h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

BUT...and this really is important...schedule little things. Things that it's not a disaster if they're not done. Don't set yourself up to fail. This isn't the time for you to set serious goals.

Be kind to yourself.

It's difficult not to compare myself to others, who seem to have such an easy start at university, make friends, are happy...

I tried to phone a few therapists just now. The answering machines of three of them told me that they won't take on any more patients at the moment. I'll try some more tomorrow.

>>It's difficult not to compare myself to others,

Yes, that's a big one. But they're them and you're you. They wont be without problems. They'll just have different ones.

"There're two kinds of people in the world - the ones who are sorting their shit out and the ones who aren't"

Be proud that you're in the former category.

It's hard for me not to compare myself unfavorably to others sometimes, too ("how does she keep her home so clean while mine is such a pigsty", etc). Edward's right- as usual.

And yeah, the people who seem to have an easier time just might haveless obvious difficulty, or be better at hiding it. Some of the people I've known who seemed the happiest and/or most "together" were seriously miserable and ed up underneath it all.

How has your week been going?

I overslept today, so I missed one course in the morning . But at least I went to the other two courses. I can't really remember the last days - I think it's my memory going blank again . I had this state pretty badly almost a year ago, when I had my big and long breakdown. My mind refused to work properly. I think since then my memory sometimes blurs . I only have this vague notion of what has been going on.

All perfectly normal. Just keep taking it day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute. And don't worry. "This too will pass."

I made an appointment with a therapist in two weeks time.

Tomorrow I've got uni again . From 9 to 6 in one go .

Keep on keeping on. You're getting through life. Take that as a positive. And you *will* feel better.

Oh man, that was tiring today. It made me wonder if university life is really the right thing for me. Maybe some sort of apprenticeship would suit me better after all. I'm off to bed early now

Hi hun. I've been kind of bored and grumpy, online and off. Halloween is not my favorite holiday, especially since I don't have kids to take trick or treating.

Whoops, didn't mean to kill the conversation. How are you doing hun?

It's not your fault JEllen , I just didn't know what to write. I had a breakdown again last sunday, a week ago. So I packed my stuff and drove home. I've been sleeping and watching TV at my parents' house for the last week, to distract myself.
Now I'm looking out for a day-hospital to get some intense therapy. But it seems the next appointment I could have is on november 30th. So what am I going to do in the next almost 4 weeks? University is not an option for me at the moment.

I'll go phone my doctor now, maybe I'll have some news soon.

Oh, I am sorry hun. Don't know what to say that won't sound lame. Keeping you in my thoughts. I hope this month goes by quickly so you can get in to see a therapist.

Hi just wondered how you are doing now, and how the doctor appointment went.

Sending