h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

Sorry if that sounded preachy! Don't mean to, honest.

not at all.

By the way, I've been trying to change this subject line, but people keep responding to the original posting. LOL

Thanks. off to

Yup "Always something there to remind me"

How true. There isn't a day goes by without me being reminded of M. I don't know what the answer is, i try & see it as that i am being nostalgic for the thought of being in a couple type relationship, rather than him specifically, he is no more or less special in reality than anyone else, but when you are close to someone, obviously you are attuned to their little preferences & stuff, this is what intimacy is about.

BUT when you move on to another relationship, THEY take over in the "special little things", like for example...

*alert: stuff*

Just since last night, a Certain Person has become pretty special, so today i am planning to record some stuff for him, went all soppy when i saw his towel & toothbrush in the bathroom etc. Gawd, it doesn't take much to get us female emotional messes going does it?

I would personally advise storing stuff & seeing how it goes BUT certainly take the animals & make their transition as easy as possible.

And yes, shamelessly exploit anyone possible to help. After all, YOU would no doubt help them wouldn't you?

to you, and dad, & K, life isn't easy.

zdt

Hi Hellbound
be gentle to yourself when moon is in virgo, you will snap so avoid what you can.
Moon goes into virgo at 7am Sunday 10 October, and leaves at 14.32 Tuesday 12 october.
Now I am only affected the first day, so don't worry.

We have a dark moon at 3.48 Thursday 14 October, early in the morning. Not a bad time, but one of comtemplation, deep breathing and velvety softness. It gives us a couple of days of rest and relaxing.

Ready for the full moon at 4.07am Thursday 28 October. Its an early morning one again. As it leads into a full moon I have a moment when I explode and cry, I have learnt to just let it out, don't rush it, keep to myself and it will get better. It used to take a day or two, now it takes an hour or two. Its normal, its your body saying it feels too much and needs a time out.

If you are at work, take a break, go to the loo and deep breath from the abdomen, drink a relaxing herbal tea. Dab some lavender essential oil on you. Remember these days are sacred and powerful, thats why they affect you. Ride them like a wave, you can hold on and then go to pieces when you get home.

Its all about getting back into natural rhythms, and respecting the pull of the moon on your own body. You can do this, just give yourself time to get used to it.

I think I'm gonna try to get a tarot reading done this weekend if I can. I've been meaning to.

Good Luck getting that done.
Hope you'll be hearing something good too!

Sorry to hear that your having a time of it right now

If you know the right thing is to break up with K then be careful of those maudlin rebound thoughts...they are ok and stuff as long as you don't dwell on them too much and they become more of a heartache than they should.

Just bugger off to Cal already, and worry about the rest later it will take care of itself, just because you arrive with everything doesn't mean to say you'll stay there. Take everything with you just in case you might need it and its safe with you and you don't have to worry if it's all ok, and shamelessly abuse the friends that you wouldn't mind being abused by, if they were in such a predicament..

I have been maudlin lately. Really depressed and anxious. I don't know if its just the current sitch or some other chemical thing. Drinking last night was bad, that's for sure. Bad Hellbound! Gotta stop that. Watched TV all night tonight. I never do that. I don't even have a proper tv. Just a little LCD one that I have to hold in a certain position to get reception on. But didn't have energy and patience to do internet with my dodgy connection. Tonight I have a low fever so maybe that's part of why I feel so crappy. And I keep forgetting to call and makie that appt for the reading. And MV, I wish you were here so I could abuse you.

Ohhhhhhhhh pervyness, can I join in?!!

Be gentle to yourself this weekend Hellbound, see if you can feel the difference as the moon goes into Virgo.

I'm feeling less crappy today for the first time a week.

That's good to hear! Less crappy is good. Don't worry if you still feel sad for a while; it's pretty normal after a breakup. I've been going through spells of sadness missing Linda, but the sadness passes, and so will your eventually.

Thanks Jellen. I continue to feel less crappy. I haven't written K off entirely btw. I'm going out to Cal to visit in November and I hope to try to see him if he doesn't completely hate me. MV, you think I'm hemming and hawing too much about the decision to move? At this point its not a matter of if but when. I am going out in Nov to sort of scope out the situation. I'm really not keen on moving all my stuff out there yet. I just can't commit. I am a bit less anxious having finally made the decision to go visit and when. November's always a good month to not be in Minnesota too. Some of my friends are getting sentimental about my leaving now. This makes me feel guilty about leaving. I don't feel sentimental about it yet. Just practical and anxious. But I'm sure that as the date approaches I'll completely fall apart. Blah.

And what's with the servers? I probably won't stay on and reply on other threads right now so everyone!

Sorry didn't get back sooner, I was having issues with my back browser, I kept on trying to sign in, and instead of taking me to my space it said that I had clicked my back browser

Anyhow, yeh you could abuse if I were there, I wouldn't bitch about it too much... *chuckles*

Hey Hellbound! I hope you're still feeling progressively less and less crappy. I'm also glad to hear you haven't written K off entirely, although, as I wrote in my last email to you, I completely understand your frustration with the situation and the difficulties that distance causes with good communication sometimes.

If moving will be a good thing for you, then try not to feel too guilty about leaving friends "behind". True friends can, and will, accept that what's best for you isn't always what's desirable for them, but those people will want what's best for you and want you to be happy. I want what's best for you, and for you to be happy. And moving might present lots of other opportunities, besides the potentially good things that could happen with K. I know I'm hoping for great opportunities for you!

Hope to hear from you again soon, I miss your emails and stuff!

PS- I copied my Peter Gabriel CD for you and will post it either this Saturday or the next. Was there anything else you needed, if I have it, its yours?

When I told K I needed a break I told him he could contact me again in November if he wanted. I also sent him a snailmail letter last week trying to explain my position better and apologising for cutting him off so abruptly, and saying that I'd like to try to see him when I visit later in November. November first and I haven't heard anything from him...trying very hard to be about it...

It's hard to be patient while waiting/ hoping to hear back from someone. Remember how crazy I was going back in July when I would wait to hear from my K? ("He said he'd call Saturday... it's noon, and the phone hasn't rung... ARGH!!") So I can certainly sympathise. Especially as you asked him for a break, and I got the impression you weren't so sure how he'd taken that.

So, while the voice of reason is probably trying to tell you "it's only November 1st, don't freak out", I can imagine you're feeling really anxious and hopeful and bummed, all at the same time. Hang in there, sweetie, and I hope you'll hear from him soon.

Thanks PC. I didn't think this warrented a new journal entry so I'm glad to see someone's still subscribed to this thread!

I'm haven't heard anything but I'm a little more about it now. I don't really know how he took it. I got an email a couple weeks ago while my computer was in the shop with a cute link (familiar with the singing bug?) and saying he missed me. I did email back at that time but he didn't write again. I sent him a snailmail note letter last week saying I wanted to keep in touch and that he could call or write in November (did I already say this? - sorry if I did).

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