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Of fleas and ferris wheels.
Existential Elevator Started conversation Dec 21, 2004
I feel... exhausted.
Last day of school today. No staff panto this year, but I happily came dressed fit for the role of the fairy godmother. Well, the "military fairy" godmother, anyway.
Carol service. Icky... Could have been worse.
Giving out gifts is good.
I waited for God knows how long in the cold to be picked up. Watching people come and go. Watching people watching me watching nothing.
2 random strangers told me I looked lovely. Gives me some faith that there is spririt left in the world, and we aren't all so afraid of eachother.
Leaving me with my thoughts is never a good idea, and I might not be feeling so 
if I'd have gotten home on time.
We're on this big, battered rock whizzing through space. We're nothing but fleas on a ferris wheel. We go round in our own little circles and we may never once leave our seat. We'll never notice what's going on in the seat behind us and we'll take it for granted that someone will look after the mechanism and keep it safe.
I don't belong here, I fairly obviously wasn't meant to.
Not /here/ as such, but *here*. I mean, what am I doing? I don't even like ferris wheels.
I wish I knew what I actually wanted. There are so many things I could have, but I deny myself them all for the sake of not knowing. I want to help, but how can I when I wont be helped myself?
Why do my journals always seem so negative?
You are all wonderful people. I appreciate every one of you, past, present and future.
I hope that you're all enjoying the festivities in the pre-run to Christmas 
And I really do like that top. It's a good colour on you. 
Take care... peace, love and hapiness
EE 
Of fleas and ferris wheels.
pheloxi | is it time to wear a hat? | Posted Dec 21, 2004
...fleas on a ferris wheel
you are in flea circus
I wish you festive days ahead with wonderfull things!
knit a sweater for yourself 
Of fleas and ferris wheels.
TeaKay Posted Dec 21, 2004
Hey, I don't like ferris wheels either. Particularly this one 
I bet you looked lovely
I don't know entirely what you're talking about with the having and helping...but you've got my number
Love, hugs, and anything else you want 
,
TK[1]
Of fleas and ferris wheels.
Existential Elevator Posted Dec 22, 2004
Phel: Ta very muchly I'm sure I can make a very nice sweater 
Here... 
.... IT's very gripping, I assure you...
TK1: Thanks so much You're an 
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TeaKay Posted Dec 22, 2004
s upon s. Thanks I have horns too, though...
TK[1]
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