This is a Journal entry by Jerms - a Brief flicker and then gone again.
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Jerms - a Brief flicker and then gone again. Started conversation May 16, 2005
I need to go for a wee. Whee! Ah, that's better.
I need a holiday again. I've decided I work too hard. Yet somehow, I don't feel productive enough. My assignments are looming and making me stressed - same old story all over again; I'm getting used to not having enough time. People are trying to catch up with me without any kind of success at all, to the point where I've been getting random texts at 2am saying things like: "Visit, dammit! I have ice-cream and fruit salady goodness..." and: "Busy little ! The university OWNS your white ss." Etc.
But I haven't actually wanted to do anything with anyone recently, even the people I really like. But I don't want them to feel that they've done anything to make me avoid them personally.
And some of them (the ones who actually own cars, mainly) have been randomly turning up to see if I'm actually home, and then ordering pizza and insisting on staying to watch a movie or something. I appreciate the sediment (oops I mean sentiment - I always say that wrong for some reason,) but I've just wanted them to not be there just now, recently.
Sleep would be nice. I miss it. I was so late to work this morning that I didn't actually make it there at all. By the time I was able to function enough to leave the house it was already time to be coming back, swapping bags and going out the door to uni again.
Stupid assignments.
I keep forgetting to take vitamins too, dammit. Vitamins would be good. I've already got a sore throat and itchy eyes, and I'd prefer that not to get worse.
I like the word 'mint'.
Yeah I'm still sick of my degree. Well parts of it. And I'm sick of sundays always whizzing past with a small thunderclap, and then monday hurtling along at the great rate of a herd of tortoises stampeding through peanut butter.
The pills are good. I'm so glad I have them. Now getting decent night's sleeps are the next major priority. Still working on that one.
As a side note: all the bits for the robot seem to be falling together quite nicely. If I had only time, motivation, resources, tools and skills, I might be able to successfully make something really neat. Mint, even. I expect it'll get shelved as a good idea to make later on when I can, instead. Same as all the others. Sigh.
Oh, and the chainmail machine is pretty much a wasted cause. This current engineer has been making the same kind of noises in the same kind of pattern as the previous toolmakers and engineers before him: "Oh yeah we should be able to do that... about $16,000 I reckon." "Er, yeah, sorry, I've had a bit of a talk with the guys in the workshop and it's a lot trickier than I'd first thought... probably more like $150,000." "Um, heh, we're going to have to look at a different design. Have you thought about buying one of the machines which already exist instead?"
I've also come to the conclusion that I should think less and be more hedonistic. Unfortunately, it took 21 consecutive hours of disagreement and misunderstanding to figure this out.
Monkeys. The lot of them.
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logicus tracticus philosophicus Posted May 16, 2005
speaking of which this might interest you
http://pda.ananova.com/news/story/sm_1380116.html?menu=news.story
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Arisztid Lugosi Posted May 16, 2005
jerms!
good to see you again.
i know what you mean about not wanting to see you friends, even the good ones..... ok, so i dont have any really good ones.. and certainly no one who cares about me enough to come over to watch a movie with me... but hey... i'm sort of trying to be sympathetic...
sorry to hear about the chainmail machine not working out
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Mr. X ---> "Be excellent to each other. And party on, dudes!" Posted May 16, 2005
Hey, what do you mean not have good friends who'd come to watch a movie with you? I'm sooooo hurt!!
Least I know that you just mean I'm too far away.......
And I know what you mean about not wanting to spend time with your friends too Jerms, everyone needs time to be alone sometimes.
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Lord Job Boron. That's Lord Job Boron To You! Posted May 16, 2005
Revise. Must revise!
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Jerms - a Brief flicker and then gone again. Posted May 17, 2005
So. Very. Sleepy.
Didn't sleep again much last night, maybe from 11:30 to 12:30, and then again from about 3:30 to 4. And then do you think I could move when my alarm went off to say back to uni again? No. Not even a little.
Program is working, I'm very surprised. Well when I say working I mean it compiles. Close enough. Doesn't actually do anything but return 'null' all the time, but I don't care it compiles.
Very very surprised. I can't think. I can't form senten-thingees. World seems like its spinning, or I'm falling over or something. But I can make a program which can compile, but is too complicated to explain. It uses recursion in some parts, and non-recursive techniques side-by-side to it; don't know how I managed that without memory leaks from here to 'nam. Woo me.
Need food. Need hugs. Need hug shirt, I think. Seems very cool, will have to make one when I have a spare amount of time and some toroids. Always needing toroids these days; must be useful things. Thanks for the link, LTP.
Ow. Jaw hurting from too much yawning. Was there anything else before I go? No, don't think so. Anything else can wait anyway. Been in the lab eight hours continuously today, twelve hours yesterday... I'm sure it went on like that for a while, but I can't remember what day it is. Or month. Year is 2005 I think? Will find out some later day. Maybe we had armaggeddon while I wasn't watching. That would be nice, no need to hand in the other assignment.
Sleep now. Hugs to people. Tomorrow will be better. Maybe.
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Lord Job Boron. That's Lord Job Boron To You! Posted May 17, 2005
"I can't form senten-thingees."
I thought that wasjust you generally.
I cant think of a plausable solution at the moment which doesnt involvenot doing anything.
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Jerms - a Brief flicker and then gone again. Posted May 17, 2005
Feeling much better today; I got at least four hours sleep last night, so yay me!
Back to the assignments... sigh.
Talk soon!
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Arisztid Lugosi Posted May 18, 2005
you need hugs!?
that is fortunatley a department i can help in
<cuddle
not as long as i wanted it told me i had to take some out
!
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Mr. X ---> "Be excellent to each other. And party on, dudes!" Posted May 18, 2005
Does anybody know why the Cosmic Powers put a limit on the number of Smileys you can have in a Post?
Here you go Jerms:
Key: Complain about this post
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- 1: Jerms - a Brief flicker and then gone again. (May 16, 2005)
- 2: logicus tracticus philosophicus (May 16, 2005)
- 3: Arisztid Lugosi (May 16, 2005)
- 4: Mr. X ---> "Be excellent to each other. And party on, dudes!" (May 16, 2005)
- 5: Lord Job Boron. That's Lord Job Boron To You! (May 16, 2005)
- 6: Jerms - a Brief flicker and then gone again. (May 17, 2005)
- 7: Lord Job Boron. That's Lord Job Boron To You! (May 17, 2005)
- 8: Jerms - a Brief flicker and then gone again. (May 17, 2005)
- 9: Arisztid Lugosi (May 18, 2005)
- 10: Mr. X ---> "Be excellent to each other. And party on, dudes!" (May 18, 2005)
- 11: Jerms - a Brief flicker and then gone again. (May 18, 2005)
- 12: Lord Job Boron. That's Lord Job Boron To You! (May 19, 2005)
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