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I've got 'winter' by tori amos on the mp3 player and moving on my mind. moving away from my dad is something i've mentally blocked because i find it hard to deal with. we don't really get along. i'm so in love with him, obsessively, if i think about it. and he's got no kindred like me - no one, though i don't think he knows it. he doesn't like me, what i represent, who i've chosen to be. it hurts me like i can't explain how. i'm moving away and i don't know if i'll see him again. he's going to die someday. i'm going to get a phone call and shatter. he's not going to have known who i was, or how to have appreciated me, or quite how obsessively i loved him and so sometimes i listen to music that breaks me and contemplate futilely how to steal back his heart.

I can only imagine how difficult that must be, and yet again I am reminded how lucky i have been to have parents who appreciate me for who I am.

My father hates me so I kinda know what it feels like not to be appriciated, I too would hate to move away from him (I don't live in the same house - just the same town)
So big comfort and keep in touch with him through letter, email, -carrier mail, snail mail and visiting

I feel for you, Nyssa, because I lost my father - he died 30 years ago, in April...
He didn't really understand me, but he understood a lot better than my mother (who died 6 years later...)
God bless you.

My dad died whan i was 3; he seems to have been a lovely big-hearted Irishman, who presumably tried to make up for the fact that my mother was a

I have no real memeories of him, no links to his side of the family, but he must have helped balance things a bit, so i love him in retrospect.

You know your dad, you have had happy times together. I am certain he appreciates you, even if he doesn't understand you! So, keep in touch however you possibly can. Maybe writing to each other might be a new way of communicating stuff you can't say face to face?



Terri

I'm somewhat out of my emotional depth here, but maybe saying goodbye before you come over here would be a *relatively* easier time to tell him something of how you feel. Is there any third party you can use to communicate your feelings.

Worrying about the risk of him dying while you're elsewhere may be largely down to having things you want to be sure he knows about how you feel about him. I'm probably beiing excessively logical, but if there are positive things you do want him to know, it seems better trying to tell him now than waiting until the very last minute when (wherever you were living) you might not get the chance to tell him anyway.

If all other ways don't work, maybe you could write to him before or after you leave.?

Well, I am intending to write him when I figure out when we're leaving. If for no other reason than I would hope he wants to see his grandkids agian before we leave.

Thank you for your advice and input and whatnot.