h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

Since I first entered into this place I have become more at rest in it. In my first entry I was so feeling awkward that my eldest son wrote my words for me. Some he changed to be understood since I have not been at writing long. But all had the same sense. Since that time I have found those I am feeling most comfortable with and have made them 'friends'. In reading from the past of the journal I am sometimes embarassed for being open in my heart with strangers but still I remember that to write is a good thing to do for myself and I make discovery of my self in reading from the past. I have found that my mind is becoming weaker in memory and was told because it was alzheimer disease but my doctoer was not certain. He wanted many more testings and such but I refused. It does not matter to me how it is that my mind is so only that it is so. I understand now the way my family has been with me for some time. I made a great resistance to seeing the doctor until I could not remember the name of my eldest daughter and could not see her face in my heart. I knew that I had such a daughter but could not find her in her place. Monday the light went from my left eye and so I have made more testing and wait now to hear. I am unable to say my feelings because they are so many and with great power, besides I know not why the light went nor why it returned after a couple of mornings. When I know Maybe I can oint to my feelings and know them.
I ahve not more to write now here. I will go from the journal and ask a question of the elders in the computer village. Here is the place I write for me there is the place whre I find answers.