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Very very scary
powerfulmaureen Started conversation Jul 31, 2004
I'm just minding my own business. I'm lonely, so when you ask me out to lunch I agree. We've only talked on the phone, but I like your voice. I wait for you to show up. I'm nervous, so I've brought a book to kill the time until you show up. (If you show up)
I look up and there you are, standing in the sun. You are so very handsome. You take my breath away. "Steady" I say to myself. I have a bruised heart. The scars are still there, ready to be reopened. I decide I'm going to play it cool, but I don't seem to be able to keep that promise. I look into your eyes, play with my hair, touch you lightly. All those things that tell you I like you.
It makes me vulnerable, I don't like that. It scares me. It scares me that I'm giving up my control to you. Yet in a strange way, I have already decided to trust you. Despite myself, my intellectual guard and past experience. I see you looking at me and I don't want anyone else to ever look at me again except you. I'm scared. Please don't break my heart. Too late.
Very very scary
jaz'd(ace & yada yada *sigh* chocolate yada) Posted Aug 1, 2004
"Too late."? I agree, very very scary!
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