This is a Journal entry by Laudatortemporisacti - RIP TB Falsename, I will always love you. :'-(
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Laudatortemporisacti - RIP TB Falsename, I will always love you. :'-( Started conversation Apr 22, 2005
Why the hell is life like this???!!!
It slaps me all over all the time.
I couldn't even distract myself.
I tried, yes. I went at 11pm to make crumpets the other night. Ended up with a pan of boiling oil down my front.
Last night, felt like s***, I'm sick of people not accepting me for who I am, I can decide what I want to like, who I want to like, why I want to like them.
So I slashed myself up pretty bad, hit a main vein (by accident, I swear), passed out, woke up later (thank goodness I have this stupid heart thing where it doesn't beat fast...), looked at the mess I'd made, tried to clean it up, threw up, had to clean that up too, cried myself to sleep (damn I hate being so alone!!!), woke up - life hadn't got any better.
Went shopping this morning - not even that helped. It never does anyway. I just go into a place with a lot of people so that I can't hurt myself - didn't work this time. Got home just now. Came on here.
Will cry myself to sleep again tonight. I know that coz I'm crying now and I can't stop.
By nature I don't listen to Avril Lavigne.
But here she's said it pretty well.
Nobody's Home...
I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.
What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
She's lost inside, lost inside...
She's lost inside, lost inside...
Anybody out there???
Horatio_Caine: {Princess Garnet Til Alexandros XVII} Posted Apr 22, 2005
Im here!!
But...are you now..?
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Laudatortemporisacti - RIP TB Falsename, I will always love you. :'-( Posted Apr 22, 2005
No...I'm lost... 
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Horatio_Caine: {Princess Garnet Til Alexandros XVII} Posted Apr 22, 2005
*
's you and gets you a map*
That was supposed to be a silly..joke!!
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Asmodai Dark (The Eternal Builder, servant of Howard, Crom, and Beans) Posted Apr 22, 2005
I can offer you two things - a shoulder to cry on or a bed for a few nights (fair do its a broken bed and a dodgy matress but..)
If it gets like that again hun, save up some cash, and come for a holiday in blighty. Get away from it all for awhile because you really need it.
Even if I don't put you up theres a dozen people on here who would *prepares flaying knife for anyone who questions the word of AD*
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Laudatortemporisacti - RIP TB Falsename, I will always love you. :'-( Posted Apr 22, 2005
Thank you AD... just keep that knife out of my hands
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T.B. Falsename ACE: [stercus venio] I have learned from my mistakes, and feel I could repeat them exactly. Posted Apr 23, 2005
... and let them breath 
... and once more
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Laudatortemporisacti - RIP TB Falsename, I will always love you. :'-( Posted Apr 23, 2005
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Ralph the Wonder Llama and André the dodo; Excrement Occurs Posted Apr 25, 2005
We're all here.
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NPY Posted Apr 25, 2005
You know what this means?
It's party time! Celebrating how special and wonderful we all are.
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Horatio_Caine: {Princess Garnet Til Alexandros XVII} Posted Apr 25, 2005
Partys are overrated
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Horatio_Caine: {Princess Garnet Til Alexandros XVII} Posted Apr 25, 2005
Hmm...
Key: Complain about this post
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- 1: Laudatortemporisacti - RIP TB Falsename, I will always love you. :'-( (Apr 22, 2005)
- 2: Horatio_Caine: {Princess Garnet Til Alexandros XVII} (Apr 22, 2005)
- 3: Laudatortemporisacti - RIP TB Falsename, I will always love you. :'-( (Apr 22, 2005)
- 4: Horatio_Caine: {Princess Garnet Til Alexandros XVII} (Apr 22, 2005)
- 5: Asmodai Dark (The Eternal Builder, servant of Howard, Crom, and Beans) (Apr 22, 2005)
- 6: Laudatortemporisacti - RIP TB Falsename, I will always love you. :'-( (Apr 22, 2005)
- 7: Cal - interim high priest of the Church of the Holy Tail (Apr 23, 2005)
- 8: guina (Apr 23, 2005)
- 9: Horatio_Caine: {Princess Garnet Til Alexandros XVII} (Apr 23, 2005)
- 10: T.B. Falsename ACE: [stercus venio] I have learned from my mistakes, and feel I could repeat them exactly. (Apr 23, 2005)
- 11: Horatio_Caine: {Princess Garnet Til Alexandros XVII} (Apr 23, 2005)
- 12: Laudatortemporisacti - RIP TB Falsename, I will always love you. :'-( (Apr 23, 2005)
- 13: NPY (Apr 24, 2005)
- 14: guina (Apr 24, 2005)
- 15: NPY (Apr 24, 2005)
- 16: Ralph the Wonder Llama and André the dodo; Excrement Occurs (Apr 25, 2005)
- 17: NPY (Apr 25, 2005)
- 18: Horatio_Caine: {Princess Garnet Til Alexandros XVII} (Apr 25, 2005)
- 19: NPY (Apr 25, 2005)
- 20: Horatio_Caine: {Princess Garnet Til Alexandros XVII} (Apr 25, 2005)
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