h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

Darling if you're leaving
Please take your key
Just incase
You should ever need me
When you're closing the door
Don't turn around
Cos I know I'sure
I'll be kneeling on the ground
Every day I'll hear your voice
Ruing the sound of the lock
That left my world
Like an ever ticking clock..

Hi Polly,well I am feeling very lazy at the moment,six weeks with no work I thought I'd be bored to death and even though I always feel in the way at home the weeks are going quicker than ever.

I've had the old company van outside my house and it hadn't been moved for six weeks either,after many Emails and phone calls to Manchester they finaly repossessed the van this morning.

I supppose at the moment I feel like a slave that has been set free not having been unemployed ever I think a bit like a robot,not knowing which way to turn I have no idea if I can get a new job in todays agist climate,so I am toying with the idea of self employment.

I must admit that were I to come into possession of a large wedge I would instantly retire,I suppose we given time could learn to live without luxury's but trying to live on sixty quid a week seems impossible.

Still with only a couple of weeks to crimble we have the new year looming,I have seen the consultant about my heel and I don't need an op I have to have some internal heel supports made for inside my shoes etc so I guess I'll go up from six foot one and a half to six two,and at nearly seventeen stone far too big to push around

I do hope that you are keeping yourself warm and cozy and that we both see a few dreams realised in the new year,Polly I know you been feeling a little down but I'm crossing everything to hope you soon get back to your fighting best,so head up gal knock 'em dead for me

Hello, my dearest Rick.

I haven't switched the computer on for ages. And you are the first person (well, the only person I guess) I have wanted to hopefully find a message from.

Christmas is just around the corner. I love yet dread this time of year. My thoughts are on the past~~~~with my lovely family who have been gone for years.

I remember one Christmas when only my Papa and brother were with me(Mummy having passed away). John, my lovely brother, was not well at all. I was to lose him tragically soon afterwards. He lay on my sitting room carpet and gazed at an old Victorian picture (by Bessie Pease Cutmann) that I have of a baby. He was in a world of his own, and as I watched him I saw something so very sad. He seemed to be in another world and time altogether. His eyes were so intent and yet so very sad. Poor darling John. He loved Christmas so very much. He and my mother were the fun side of Christmas. John looked forward all year to our little Christmas together. How I miss him and long to hear his voice again. Oh Rick. How I wish I could turn back time and have my little
family with me. They were a beautiful family. I can't bear the memories that I have. All 3 lives were tragic and sad. My Christmas is full of sadness.....

I had a horrid scare when I got home this evening. I have been away since Friday morning. When I got home at 5'ish I could see that Pixie had eaten nothing at all. His milk bowl was empty as was one of his water bowls. But no food had been touched. Usually he is waiting for me and howls when I turn the corner to my home. But tonight there was silence. I felt so sick and so scared. I called his name but no reply. I then started crying. I can't bear life without my adorable Pixie. He needs me and I need him. I began to picture terrible things that might have happened to him. I was going to go out tonight and call his name plus look for any notices of a 'lost cat'. But suddenly after about 40 minutes Pixie walked into the kitchen. I swept him into my arms and wept. I cried all over his beautiful fur. It was an emotional reunion.

Last week I had bought another spare bag of the Science Diet from the vet. I had for some reason left it with all the presents in my bedroom. When I went into that room tonight, I noticed that Pixie had bitten his way into the bag and had been eating the food whilst I was away! I had to smile. He hadn't touched his bowls of food because he had been eating in the bedroom! What a relief that all was / is well. I can't live my life here without darling Pixie.

What a great idea of yours~~~to go self-employed. Rick, I truly pray that the future will start to look rosy again for you and your family. You deserve so much happiness. You've worked so blooming hard since I've known you. Don't give up hope. And whilst you are 'out-of-a-job' try to enjoy the spare time. I know that that might sound a bit pathetic, but please enjoy having time with your wife. The years fly by far too quickly. Do some 'quality time' together. If ever I marry again (or whatever) I want to make the most of things together. Life seems to glide by quietly these days. I've never been ill in my life yet I find it hard to walk at times now or to do certain things. I used to walk for miles and miles. I used to do so many things for many folk. But now I feel tired constantly, and weary from start to finish!

Darling Rick, it was lovely reading your message tonight. Sorry that I am in a weepy state tonight. I find this beautiful time of year so very difficult to cope with...

I haven't bothered to look at the message boards for a long while. I have sort of lost interest.

Take care in this cold weather. I'm terrified of falling in icy conditions because of my back.

Keep warm my lovely lovely friend, and stay happy.

Lots of hugs, and love, from me and Pixie.



xx

Hi sweety,I do hope you are now feeling much better,I hate backache and I know that sometimes resting your back sometimes can make it ache more,all depends why or what is causing the pain in the first place.

What does your doc say?

Ibuleve gel max is expensive although now obtainable on presciption can be quite effective as IMO it is far better than filling your tummy with yukky ibuprofen tablets,though sadly quite difficult to rub in on your own svelte back.

What are you doing for Christmas? I do hope you will not be without human contact,get that old fanheater wound up and a little festive spirit and who knows Cinders maybe old prince charming 'imself 'll come knocking your door with a lump of coal,even if he doesn't head up gal and knock 'em dead for me

Love is a tongue that licks you
You cant get away from the taste
For that sweetness once tasted
Will always leave one to waste

We are not isolated beings
Though we can survive alone
The progression of humanity
Cannot, be multiplied by one.

My dear adorably sweet Rick.

Hello. How are you? I do pray that none of you have got, or will get, the nasty flu. I was ill last week. I spent 3 days in bed feeling so queasy and headachey. I thought I would have to miss our beautiful carol concert on Sunday the 21st. But I got better and didn't miss the evening.

I was able to sing in the little choir(about 12 of us. And I did a long reading (Luke ch 2 v1-20)~~and I know I read it beautifully. That might sound so dreadfully showy-offish and proud. But I was brought up on reciting poetry, and I still recite it to whoever will listen. I love reading aloud to friends. So it went marvellously.

Pixie is still behaving very strangely. I had to take him to the vet last week because he still wasn't eating. It had been a very false alarm when I thought that he had been eating from his new bag of food in the bedroom. He hadn't! I'm beginning to wonder if-
A: he is eating somewhere else,
or
B: another cat has been in here. He was smelling his favourite chair last night (no-one else sits there) and he didn't like something! He has taken to lying behind the settee on an old duvet that I put there to stop the draught. It's making me very worried. I love him so much.

Rick, my angel, thank you for all your dear words. I will be at church tomorrow morning, at 9.30am, and will then come back here. My son-in-law Alex or my daughter Emma will then pick me up at about 11.30am I expect. I shall stay there in their tiny old cottage for the day and overnight. Then I shall come back on Boxing day morning for about an hour until I am picked up by Peter (a church friend) and will spend the day with him and his lovely wife Anne plus another lonely chap, at their home beyond Romsey. It should be a happy day as all 3 are very close friends of mine.

Rick, I pray that your Christmas day will be so very happy and cosy. Take care~~all of you, especially if you are out on the roads. I've loved every moment of getting to know you better this year. You are very dear in my heart.

Bless you, Rick. And God bless your family. I have a Wimborne chum visiting very soon so I must start to listen out for the door.

Have a wonderful day. I might revisit here later this evening. I'm unsure if I will go to the midnight service at the C of E church here beside me. I might get a call from another church friend asking me to go with her. I'm really too weary due to my very poorly back. But it is a lovely service. And there is something very magical about coming out of church into a still night on Christmas morning.

With my love to you, dearest Rick.


Polly and Pixie

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Hi Polly,I wish you the most brilliant Christmas ever

Hello again Rick.

I'm feeling very unwell. What a nuisance. My friend took me for lunch at the big hotel nearby. It was really enjoyable. We then visited a disabled church friend of mine, for a few hours, who I knew would love some company on Christmas eve. Now I am here on my own with loving Pixie. I've taken a lemsip but I feel very headachey and sicky. And my body aches. I'm staying in tonight after all. It's a shame but I'm not well enough to go to church.

I might watch a dvd very soon. Possibly my new one:'A Picture of Britain' presented by David Dimbleby. Did you see it when it was on the television? It is so beautiful. So I shall settle down with a cup of my favourite tea and try to watch some of it.

Rick, HAPPY CHRISTMAS to you my darling friend. And by the way~~your choice of carols were perfect. My first choice just happens to be played many times on CFM, and is on some of my carol CDs. I too love all the 'old fashioned' ones. They make me cry!

I shan't be here again until after Christmas. I can hardly believe it will soon be all over once again. That makes me feel sad because I love this time of year. I love wearing my thick clothes and smart coats. I love the little lights and candle-light. And I love buying presents. I love the wintry skies and sun. And the bare trees. I'm a little wintery fairy!

Goodnight Rick. Take care.


Hugs and kisses.

Polly


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Hi Polly,I am feeling a bit down at the moment,my two sons have been arguing and vowed never to talk to one another again and my sister has phoned and said my younger bro might not make it through the night.

He's on the morphine now so at least he is not in pain,unlike me I feel like someone's tearing my arm off,still I wish you a happy new year and that you a least can wish for a better one than this one.

Trusting I can start a new day tomorrow,sleep tight and may all your dreams come true here's from me to you

Hi Polly,my younger brother passed away at 4am this morning he was 57 because he moved to Weston S M a few years ago and I dont have a car we usually spoke occasionally on the phone,although he has popped in twice in the last nine months to see me.

He never told any of us including his partner how ill he really was,still I suppose that was his prerogative

My darling darling Rick.
I've only just read your last 2 posts here. I'm so very sorry Rick that your brother lost his battle against cancer. It's made me cry. I wish I could hug you properly. You must be feeling terribly sad. Your brother might have thought that by not saying much about his horrid illness it might go away. Sort of burying one's head in the proverbial sand. I think that my mother and brother felt something like that.

Rick, my dear sweet friend, my thoughts are with you right at this moment. It's come as a bit of a shock to read about your brother. When is the funeral? Dearest Rick, I will be thinking of you and your family.

And what has happened to your sons to fall out? Do you want to tell me here? You might prefer not to and I will fully understand.

I'm so very sad for you and your wife. It is a painful way to start the new year. I am pretty good at listening and if you did ever need to talk....I can get my daughter to arrange a 'sink-address'(email address). But I am not trying to do anything wrong. I'm just simply very concerned about you and your family and am reaching out to you----if you like -in a Christian way.

Rick, take care my friend. Don't be afraid to cry if you need to. It releases some pressure and pain. But, as I have already said -- my thoughts are with you all. I'm so very sorry--and I feel a bit inadequate to show you how much I do care.

With much love to you all. And prayers that your little family's rift will be healed and you will all be brought together once again. Don't be afraid to let me know how things are going. I'm really a very caring person.

Polly

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Hi Polly,have you tried this:
http://www.itv.com/CatchUp/Video/default.html?ViewType=5&Filter=33105

This is on the same player(adobe flash player)as the bbci player,here there is the complete series if you watch all three episodes,BTW you do not at present require a tv license to watch the i player.

Thank you for that link, Rick. But I no longer have my 'flash-player'!
Oddly enough, just before I came here this evening, I had a reminder about my flash-player. The problem is that it might take forever to download it once again~~~~or maybe it will not download! I 'lost' it some time ago when I lost other things (when this computer went all haywire!)!

xx

Dear Rick, how are you feeling this evening? I am thinking of you.

I haven't told Folly about your brother. Or any of your other news. I feel that it would be wrong of me. I shall leave it to you to tell him. I'm sure that you saw his response on our other thread here.

Take care dear Rick. And all your family.

Goodnight.

Polly
xxxx

Hi Polly,I do apologise for laying my guilt trip on your doorstep.

These last few months just sitting on my harris have been liberating,in fact I am begining to wonder how I ever found the time to work.

My eldest sister who I have'nt seen for 20yrs lost her husband that I had never met on the 21st of December,I only found out a few hrs before the funeral,so I was unable to attend,my other sister wants me to write a poem for my late bro and I cant,why I dont know if we write lasting words about our dear ones could those words ever be good enough?

One of my late sisters was the Mayoress of Scunthorpe,I only knew she had passed away because her daughter had written a story for Take A Break magazine,my mom had 22 children many still born yet I still remember more than twelve at our Sunday dinner table,yet as one of the youngest I guess there are only half a dozen of us left,but I only rarely see most of them,the brother I have just lost was the step below me and my favourite sister one step above,so I suppose I could never have known loneliness,yet it was like my middle name(Anthony BTW)anyway miss you lots hurry back.R.

Hello again my dear Rick.

How are you? And how do you feel since the funeral of your brother? I DO always mention you, and your family, in prayer.

Rick, give writing that poem a try. You often write really good verse. And sometimes you write truly profound stuff. You have lots of 'free-thinking' time now on your hands so I hope that you do put pen-to-paper and use your wonderful skill at some important poetry. And yes - you do have a poetic skill. Don't ever think that you haven't!

That is amazing that your dear Mother bore 22 children. In those days parents went in for large families, didn't they. When I hear or read of some of today's families I shudder. I wept last night when I saw that article on the news about that beautiful little 2year old girl who was murdered by her wicked parents. I thought of all the love I could have given her. I imagined showing Pixie to her, and hearing her sweet laughter. And soothing her sorrows. Instead, she was hurt so much by those who should have adored her. It is utterly dreadful.

I have found, my dear Rick, that one can be surrounded by folk and still be lonely (re: what you wrote about loneliness). And I guess that in a large family it can happen very easily. But you are loved and wanted now by your own family. And by me. And Graham loves you too. It's strange how Christians can really feel love for their fellow brothers-in-Christ and sisters-in-Christ. I don't know you and yet I do know you! And you come into my thoughts just about every day. Imagine that! So you will never be fully alone!

I've had the environmental health folk here this morning. They were really nice. And I have found Pixie's lost mouse!! It was lying dead in the cupboard into which it had escaped a few days ago. Knowing my luck it was liable to run out whilst the environmental health folk were here!!

Take care my dear friend. I've been too weary to spend much time here on the MB's recently. Get that paper out and start a rough draft of a special poem in memory of your brother. You can do it!!!!


Lots of love, Polly.
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Hello my flower
You are so sweet
Your fragrant self
A special treat
From here I see
Just what you are
More than eye candy
A shining star
So as always
You keep your shine
Sweetest flower
Scented divine

Hello, dear Rick.

That is so sweet. I shall pretend it is for me!

Did you write a poem for the funeral? When I said that your poem was "perfect" I meant that it was perfect for the funeral. I know that none of us write anything that is totally perfect. But I DID like your poem on our 'Hip Poet' thread.

How are you and your family?


Thinking of you,

Polly

I think I'm chasing rainbows
The sun is in my eyes
Every time I see your face
It's like I've won first prize
Your demeanor is so pleasant
Your smile lights the way
Your so effervescent
You light the darkest day
With your gentle hand
Nestling in my palm
All my tribulations
Ooze away till calm

Hello dear Rick.

I'm sorry it took so long for my response on the I-spy thread. I watched Uni challenge and Master Chef and then finished watching a DVD (an old ITV edition of Tess Of The D'uerbervilles that a friend got in The Mail recently).

I do hope that you are alright. I was a bit concerned when you said on the I-spy thread something about Mathos being caught in my net! I truly don't set out to catch anyone in a net. I'm just me who longs for company at times.

I hardly slept last night as usual and awakened with a sore throat and awful headache. I have constant headaches. I need to get some shopping but I shall wait to see how I feel in an hours time.It looked very foggy here this morning. And it is very cold again. I am sitting here with so many clothes on! Undies, vest, shirt, cardigan, huge jumper, cords, and woollen scarf! And a knitted hat!!! What a blooming sight. If anyone comes to the door I will have to quickly remove the hat and scarf just to seem to be normal.

Keep warmly wrapped up, Rick. Lots of love to you.

Polly