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Back...

Posted Feb 4, 2002

.. at least on a minimal basis.

And back on a physical basis from spending Christmas, and then 3 further weeks, in the States with my partner.

Now I just have to work like h*ll on my PhD to catch up with all the writing I was meant to be doing. Ooops.

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Latest reply: Feb 4, 2002

OW!

Posted Nov 2, 2001

My ear hurts.

And this is going to be a whinging journal entry complaining about it. So bail now if you'd rather not read.

I went to the doctors on Tuesday morning, with very painful ear ache. She peered down my ear (having first had to get the end bit on the otoscope that she uses for kids, because I have very tiny ear canals) and diagnosed OME - Otitis Media with Effusion, aka middle ear infection, aka glue ear. And she gave me a 5 day course of antibiotics, told me to keep taking the co-codamol I'd been prescribed for period pain for my earache, and sent me on my way.

Tuesday night I'm lying in bed when I hear a gentle 'pop', and feel fluid trickling into my outer ear canal. Oh great. Ruptured ear drum I think. Ring the surgery the next morning and over the phone, they confirm this. The doctor (a different one) I speak to tells me to keep taking the antibiotics and to come back in a week so that they can check how the drum is healing.

Fair enough.

But since then, I have been in absolute agony; my ear has been completely blocked and won't clear; I'm getting pus draining onto my earlobe and nothing seems to be getting any better.

The antibiotics should have kicked in by now, surely? The course is due to end tomorrow (Saturday) but I'm probably going to go back to my GP this morning, coz I really don't want to wait the weekend. The pain is so bad that it wakes me from sleep each morning at an ungodly hour (6.30am today) and I'm now waiting for the painkillers to kick in so I can get a couple of hours rest before calling the surgery.

*siiiiiiiiiiiiiigh*

And the irony of it all is that my PhD is dealing with children who have a unilateral hearing loss (gee, I sure can empathise now!) and the place where I'm studying has just finished a huge major study into children with glue ear.

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Latest reply: Nov 2, 2001

*dusts off the cobwebs*

Posted Aug 13, 2001

.. and looks around here again.

Not much has changed. I still get tired and achey with no reasons. I still want to a lot of the time.

I still have big buttons of feeling useless and unimportant and that nobody will like me, flashing big time.

But I'll cope. I always do.

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Latest reply: Aug 13, 2001

Posted Jul 24, 2001

I hate this.
Hate feeling so tired and in pain
Hate not knowing how one day from the next will be
Hate having to cancel plans to do things I want to do
And hate this kind of mood where I'm feeling unloved and sorry for myself even more.

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Latest reply: Jul 24, 2001

Waaahhhhhh

Posted Jul 9, 2001

So.. I book my ticket down to London for Friday, all set to make the h2g2 meet up. My dad's even going to be home that weekend, so I'll get to see him too.

Wake up on Saturday, tired, and aching all over. Stay in bed all morning, hoping that it'll lift. It doesn't.

So do I make the h2g2 meet? No.

I /hate/ this fatigue. I /hate/ that it still hits me. That I still have days that are so bad. That being back at work seems to have made things worse.

I'm now allowed to use the disabled minibus to get to and from the university and home. Which is good - because walking was really really exhausting me, even though it's only 20 mins each way, and taxis were too expensive. But psychologically, it's still really tough.

*sigh*. I just want to be back to normal again.

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