h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

Oh right. I can't really remember much of the book, one bit stands out where the narrator (oh it's pitiful, I can't remember his name dammit) says how it's so annoying with girls, do they mean stop when they say it or not?

I'm not depressed really, I just have a self harm problem that's a hard habit to kick. Not suicidal, I hasten to add. Sometimes I feel depressed but I guess life's like that, huh?

i get depressed a lot, sometimes though i don't want to stop being in that state, its like i just want to wallow in it and make people notice it. but other times i just think oh get on with it. you know waht i mean?

why do you do self harm?

sorry don't mean to be nosy, don't answer if you don't want to

That's OK, it's not like you can spread it around is it? I self harm because ... hmmm ... there are two types I guess. (These are just theories I've picked out of the air over the last 10 months)Sometimes it's to stave off emptiness, emotionlessness, numbness etc. Then (I suppose) it's to make myself feel more alive. Then there's another type when it's to release tension. For a few moments frustration anger jealousy etc drift away. A bit like a depressant. For some twisted reason, everything feels OK. Then, of course (like a depressant again) you remember that you've done something that (to put it mildly) isn't the most healthy of things.
This conversation's taken a very melancholy tone. Here are some virtual pink sparkles: *pink sparkles*

ps I know what you mean about the different kinds of depression. I tend to wallow and then completely lose patience with myself for (in my view at that point) being so stupid.

Sorry, have to go now, have been online too long and my brain's starting to melt. So, when I don't say anything for a long time I haven't taken offence or whatever. Speak to you some other time?
Bye

so have you tried to stop doing it? or do you even want to?

i saw someone get on the bus the other day who had cut herself all up her arms. i've read things about it in magazines and seen pictures but never seen it in real life. you have no idea how shocked i felt to see it up close like that

i'm logging off now anyway,
talk another time on here

Hi again, brain is now functioning correctly and not melted.

I stopped in April, for 4 months, and have only done stuff twice since then. It's a question of willpower I think, and finding other ways of dealing with the emotional badness. Which I try to do ... music, talking to people etc. Having distractions is very helpful. Oh, and acupuncture. That's great. I haven't done things for a week and a bit now, which might not seem a lot but at one time I did stuff almost every day.

I also try to listen to Turin Brakes' advice. Keep blood on the inside and nowhere else!

Helloooo?
How's the work going? How are you?