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Just recieved a TXT, about a very good friend of mine, although with whom I've lost contact somewhat in the last few years... Actually, he was both a very good friend, and my lover/partner, for a very long while, until a few years back....
Anyhow, he's been really very ill for quite a number of years as he had a melanoma, which had given him secondary liver cancer, and the treatment for that had been a very ongoing battle, and it kept shifting about, and metastasising all over teh place, over the past few years, and, well, it was pretty clear it wasn't ever going to be a curable thing... But, he'd kept going and suchlike, though hadn't really been well enough for me to have seen him in the last, oh, three years or so... I'd kept in contact, though, via E-Mails, but he didn't reply too often, as I guess he was pretty rough most of the time, what with all the side-affects of the medications etc...

Anyhow... Just got a TXT, from a mutual friend, and it seems its spread to his brain, adn he's now hospitalised and with appprox 6 weeks to live, according to the doctors
The mutual friend is over in Cambridge tonight, as he's goign to teh Cambridge beer festavil, so we're going to meet up, for a quick drink, before he heads to that (I'm off out tonight to ten pin), Kind of been half expecting such a TXT really, I guess, for the past year or so in particular, but... even so... At least he's got a lot of good friends, near where he lives...

Sorry to hear this.

Thanks... Its very sad, even if it was kinda half-expected (I'd been E-mailing him a few months back, so new the cancer was still spreading and the treatments basically were just kinda holding it at bay a bit...)...

I'm so sorry to hear it. Cancer should just eff off and disappear.

Oh... definately.... cancer is just a .....

Sorry to hear that.

Thanks *puts brave face on* Friend should be here soon I guess...

That was very strange... so nice meeting up with the mutual friend, who I've known for years and years, but not actually seen in ... about three or thereabouts... so was nice meeting up with him, and being so as he happened to mention how his little kids are like all off to university and A levels and things now and, then catching up on news of the friend who's in end stage cancer... Got to get ready, to head out, in... about forty minutes or so, for ten pin... and I think I need to spend a certain amount of time... ing first and then trying to compose myself... yet again Hoping to try and be able to get a trip, to visit the friend, in hospital within the next couple of weeks, err, basically before it might be too late He was... is, an important person to me, even if I've not really seen him, or spoken to him much, the past err, three years I guess... longest relationship I've ever had, in fact, thinking about it... and... yes... I'm with William now, and I want that to be a relationship that lasts forever. But... yeh, there's an aweful lot of emotions kicking about back there somewhere... in the recesses of my mind but... really must try find a quick bite of soemthing to eat, before I have to go out... I may have to try leave those emotions alone, for a few days, until I've got William's shoulder to myself, when I'm at his, from Saturday...

OK... teddy bear has a job later.. Munched about half a litre of milk, and a couple of jaffacakes which shall do until I get back
I think... for the time being I'll just put the emotions into throwing my 14 LB ball down the lane at the pins... the otter bits can wait until later *puts a bunch of thoughts and stuff into a large compartment in the back of his head, to look at at some future time*

he'll soon... not exist... anymore... that is so just not right... he was... is... loverly.. intelligent... clever.. whitty... so good compnay... and... I need my teddy. now.

Going to visit him, in hospital, as soon as possible, in the next couple weeks, With William. and . well, I guess that is as much as one can do. really. and. William has promised to arrive a bit early tomorrow, before we go into town, for stuff, so I can... have a proper cry. still finding it kinda weird... though... I mean, I knew he'd be dieing, soon, as of when I heard of him having that illness, err, back about 2011, or 2012, I think it was... I mean.. that's the way that* just works out... so... why should It be like so such a shock, or something I'm meant to be like a logical person afterall and... and.. well.. I've been with William quite a few years now.. and yet... well, surely... being 'but an ex' I shouldn't be so* ... or quite so* ... emotions... I mean... really... are they actually useful...

I'm glad you have Teddy, and William, and that you have decided to visit. It's difficult, but I do believe it will be good anyway. Somehow.

Yes. I have to visit him, in hospital... Though, that is just 'weird' in 'my head'... all the useual stuff one does, when visiting someone in hospital, I guess kinda doesn't apply when your not wishing the person concerned a quick recovery, etc... but.. I expect it'll make some kind of sense..

Nice pavlovian response of mine last night... recieving the news, and then getting pissed probably not a healthy response really and strangely things make a bit more sense in the morning, and sober William will be here, in a couple hours, and then we've all day, weather looks nice so some nice walking about I think, then we're meeting William's daughter and hopefully her daughter too (maybe with the pink poodle I bought her - She doesn't know it, but I plan on being her evil uncle... ) Must find more coffee

Sorry to hear about your friend.

Getting drunk and is just so bad

I know and I may have to go out... again, tonight...

"being 'but an ex' I shouldn't be so* ... or quite so* ..."

Not at all. We all have a few special people throughout our lives. Just because that relationship ended, for whatever reason, doesn't mean the person is no longer special.

True... I guess...