h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

Never mind ext summer, me and Jonathan didn't even last three months. He dumped me on Monday, for two reasons:
Let me explain...
Friday night, I had a party, and got slightly tipsy (was amazing party though!) and then Saturday night I did exactly the same, but got even more drunk (not as drunk as Jo though, who passed out on Catherine's sofa...), and ended up kissing a lad. The next day, I saw Jonathan and somehow he knew something was wrong. He eventually got it out of me that I had done what I did, and he just said it was fine - that he would get over it, and that it had brought us closer. He said he knew he trusted me not to do it again, and then he went and completely splashed out on me (he bought me a bear from the bear factory, a drink at starbucks and Amy, Lorna and I cookies). We then went back to his house and had the most amazing time.
However, the next day, after he had text me in the morning saying he loved me and he would never let me go, he called me and dumped me. I was (and still am) devastated. I didn't sleep that night, and hardly any of last night. My whole life has fallen apart, and I don't know how I am going to cope anymore. I love him so much and he has just dropped me for one stupid drunken night!
However, this wasn't the only reason. No. He confessed to me that night that he still loved Rachel, and he was going to ask her out. I felt so sick, and threw up three times. I cried all night, and continued crying in the morning. Amy had a go at him, and then this morning, she made me cry again. She told me that she had been talking to him on MSN, and the last thing he had said to her was "Take care of Natalie for me..."
I'm heartbroken. I love him so much and I want him back. I keep expecting him to phone me, or text me, and I feel completely hollow. Lorna thinks that if I phone him, and we talk about it, it will help me to move on. So I might, but not quite yet. Maybe in a month, when I know I will be able to call him without crying!
I cried today in PE. I fell over, and though it didn't hurt that much, I cried all lesson. And my reason? When I fell, I pictured Jonathan hugging me, telling me I was alright. And then I remembered. He wasn't there, and never would be again. He has ruined my life in one phone call. Is it possible to love and hate someone at the same time?

Yes it is. Extremely possible. It's end of the world time for you, and you just have to fight your way through the apocolypse.