This is a Journal entry by Good Doctor Zomnker (This must be Tuesday," said GDZ to himself, sinking low over his Dr. Pepper, "I never could get the hang of Tuesdays.")
Wow, 3 years
Good Doctor Zomnker (This must be Tuesday," said GDZ to himself, sinking low over his Dr. Pepper, "I never could get the hang of Tuesdays.") Started conversation Dec 22, 2004
December 27 marks 3 years since I attempted suicide. Wow! I can't believe it has been that long!
Long story short:
Ex had an affair, I had a mental and emotional breakdown and tried pills and alcohol, I spent a few days in the psychiatric ward.
After I had been released from the psychiatric ward I wrote an email to a good friend:
"I know that you are probably mad at me for attempting suicide.
I had let the pressure build and build and build, I was not able to
release it and it started to eat me up. I didn't know what to do.
This is really no excuse but it is the way that I was feeling at the
time.
I tried to pm you on messenger, I guess you are not on right
now. I am spending some time with Annette but, her friend Cortney has been with us. While I am more able to cope with the situation now, it is still hard to do so. I learned a few good coping skills while I was in the "Nut Ward" LOL. Even now I am trying to use one of them. I called myself weak for having a drink of alcohol, I have to find 3 reasons that invalidate that phrase. I am having a hard time doing so. I have been writing a journal for the last several days, I had tried journaling before but this time I am determined to keep it up. In my journal, I write what I am feeling, what my thoughts are. I let Annette read it so that she knows what I am feeling. When I write in it, I do not even think about the fact that Annette will be reading it. Some of what I write hurts her a little but, it is how I feel. One day I will have to copy my journal into an email for you so that you can read it."
It's truly amazing what a person can accomplish, mentally, when they have put themselves on the brink of mental and emotional death. I divorced my wife(something I did not think I could do) and I am raising my kids as a single parent. Who'd a thunk it?
Wow, 3 years
Teuchter Posted Dec 22, 2004
I'm so glad for you that your life has turned right around. 
It can be useful to look backwards and see where you've been - after all, it's our past experiences that make us who we are today. Usually, the really bad and difficult times give us a strength and insight which can rarely be found any other way.
Keep looking forward - and enjoy your wonderful children. They grow up in the blink of an eye, it seems.
Wow, 3 years
Blue-Eyed BiPedal BookWorm from Betelgeuse (aka B4[insertpunhere]) Posted Dec 22, 2004
GDZ:
Glad you made it through such a harrowing time. Glad you were able to turn your lifestyle around to something that works better for you. Doubly glad you've been on HooToo as a vital presence, sharing your life and your thoughts with us. Your insights have meant a great deal to many of us, and I thank you personally for helping me see a few things from a different, better perspective. 
Have a blessed and lively holiday with the kids, family, and friends. And don't let it end with this celebration. Keep that momentum going through next year and all the succeeding years to come. Breathe deeply the fine scent of a life filled with the fragrances of love and joy from the relationships you build each day. 
B4iseeUagainaftertheholiday
Wow, 3 years
marvthegrate LtG KEA Posted Dec 22, 2004
I still need to give you a good swift kick in the backside for that one mano.
Wow, 3 years
Good Doctor Zomnker (This must be Tuesday," said GDZ to himself, sinking low over his Dr. Pepper, "I never could get the hang of Tuesdays.") Posted Dec 22, 2004
Hasn't the statute of limitations passed on that?
Wow, 3 years
marvthegrate LtG KEA Posted Dec 22, 2004
Nope. I claim a 100 year statute on that one. I've the right.
Wow, 3 years
Good Doctor Zomnker (This must be Tuesday," said GDZ to himself, sinking low over his Dr. Pepper, "I never could get the hang of Tuesdays.") Posted Dec 22, 2004
so, if I avoid your foot for the next 97 years, I'm good?
Key: Complain about this post
Wow, 3 years
- 1: Good Doctor Zomnker (This must be Tuesday," said GDZ to himself, sinking low over his Dr. Pepper, "I never could get the hang of Tuesdays.") (Dec 22, 2004)
- 2: Teuchter (Dec 22, 2004)
- 3: Blue-Eyed BiPedal BookWorm from Betelgeuse (aka B4[insertpunhere]) (Dec 22, 2004)
- 4: marvthegrate LtG KEA (Dec 22, 2004)
- 5: Good Doctor Zomnker (This must be Tuesday," said GDZ to himself, sinking low over his Dr. Pepper, "I never could get the hang of Tuesdays.") (Dec 22, 2004)
- 6: marvthegrate LtG KEA (Dec 22, 2004)
- 7: Good Doctor Zomnker (This must be Tuesday," said GDZ to himself, sinking low over his Dr. Pepper, "I never could get the hang of Tuesdays.") (Dec 22, 2004)
More Conversations for Good Doctor Zomnker (This must be Tuesday," said GDZ to himself, sinking low over his Dr. Pepper, "I never could get the hang of Tuesdays.")
Write an Entry
"The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy is a wholly remarkable book. It has been compiled and recompiled many times and under many different editorships. It contains contributions from countless numbers of travellers and researchers."