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Ups and downs
Posted Nov 26, 2003
Well, my ever complex relationship with a certain someone has gotten so complex, neither of us know whats going on, except were commited best friends, and if anything else happens, well thats fun. So, dealing with depressive spirals brought on by overstress has shaken me a bit, but Im better now.
Just updating the intro, expect another post real soon on Simon Travagalia (the Bastard behind the BOFH), and the following poem, which reveals a little of my working ethic
A rumour flies around the Deck
Rotted timbers fill the hold
MAtter of time my crewmates say
Gloomy outlook feels so cold
The tales be true the captain says
Worms eat through wooden beams
Neglect has hurt our ship, our home
Once proud flags now tattered seams
Our mates ignore the duty bells
Whats the point I hear them ask
"If she's going down, best in the fleet"
I state and carry out my task
I hear the calls from down bellow
Hull is breached, our voyage ends
"Prepare to leave" the captain shouts
I fear again will I see friends?
I walk past my ships old Dock
How many lives were lost that day?
I never sailed after that loss
I hope my mates all found their way.
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Vent + Poem
Posted Nov 19, 2003
No "usual" entry today, Im just going to vent. Please bare with me.
The "ex" mentioned in my first journal entry (THe Storm Poem) and I met up last weekend, We are ment to be best friends after all, and well, things were certainly interesting.
Quite simply, She was all over me. So, to the disapointment of most men out there, I was distant. Kinda Hard-To_get. call it honor/Chivalry thing, so I didnt take advantage of her (like most men, those guys make me sick, honestly). Although I relented and let her be a little Affectionate, I told her she had to be absolutely sure she felt she was doing the right thing, and for the right reasons.
Well In that time I did some thinking, and I worked out that since Im romantic, Selfless in relationships, honest and caring, and all sorts of other good qualities, Im alone, and the reason is- Im lacking in Superfical qualities. Im broke, I dont look particularly good, and I dont have athletic prowess.
So its settled, Im more Feminine than any other guy I know, most guys I find quite repulsive and yet, the "Farer" sex is bugging me too. So I'm down on apparently 95% of the population.
But what the heck, was only a couple of years ago I professed to hate 99% of the planet, so all in all, things are okay, I guess, So I share this poem thats basicaly saying, well, Im okay.
A smiling face be what you see
I Feel not some sense of Glee
Inside these walls here does stand
Thoughts of Hope, Anger and Demand
But all in all my needs are met
Yet I feel not some deep Regret
The smile I guess is not so fake
This day shall be what I make
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The Sun Still Shines
Posted Nov 9, 2003
I Glance outside and what do I see
People as happy as lil' old me
I did see Dark, and Did see rain
But now I know, the sun still shines
I saw hell, its fury, and its wake
I had to survive, for my own sake
A sliver of light shone from above
And then, I knew, The Sun still shines
The Darkness is gone, it may return
Out of my mind, new ideas churn
I hope to remind you, whatever goes on
Never forget, the sun still shines.
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Poetry - Saddness - Sunshine
Posted Oct 26, 2003
Well, well, lets see what we can do here.
Hmmmmm - A poem might be good, this is about my girlfriend(Ex doesnt seem to be the right prefix) and me, she last saturday decided that we should be best friends, and not more. Saturday was picnic day.
The Storm
Remember it was just a few weeks back
We'd take a long walk up some track
Spread out the blanket have the lunch
But of course, we did more than munch
Yesterday the storm clouds cried
Sad to see our day had seemly died
Saturdays I once looked forward to
Now, There is nothing left to do
Up the hill and through the trees
under the skies and the leaves
Oh how it used to be such fun
Just you and me and the shining sun
Well, That wasnt so bad now was it?
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