This is a Journal entry by Ddychweledig - pining for the Fjords
hey
Ddychweledig - pining for the Fjords Started conversation Apr 10, 2003
Marcus informed me that yet again I had gone a week without posting.
On wednesday they wanted me to stay in for a few more weeks, but I really really wanted to come home and mum talked to them for about an hour alone and persuaded them so Im back home.
I havent cut for nearly 2 weeks.Mostly because I've been unable to cut.
I've put on a disgusting amount of weight. I've gone from an 8-10 to a size 16-18. Although I must admit, I was working out in my room @ Charlton Lane untill I nearly passed out about 4 times a day, so Im getting rather muscular, so I suppose its not unhealthy.
They're sorting out a care program so that I will have to leave the house nearly every day to go and do a session with someone, so that I cant have my mind rest so I dont start self harming again, to try and give me more self confidence and to try and prevent me wanting to end my life. *raises eyebrows non comitantly*
And Im going to leave h2g2. This time finally.
H2g2 has been a source of support for the past 5/6 years, but now I think its time to move on. As well as being support, it has also caused numerous problems, all brought on by myself.
I hope to keep in contact with those few individuals who wish to know me anymore. If they have no desire to have anything to do with me, then fair enough.
For those of you who dislike me, your window of oppertunity for b*tching, manipulating and all sorts is now open. You can remain safe in the knowledge that I will probably never read it so you can say whatever lies and untruths you see fit to survive with.
my love,
suz
xx
xx
hey
Amy Pawloski, aka 'paper lady'--'Mufflewhump'?!? click here to find out... (ACE) Posted Apr 10, 2003
I definately want to keep in touch!
hey
The Researcher formally known as Dr St Justin Posted Apr 10, 2003
So do I
Don't be a stranger, Wele 
hey
Stealth "Jack" Azathoth Posted Apr 12, 2003
Am I being paranoid or is the bitterness in that directed at me?
hey
Saint DIABLOS.P.O.D. -Patron Saint of Goths Posted Apr 12, 2003
id say paranoid though it might not be undeserved
hey
Haylle (Nyssabird) ? mg to recovery Posted Apr 15, 2003
I'm sorry I haven't said much lately..I'm not good with awkwardness and all. But if you should read this, thank you for your love and kindness to me and my little ones, and for the care and thought you put into sending us things this Christmas.
With love,
Lanna
Key: Complain about this post
hey
- 1: Ddychweledig - pining for the Fjords (Apr 10, 2003)
- 2: Amy Pawloski, aka 'paper lady'--'Mufflewhump'?!? click here to find out... (ACE) (Apr 10, 2003)
- 3: The Researcher formally known as Dr St Justin (Apr 10, 2003)
- 4: Saint DIABLOS.P.O.D. -Patron Saint of Goths (Apr 11, 2003)
- 5: Kaz (Apr 11, 2003)
- 6: Stealth "Jack" Azathoth (Apr 12, 2003)
- 7: Saint DIABLOS.P.O.D. -Patron Saint of Goths (Apr 12, 2003)
- 8: Haylle (Nyssabird) ? mg to recovery (Apr 15, 2003)
More Conversations for Ddychweledig - pining for the Fjords
Write an Entry
"The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy is a wholly remarkable book. It has been compiled and recompiled many times and under many different editorships. It contains contributions from countless numbers of travellers and researchers."