h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I have some mixed feelings today. Hmm well, yesterday was the day of mixed feelings, actually, today I haven't woken up yet

After some weeks, I invited my best friend Sabrina again yesterday. I have a very complicated relationship towards her. I'm always looking forward to seeing her, but the meetings are a bit disappointing, I think for both of us. I am terribly anxious to bore her, so I get very tense. Only after some time I start to relax, and start to talk. I keep very quiet at first, with anyone. It hurt that she told me what to do (talking about university), always saying "what, you haven't done this and that yet?! Better hurry!" I had a plan and was feeling good about it, but she made me all nervous and feeling inferior. I don't think she knows how she can hurt me. I don't show it, too.

Yeah, well, we went out, drinking cocktails, and to the cinema. We watched "Memoirs of a Geisha", that was so beautiful! Wonderfully atmospheric, beautifully photographed. And incredibly foreign and strange.

Before, in the bar, Sabrina and me, we were laughing and talking, having lots of fun. We share a lot of private jokes and memories, I know what makes her laugh, and we can get to a level of sillyness, unlike with anyone else I know. On the way home we're always quiet. I didn't quite know if she liked the film, so I was scared to say something wrong again, in case she might laugh at me. I hate nothing more than being humiliated and laughed at.

I gave her a copy of The Smiths: "The Queen is dead", which I guessed she would like, because it's so excentric. I had asked her to give me a copy of a cd of hers: Fleetwood Mac "Rumours". I had heard the song "Dreams" a while ago on the radio, and wanted to have it on cd. So, last night when Sabrina was away on her way home, I listened to "Rumours" and was hit by a wave of memories. I was instantly transported 10 years back, when we were kids, sitting in Sabrina's room, listening to the oldie-radio playing songs of the 60s, or listening to Beatles, Cat Stevens and Fleetwood Mac records of her father (without understanding a single word of English). I had completely forgotten about the song "You make loving fun", and it's such a joy to hear that now again. Very nostalgic, to listen to songs you haven't heard for years...during a time in your life that will never come back. I'm pretty sure that I wouldn't want those times to come back, but it makes me sad, nevertheless

I never did believe in miracles,
But I've a feeling it's time to try
I never did believe in the ways of magic,
But I'm beginning to wonder why

Your in a flux of change, your transitioning, it's okay to feel this way - your life is moving on

Wise words MV!

Susanne, don't worry if people sometimes disagree with your taste. Everyone has own opinion. Your preferences are all your own, be proud of them.

Yeh, isn't it cool how music can transport us back in time?