h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I don't want to. But I might have to. And it's tearing me apart.
Wow, I should set that to music huh?
*tries to smile and fails utterly*
Oh well, guess the old defense mechanisms aren't gonna work this time.
Ok, enough with the cryptic rambling. I've been seized by a sudden urge to hammer out an entry for my journal- I don't use it often, but it really is the best place to vent my frustrations. So here goes:
I've noticed recently that h2g2 has been stressing me out. This hasn't ever really happened before, in fact, the exact opposite, it usually provides me with some welcome escapism. And it's really beginning to upset me. The reason, I think, is that suddenly, people have begun to take it seriously. Although a certain dispute between two groups (both of which I am a part of) has cooled off, there are still repurcussions. I hate to say it, but I think it finally finished off a friendship for me. One which, I might add, was extremely important to me- more important than I really wanted or realised. And, while most people seem to have forgotten it (perhaps because they weren't tearing themselves in two trying to support both sides, and be neutral at the same time) I find that I can't. It's continually in the back of my mind. And as ridiculous as that may be, it would appear that it's not something I can change.
On top of that, tensions seem to be rising in the presidential campaign. Since the campaign begun, I have remained almost entirely out of it (except for a couple of postings wherein I reaffirmed this stance), due to an early realisation that I honestly didn't want to take sides- fun and games or not. However, I have kept track, and so I've heard of some recent developments. And, despite my involvement being on the sidelines, it brought back the feelings I had when I was very much in the middle of such an argument- the aforementioned face-off.
So, I find that I have several things to consider:
1. Do I resign any of my posts at h2g2? This would certainly take some of the stress away. But it would take a lot of the fun too.
2. Do I leave h2g2 altogether? Again, no stress, no upset. But then, I would lose the one place that has finally shown me that I'm actually someone who counts- the place that has finally made me feel accepted as a human being.
3. Do I take a break from h2g2, and come back later?
4. Do I do nothing?
I don't feel like I can give up this place, and I certainly don't want to look like I'm just following a trend. I'm not attention seeking here, I don't want or expect anyone to come here and try to persuade me not to leave. Because if they do I may end up staying, and I may end up regretting it.
All I know is, h2g2 has suddenly become a chore, and it was never meant to be like this...

Go with option #3 hon....that's what I would do.
I have steered clear of the campaigns too....
and I feel the same as you, about being in h2g2, I am totally addicted, but there are worse things I could be addicted to, I don't smoke, drink {alcoholic} or take drugs, in RL. I am not a prude, I just have an addictive personality.
My internet access now costs me nothing, so I have no money-conscience telling me to log off after an hour...
I can't even imagine my life without h2g2 now.... the more I do on here, the more there is to do.
I *almost* rose to the bait in a forum, but chose to ignore the provocation, others didn't & an arguement is going on!
I really am enjoying being an Angel, especially when I actually get to help someone, with a RL problem, or here on h2g2.
I have so many problems in RL, with my handicapped son and my sick Father, that h2g2 is my escapism, my life-line. I don't have a partner, someone to lean on, discuss things with.
But I know with h2g2 I can log on & find a friend instantly...
I hope you feel that way about me, Tweetie...

*smiles*
You know it hon

Tweet - Are you interested in being the judge at M.K*s trial at Survivor - The Aftermath? If not, don't worry, there's others I can ask, I just thought it'd be a bit of fun for you, but if you don't want to just say no, OK? Thanks, hon.

*grins*
I should develop these psychic powers of mine, huh?

*grins an even wider grin back
Oh, what fun! I can't remember when I last enjoyed myself so much! Flying round, getting people together & all of us sim-posting, Kes is going to have such fun later tonight when he logs on {his morning} and reads the backlogs....
Aren't you glad you stayed, now, Tweetie?
Are you having as much fun as me?

Two Things one is a coment I herd from Mike (we all know that it is bob and it involvs the second bit any way) H2G2 as it has got larger has started to take itsllf more serosly (if you want an example Mike keeps getting worned about his langadge and that has only happend since the begining of the month when he has cut his swering down) and also people are starting to take it to personaly about the only thing to do is ride it out and leve the opinions of the fools to them selvs.

Next is slightly more worrieng I would start another convesation but there is more chance he will see it and he will kill me If he finds out but basically I have got no idea what to do.
If any of you find somthing out you dont know do me favor and keep it to yourself more for mikes sake than mine he is paranoide enough.
When mike came back from this trip of his I went to see him the next day to find him stering at a folder full of hate mail about his situation with his sister. Some thing (i dont think they derseve to be called a person) has found out his E-mail and has been sending him mail calling him a murdera. They have even gon so far as to get a picture of his sister from one of the unaversaty sites that have agreed to help him and have changed it. adding spech bubbls and the like. he wont talk about it infact he wont even show it but every time we go to play pool or anywhere near a bar he drinks with the single minded aim to destry himself it is scary. I dont know what to do I dont know If there is anything I can do but I canot just sit and wach. He said you where his friend and knew about his sister so I gess he would not mind me tell ing you but if he does it is tough.
Do me a faver and Tell Zax and F.C as well he has menchand them and basically I need ideas on how to stop this as many as possible before he does somthing drastic.
God who could do somthing like that as if he did not have enough to deel with.
I am sorry to have to do this but as I said I am scerd for him

right. Tweet. see your aces email account. I hope you knowing the full story will help.

Vince. I'm gonna email Mike seperately, but what i think he should do is get a new email addy. he shouldnt have to put up with any of that crap. I know I wouldnt, especially with what he's going through with his sister....

Vince the next time you want to do somthing like this do it somwhere I will not see it I know you only have my best intressets at hart but dont do anything like tht with out asking me I have reasons why I dont tell people things and allot of it has to do with the fact that if know everything all the time they come to one of two conclushions. I am making it out to be worse than it really is ecause nothing can be that bad or that I am making it up. Maby i am paranoide like you said but it has happend to me before and will moast likely happen to me againe.

Mike now I can prove that you are paranide give people a chance, dont rate everyone like you do docters unawise you are going to end up very lonly.

*hugs Mike*
I'm not gonna say anything, cos clearly you don't want me to. But you should know I'm here if ever you want to talk- about this, or about nothing.
Love you hon.

Its not that I just am not readdy yet give me a few days to sober up propperly then I will explane

Tweetie, who is Mike, and can I help?

I am Mike and it is not very likly I am in a very impossible situation involing my sister, morphine and some nice person who is trying to give me a nervace breake down.

After cerful consideration I have decide to stick the story up on my padge I gess it would be easyer than having every boddy Mail me and I dont really have much to worrie about any more the worst has already happend. I think I am confused and am really not shure but It is to late now any way.
You never know I might end up with the padge that every one visets to put there own problems in perspetive

I know you are Mike now, I just found you on icq.
You don't have to post your story on your page.
You can tell me on icq {if you want} but only if you want to. Surely your friends can help, by listening, maybe offering advice, some input? Or just a shoulder...I know I appreciate my friends when my world is falling round my ears