h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I'm sorry about that. That has to suck. This Years Love made me cry. It was kind of one of those things where it hit something that I thought I was over and I wasn't. I've been amazed by how many emotions this cd hits.

Thanks...
It does cover alot of feeling, it has helped me egt through alot of pain...

So what are you going to do this lovely sunday?

Not much...

you too eh?

I'm just listening to David Gray and feeling sorry for myself...

I just need you to know I'm sorry....

A misunderstanding... I tend to see the worst in things...

*Hugs*

I still feel awful and that I am truly wrong. Which may be... I've been sobbing for the last hour hoping that I haven't driven away the progress you've been making. I just feel awful

It's a blip... I don't cut myself every day like I did a few months ago... you just push button by accident that can still make me *need* to cut and remind me how much I still hate myself...

I feel so bad because I feel I've caused you so much pain that you were driven to that. I feel awful and the fact that I do it, well it seems to me, so often with you. it just isn't right. My heart just hurts so much today and I just want it to stop. I just want you to be ok and content with yourself and everytime I try to point something positive out to you it turns into what happened today and I don't want that... all I wanted to point out today is that there are people who love you and look what happened...
Stephanie

It's not you that caused the pain... it's my weakness... and now it's hurting you too

Love and Hugs...

I've been hurt. You aren't the one who did that. There was a long line of people before I even met you. I just feel bad because I push buttons. I don't know how to stop doing that and I need to because I do it way to often.

Tis OK... Someone else used to push my button to the point where I wanted to die...

Just tell me to quit when I head toward somthing like that. I wish I could be there for you in more ways than this... I've actually been looking into the University of London and the University of Sussex... they are looking really good right now actually and it gets me away from my parents...

London Imperial is an excellent institution... You really think the UK is where you want to be?

Yeah... I think it is. I don't feel at home here. I never have. I need to be somewhere where I can start over and build my own life not the one my mother wants me to have. I also was bitten by the travel bug when I was younger.... Fighting with my mother about it right now actually... she doesn't want me to go because it will be more than college over here. Actually it's like five times less.... I don't understand it... She's like well if you exhaust all of your options over here than we can talk about it. I don't understand why she would let me go to school in Germany and not the UK....

Well it sounds like the right thing to me... Freedom and build something for yourself are important...

Yeah and it would put me near you which is a plus. Tuition a year is only I think like three thousand US dollars a year which is cheap.... Room and board is like seven hundred dollars a week... which is doable if I work and take out a loan... so I'm thinking that it's cheaper to go to the University Of Sussex

Oh yeah being near me is *such* a plus!