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Jesus: Misunderstood?

Posted Apr 19, 2005

Jesus was one of the most misunderstood people of the last couple of milleniums. Comments?


On a similar topic: my research, if it goes smoothly, will mean that in 24 years I will be able to stand up and say:
"I can turn water into wine.
I can turn flour into cocaine.
I can turn coal into diamonds.
I can walk on water.
I can feed millions of hungry mouths, using only dirt.
I can end suffering.
I can cure disease.
I can grow wings and fly.
and I could be immortal.
And you can do all this too."

But, humanity doesn't deserve it.

There's too much evil, corruption and injustice in the world for me to give this gift freely.

I will only feed the starving, and heal the ailing, in order to give everyone equal opportunities to be able to prove the strength of their own heart.
Everything else will have to be earned.
Possibly some form of repentance would be in order.

I'm fully anticipating being cruxified, when the time comes.

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Some small random quotes.

Posted Apr 18, 2005

I've just had a few small quotes in my head recently, and felt like getting them onto paper... Er. So to speak.

First up, from the front page of hootoo today: "We Brits don't understand Baseball. We reckon it was created out of revenge for Cricket."

A friend said that "Group sex would be a lot better if it wasn't applied to by the law of diminishing returns."

A conversation on hootoo which stuck in my mind (can't remember who was talking though, sorry):
"What's this bit for? "
"No, that's bit three. Bit four is further down."

Incidentally: I like stomp. Stomp are great, I'd like to see them again.
Someone the other day was saying they have some videos of stomp on their computer and I should bring a hard drive over and copy them so I can watch them.
I wish I could remember who it was.
I believe I've heard that the blue man troupe are similar and also well worth a peek. I'll let you know if I get the chance to confirm that.

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Er... yeah.

Posted Apr 15, 2005

I'm... a little off balance, I think.

It's currently ten to eight on a friday night; I should be having dinner or something around now. Instead I've been procrastinating from my assignment (see the previous journal entry), so as a method of distraction I went to have a peek at what Am's up to these days (sorry I won't give her full name here, and I didn't write 'A' because then people would think I meant Arisztid...)

Am is the only reason I have a livejournal account; I don't use it apart from when I log in so that I can read her restricted entries (For non-LJ users, a 'restricted' entry is only available to be read by groups nominated by the writer - usually the people on their friend's list.)

I haven't actually logged in to it for ages; since November I think. Recently I'd just been reading her 'public' entries to get a vague idea of whether she's still well and healthy.
But checking the backlog of restricted entries, I came across my name a couple of times, and a very personal insight as well. Of course, I'm not going to go into details here, but I have to say... I'm flattered.

...And speechless...

...I don't even know what to type, and I've had twenty minutes to think of something.

I miss her a lot; she knows I do. I'm still - after all this time - not sure whether I'm using her memory as a kind of focus for my ideals, or whether she really has changed my life so drastically that I'm still trying to find my feet more than three and a half years after her influence has left me.

Either way; her name came up in conversation the other day... H asked me if I love her ('her' being Am of course, not H), and I said yes without even thinking about it. That worried me.
I don't /want/ to be in love with someone thirty thousand kilometers away... someone I haven't seen in person in close to four years... someone I haven't even spoken to on the phone in well over a year (I've only had a cellphone since I moved back to Hamilton)...
I know I love her as a friend, and I believe I always will... but I don't think that's what I meant.

I'm shaken. Literally.

Every time I read her journal, I'm moved by how darn /eloquent/ she is, and how insightful. And /she/ used a portion of my journal here as an example of eloquent writing? How circular is that?

She's one of a very small number of people (like, maybe one) who can make me feel good about myself for just being me. Aparrantly without any effort.

She says I have unrealised potential (Quote unquote). God I hope she's right.

I could probably go on about how beautiful she is - inside and out - but that would start to sound stalkerish so I won't.

She's the most fantastic person; I'd consider myself lucky if I could meet someone here even half as cool. I don't know if that statement says a lot about me, her, or the type of society I'm living in; but either way it's true.
She's still the /only/ woman I've ever met (in person) whom I would trust, let alone want, to be the mother of my children.
We once talked about marriage, and she is /still/ the only person I can imagine myself having that conversation with.

The more I think about this the more worried I get.

I'm not even sure I should post this... I don't want her to freak when she reads it, by thinking I'm obsessed.

But... am I? I hope not. But I can't say for sure either way.

I need a hug. I want to believe that everything will work out for the best, one way or another. But with the things I've been through I can't believe that.

I'm going to go home. The assignment can wait.

(Current mood: Very, very worried.)

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The current assignment (the last one for now! Yay!)

Posted Apr 15, 2005

Job, just skip this again, dude.

Those of you who have actually been reading through my horrendously boring journal postings lately will already know that last night I completed the testing of the datasets I needed to test, for my previous assignment. Also, you will know that I finished the report this afternoon, and then went and had lunch.
Now that I'm back again, I'm now doing the last assignment I currently have due, and it's due in... 73 hours.

I've done a little work on it, but not a lot. The last question is a bit of a , since I have to use programming language 'a', to transform source code for programming language 'b', into source code for programming language 'c'.
This is a lot like writing software which translates English into French, or vice versa.

Luckily, languages 'b' and 'c' are both markup languages, which means I don't have to do anything very interesting to the data to make it work, but since I don't know 'a', and I don't know 'b', and I only vaguely know 'c'... well yeah it's a more interesting problem than I'd have hoped for at this late stage.

I'm hoping I can get it done before I leave tonight, so that I might actually have a weekend for once.

Wish me luck!

As usual, I'll post updates here; mainly to give myself the occasional break to stop my head from hurting too much. I won't hold it against anyone for unsubscribing. Not that I would anyway.

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Posted Apr 14, 2005

I've just wasted three-quarters of an hour of data analysis because one of my options was set incorrectly.



Damn I hate myself sometimes.
I want to go home.

Almost finished, at least.

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