opening myself up to love very hard. And believing I am worth it harder still. I do try. However I am not in a state at the moment where it's gonna happen. I need time and some RL support.

I wish I was there to be real with you. If it hepls.

Milla

At this exact moment in time I'm feeling numb. Another aspect BPD, sometimes the numbness is unbarable in itself. But right now it's a relief.

Wow!

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You are right....we choose to be here and to read what you've writen and to share our thoughts and feelings that you have inspired, whether it is melancholy, sadness, rage, or happiness.

I don't have much time to be on here sometimes but that doesn't mean to say I care any less...we all have much to say. Much like in real life..only sometimes we don't have the courage or deftness of mind to bring it to tongue and its much easier to write - well for me thats true anyway...

I do like that poem tho, Stealth

Thank you...