h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I came over this website a couple of days ago and Ive found it really useful in helping me through things. This is no offence to family or friends but its very hard to tell them what you feel when theyve never experienced the feelings of depression. I hope that anyone who reads this will feel free to reply to say anything. I felt dead good when I saw that other people feel the same way because I was starting to think that nobody else knew how it felt. I dont mean to sound like Im preaching because Im not that type. The good thing about this site is that you can say how you feel and express it to anyone who wants to listen

It's hard to tell someone how you feel, when you don't know how you feel yourself.
Growing up is hard, and realising people aren't as perfect as you believed them to be can be difficult to accept.
What can be more diificult is unlearning "Truths", things people have told you about yourself, which you believe but which are not, such as being, useless, bad, naughty. Changigng the way you think about yourself, others and the the way you and they behave is hard. But it does help.
I'm on the long slog back, but i'm getting there.

At first you think the sure fire way to be happy is to have sex with a beautiful girl, and loosing your virginity at the same time. However a few days later when she decides she never wants to see you again and tells everyone you treated her like s**t, your back at the bottom.

Around the same time alcohol offers it's services to you. Although it's a depressant it works, as it is usually in conjunction with having the best time of your life with your mates. Eventually you drink and feel depressed cause your depressed anyway, and so it doesn't work anymore.

At this time you really feel depressed and you wonder why you were felling depressed before all this, and so that makes you even more depressed.

You sit on your bedroom floor looking up and out of the window, or you lie on your bed your head buried in the pillows, you sit still in a crowd of friends and it's now that you must remember this :
you like the way you can never get your hair perfect
you like the way you don't live forever,
you like the way some people don't get on with others
you like the way your not happy with your body.
you like the way you hate it
and in turn you like yourself

hating things leads to hating yourself.

and if your thinking about other people right now:
f**k everyone else, they are just followers, and they will follow you when you lead them with your self confidence.

You must be the change you wish to see in the world.

Depression is a very hard thing to deal with sometimes, and coming from someone who lost her father at 4, dad's parents before birth, best friend at 10, grandpa and best friend at 14, and is losing grandma now, it doesn't ever seem to get easier. However, I've found that finding a true friend, and being able to trust yourself enough to trust that true friend can be a key to turning it around. It's finding that self-trust that is the hardest part, but it can be done. If you have depression, you have to take it seriously, and make others take it seriously. What i didn't know by losing my dad at 4 is that he had severe depression and oft times it can be genetic. The hard part is talking to someone about it, but it is important. I was recently diagnosed with major depression and generalized anxiety disorder (GAD). The good news things like this are treatable, and appearantly, it can get better.