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Fretting this morning so I'm just purging, cuz it helps...

Got weigh-in tonight at Slimmers World but fretting about it because my bridesmaid dress fitting is in 2 weeks and that's pretty much my deadline for weight-loss before the holiday I really really want to be slim so I can look pretty instead of fat. I don't look fat any more, I know that, but there's still lots of wobble. I don't want wobble. I want to be slim as possible for this wedding.

Only remembered last night that I've got a specialist doctor's appointment tomorrow to discuss the results of the ultrasound I had on my legs a couple of months ago, and I don't know where the letter is that I'll have to take with me Aside from that there's the bit that I'm trying not to think about - the possibility that they may find the source of the varicosities and be able to get rid of them. Not going to get my hopes up because I don't want to be disappointed. I didn't hear any "wow! that's the bugger!" when they were doing the ultrasound so it's doubtful they've found the source. Just gotta find the appointment letter.

My little sister really needs to get away for a few days, I'm off to Scotland weekend after next, and since somebody dropped out there'd be space for her, but she's skint. I'd have to pay for her room and petrol, and although she'd be able to find some spending money, if we went out for a meal I'd most likely be paying for that too. I'd really love to take her away, but any money spent now is less I can take to USA, which leads to...

Worried about money for holiday in general. Preparations are turning out more expensive than planned, and savings aren't going as well as planned anyway. The person I'm road tripping with will have more cash available than me, and I really, really don't want to be saying "oh we can't do that cuz I can't afford it". I'm not going to be doing that. But I really want to do this for me sis. Borrowing a couple of hundred off family before I go is dodgy, as another family member has borrowed fairly serious money from everybody and not paid it back. I'm trustworthy and family know that, but I don't want to be another one of the kids borrowing money. And some would say "oh it's the company that counts.. blah.. you don't need money to have a good holiday.. blah". Yes, you do. I don't go on holidays often. Egypt last year was my first 2 week holiday ever. I worked 3 jobs to save money for that. I'm working 2 now. I work on the basis that this is my One visit to a country, I want to be able to do everything I can do. I am not going to miss out or make other miss out. I don't want to miss out on anything . Really stuck on that one.

Oh and then little sis' boyfriend got her a motorbike, then they went and split up. The finance is in his name, and so she has to give him the money to put in his account which the DD comes out of. And though there shouldn't be a problem with that, there's the what if's. What if he's a bit skint at christmas and 'borrows' the money? What if he cops a strop and cancels the DD? Finance can't be transferred to somebody else's account. If the payments don't go through and it's His fault, sis loses Her bike But managed to put off that quandry till after holiday, he should be sweet till at least then. I'd planned to carry on working 2 jobs afterwards anyway so I could have some proper spending money to buy things like clothes! But I'll be able to use that to help sis out with bike problem, and if I get a permanent (rather than temp) job, I may be able to get a loan out to pay for the bike in one go, then the problem will be solved. So that one's not too bad.

Watching Eastenders last night - 'nanna' seems to be going dotty, looks like alzheimers. My nan seems to be going downhill again. Not hallucinating as badly but just not 'with it'. She's got Lewy Bodies Syndrome, which is similar to alzheimers but works a lot faster. 5 years left is the general prognosis after diagnosis. Have been doing okay with it, but watching Eastenders and ended up with tears in me eyes at the end, brought it home to me I guess. But, there's nothing that can be done about that problem, so just gotta continue to accept it.

Oh nearly forgot - the driving. Insurance runs out on the car on 23rd October. So basically that's my deadline. The plan is to start the next year's insurance in my name, as it would be far easier than transferring it from nan to auntie and eventually to me. I'm on holiday from 21 Sep - 6th October. I need proper driving lessons to back up the ones I'm getting from my Auntie. Ideally, I need to take a test before the holiday, which I'll most likely fail - the purpose of that test will be more to find my weak spots according to testers. Even more ideally, I need to have a bit of intensive lessons either before or after holiday. But even if I could afford to pay for that, I don't know when I would have time. Working full time and most evenings doesn't allow a lot of free time - unless.. I perhaps had lunchtime lessons every day . But, money still a problem in that area. I really want to pass by 23rd October. I just don't know about having the time for family lessons. If I were to leave work1 earlier to leave more time before work2, I'd have to go in earlier, get up earlier, which isn't good if I'm not getting home till late from work2. If I end up making myself ill, Everything will go to pot.

So after writing all that, the main frets are -
slimming for the wedding - which can only be worked on, no solution, just gotta work at it, so there's no point worrying is there. Just gotta eat damn healthy and exercise to the best of my abilities - that's the best I can do.
legs specialist - nothing I can do to change the outcome of that, so no point worrying.
Little sis & money - I'm pretty sure I'm going to invite her to Scotland, simply because she's the most important thing to me. But how to save/get enough money to ensure a good holiday after that.. I don't know.

Time and money. Haven't got enough of either.

If I had more time I could work more and make more money. I need the time to drive etc.

I need to work towards earning more money in my full time job. Need to earn another £3k a year to be in the same financial position, with only be working normal hours. That'll have to be a more long term thing though. It can't really be a current worry. It's a good goal to go for though. Extra £3k.

If I want to achieve all I want to achieve by the end of October (car/sis holiday/my holiday), I'll have to borrow.

Feel a bit better cuz I've narrowed down the worries - so that's good. The others.. there's nothing I can do about them this morning, or this afternoon. So just get work done.

Aw - poor old queegle.

There's not really a lot I can say, is there?

B

I dunno, it's just good to purge, sometimes solutions come while writing.


I did forget to mention about a Learning Direct course I'm meant to be doing. These are free, as opposed to the OU Course that I've paid £200 for and not had time to do, have failed already as didn't hand in first assessment on time. So I've given up on that one. The Learning Direct courses I've started on, but really need to finish, as there's an opportunity coming up to get some more for free. But they won't give me them if I haven't even completed the first lot. It's a brill opportunity to learn for free. Don't wanna miss out



Stuff the money aspect. I need a time machine built for me.

Learning Direct suck. Odo's doing one as we speak.

B

They're not brilliant, but I still end up knowing more about the subject than I did before, which is damn good when it's free.

Kudos to Odo

That's not something you'd want to say three times fast after a few pints.

She's only doing it because she's going to be the college's coordinator for Learn Direct.

B

Best thing about learning is getting myself down to the Libary getting out a few books and getting it in my head.

Telling an employer that you have the skills is another matter

So sorry about your troubles Queegle

-- DoctorMO --

I'll add my too. Will be back if I think of anything actually useful...

Oh, and don't fret too much about slimming for the wedding - you do look fab already! A fitted dress will flatter your own shape (rather than the weird one most dresses are made for) and make you look even more gorgeous

MO

Looks as though taking me sis to Scotland is out the window anyway, as I got mixed up with cars, and she'd have to travel with 4 blokes she doesn't know and come back a day earlier than me, which would be pants.


Oh, and while I'm skint - my name has come top of the ex-company PC list. I can have a PC at least 4 times better than my current home one (which isn't working anyway) for £60 - bargain - if you've got the money. Daft to pass up the opportunity.


And Big fab kelli

Just thought - a lot of these things are just great opportunities, the downside is finding the time to take advantage of all of them

heh, I love that selling on old equiptment to the employies... Wish we could do that and raise enough money for some biscuits.

-- DoctorMO --

mmmmmm.... biscuits...

*mustn't think of biscuits *

Little sis can't come to Scotland, so that's sorted.

Had doctor's appointment, am going in for another operation. This is a larger one though, and although it won't prevent varicose veins from coming back forever (nothing can change that apparently - I'm just prone ), it hopefully will prevent any further problems that may occur, like ulcers and something else she mumbled sounds horrid! So... give it a couple of years to get the operation and I'll be fixed!

Auntie seemed to speak along the lines that she'll be paying for my driving test, which would be cool.

So the only problem now is that I'm skint, and will be damn short of spending money (which also pays for accommodation & car hire, which won't be booked till we get out there) for the holiday That'll take some thinking.

A good nights sleep always makes things better

I think everyone should have a vent thread, it's a very cool idea Queegle, thanks.

Oh and Be Well.

-- DoctorMO --

The journal is very handy for that sometimes

ducks

Live long on pizza

or of Amino's

-- DoctorMO --

eh?

Either you're being too trekkie for me or I'm being thick this morning

No I'm just insane, people keep on saying other wise but I prove them wrong

-- DoctorMO --