h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

My goal for today is not to let anything bring me down. I counted eleven dead animals on the way to work. I feel sorry for them, but it's not *my* fault that they are dead.

I have spent 3-1/12 hours at work - approximately 10 minutes was spent doing work related items - the rest of the time I was playing. That's ok too. If they want to pay me for surfing, who am I to complain - even though, after a while, surfing 'does' get a bit boring.

Had one scary moment today. Last night I realized I had left this notebook on my and when I got in this morning, I couldn't find it. It had the rough drafts of my previous journal entries along with some of the stuff from my 'black' web page - that's where the truly terrifying stuff goes. Even I avoid reading it.

Well, yesterday is gone. Today I can face at least one of yesterday's problems - the car payment is late. Oh well, I can't change that no matter how hard I try. What can't be changed must be endured. Smile, it could get worse - it could be next Tuesday. Warning to all concerned, if you think yesterday's post was 'black', you ain't seen nothing yet! Maybe I should save that one for my 'black' webpage. Probably safer for all concerned.

Enough on that line - today is a happy day.

Nothing planned for later - no physical therapy, no babysitting. I can take a lunch break - not to eat but to take a walk - remember the 200/3000 goal . Right now, I'm at about 232/200 - but it's a start. IF, no make that WHEN, I hit either part of that goal, that will be some post to catch.

It's weird. This really shouldn't be a happy day. RSD is flaring up and I'm hovering between and eight and a nine on my pain scale. I'm not going to drug myself - not quite yet. I am trying to grok the pain. Perhaps if I can grok it on a happy day, I will be able to cope with it on a 'black' day.

On my way home, I think I'll stop at the woods and go walking. I'm feeling kind of nostalgic. Missing friends who aren't here at the moment. Some who I'll see again on this plane of existence and others not until the next. My telephone friend, Annette, we saw each other maybe once a year but for hours on end, we spoke almost every day. My friend Bonnie. Most of the time, she got me so frustrated. I could take her in small doeses. What I won't give just to be able to have one small dose now. But, if I can maintain a Martian viewpoint of death, she is simply an Old One now and I can consult her anytime I want. In fact, I think I'll invite both of them to come walking with me.

(hmm...just typed in title...guess I really do miss my dog, Merlin, too. Bryce and Molly have some BIG paws to fill)

My corporate friends are a little trickier. I'll just have to pretend they are here. (Note to self: next time, when you play hooky from work, suggest walking in woods - much healthier than drinking coffee and each step will contain memories shared ).

Argh, my computer at work is driving me crazy. So I wont' have to edit this when I post, I have avoided using formatting. When I try to set a word off with asterisks, it bolds the word. When I type colon, dash, end parenthesis, I get a smiley face. My computer is haunted.

Oh, good. Lunchtime. Time to work on my 200/3000 goal!

Oh yeah. One last thing, I know what makes today a happy day. I am at peace with myself.