h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

Ah good good...

I'm more stable than I have been lately... my schizo-affective disorder has flipped into an anxious phase... had to get a taxi to the hospital for my blood test as I couldn't handle the idea of walking there...

Least your more stable now though..

Lets hope that continues and you can start to build some kind of life again..

One thing to remember there is always someone willing to listen and that there are people who care weather its in reality or just on line friends.


MA

Yeah, I'm more stable withi myself... my schizo-affective disorder keep flipping from one pole to the other though...

There's no-one in reality to listen or to care.
A very few online.

I know what you mean but haveing a few on line is better than haveing no one.
And i find myself sometimes its easier toi talk to a on line friend that people you know in reality.

Please try stay possative and strong though. Im always here if you want to talk shout at someone etc

There's only one person that e mails me... There's no-one that phones me I have no-one to drink with or to hold to have normal conversation with... My life is empty and pointless... Online friends are an illusion a self-deception... sitting in front of a computer isn't a social life.

Hon, you know if you want a call, I'll call... I just don't want to try, and be calling the wrong place (for instance, if I were to try calling now, not only would it be too late at night for politeness sake, but I wouldn't get ahold of you anyway, as I don't think I've your mom's number...)

Though I have to disagree about online friendships being only an illusion (heck, many of the closest friends I've ever had, I've met here), I have to agree that sitting here isn't a social life...

I don't have any close friends. The first person who I ever thought was my friend raped me, all my "friends" at school though I was pathetic joke and now the only person in the world that comes close to being a friend is Suz and how can she really truely like me?

Because you're a caring, sweet man, though I know you won't listen to me *sigh*

I want to believe she likes me so much but I can't, I'm pathetic and I've caused her so much hurt... she doesn't believe me when I tell her good things about her, she think I'm just kissing her ass and you can't respect someone who's an ass kisser is just doesn't work...

She doesn't believe me either, and I don't think she believes Justin, so I don't think her not agreeing with any of us has anything to do with how much she cares for us, you being included in that 'us', btw.