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Jaywalking in circles....

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Jaywalker in Babylon

I'm back, 'jaywalking' is still proving a somewhat dangerous or rather plain confusing business but it is now happier and less lonely.
When I came to the 'notion of nation' I was running so hard to get away from the wall it had become (and still is) that I found myself running all the harder into it. I have a habit of running in circles, the problem is that circles can go on forever.
What I didn't talk about too much before apart from a brief ramble about towers and ladies, is that alot of the reason I was so scared is that I have someone and I was terrified of losing them as well. Or rather I was terrified of staying with them for the wrong reasons, of being weak enough not to let go. After all if I couldn't let go to save them then how could I consider my actions to be done out of love?
I was afraid that to stay would seem to be for myself rather than for the two of us and would ultimately hurt her. I love being here but I love being with her more, in short to lose here would be to lose her and if I was to be sincere I almost beleived I would have to leave her to love her.
But the more I thought about it I thought why should I sacrifice the relationship for something as flimsy as other peoples 'notion of nation'? If she loved me why should I let us be sacrificed for a legal framework and it's associated hang-ups? It was time for a leap of faith and to make the only recognised commitment to her, I proposed to her two weeks ago.


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