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It's on both arms, not underneath as I only do that if I'm trying to kill myself...
My legs are bruised cos I hit them and my chest is already slashed....
Maybe having a cigarette will help...
Fank oo for the hugs.. *huggles back*
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Have a cancer... I guess you need to see your own blood... I wouldn't encourage cross hatching the existing cuts...
Find something expendable and destroy it...?

Don't thank me, they're sincere...*hugs*

Thank you Uncle Alex, I need so many cancers... *sigh*
Seeing blood does calm me down... My own.. lol... I might cut my legs at the top... I'm so sick of this sh*t...
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Don't think I don't care Sonietta, you do that ok, I hope it helps...
Cutting helps and as such it's what you want to do... it will take along time for you to become someone that feels better for not having cut...
Be patient with yourself and don't feel guilty or frustrated withh yourself for cutting...
I don't know exactly what your triggers are...
*Calming cuddles*

You're so lovely Uncle Alex... I'm not used to people being nice to me you see...
Loooooong story and practicaly my whole life story but hey...
It's wierd... If I tell people anything or talk about anything I feel selfish cos I feel I shouldn't like put my problems on people...
Thanks for being lovely...
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You deserve to be listened to... and I don't think any less of anyone that needs to or wants to be listened to... I'm gonna send you an e mail so you have my e mail addy, incase you get bored enough to want e mail me...

It's not selfish, I like listening anyway so it wouldn't matter even it were!
They may not stop you feeling selfish but maybe you won't actually believe it's selfish... because irt isn't...

I'm here to listen to you too...
I can only talk to close friends or people that know what I'm on about... My parents don't really talk to me so I don't get to talk to many people really... I only talk to you and 2 other friends, that's it... In a way I don't trust my parents because I think that they'd put me somewhere and I don't wanna go to a psychiatrist... I guess I should go though... But I don't see the point! I don't talk to them!
Oh good, I wanted to email you but I wasn't sure if you still have the email on your profile thing...
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*Mail sent*

You put on your friends list... if I crash from the relitively positive way I've been feeling you'll have an oportunity to hear what I have to say when I'm down... I don't really get into a delibrate descussion of what I'm feeling... sometimes it just drops out in a conversation by accident almost... but I'm OKish now... Thanks...

Do you trust your GP? Or the Doctors?

Just sent you a mail...
I feel really sick!
Anyway, I've not seen our new GP, the one that we had before was of no use at all and generally made things worse... I'll tell you about the situation in email as it's quite personal I guess...
Yeah, I do that alot.. Like I was texting my mate Nancy yesterday and we were just talking about hair dye (sad! ) or something and I just started going on about how depressed I felt at the time which was wierd because she thinks we're close but she doesn't know alot about me, especially not self-harm etc...
UGH UGH UGH UGH UGH!!!! I wanna scream!!!!!!
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What is it with my e mail accounts!!! If I'm lucky I may be able to get at the mail in 30mins...
I'll have to create a new account with tiscali...

I'm lucky my GP is good... unfortunately my Psychiatrist isn't... the drugs he gave me took away that little part of me that wanted to fight for life...

Anything expendable to hand you could destroy...? Sometimes helps me...

I think I'll have to start a new thread in a min... Stupid bloody box!!!
My email is ok when it works but Telewest are useless!!! Grrr @ them!
I just don't trust the GP's etc... I studied psychology last year and it's just put me off going now because I know most things they do...
Well, I just punched one of the sofa seats and then because I was so into beating it, I fell backwards and my head it the wall.. VOGUE! ugh...
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*Smecks a little at your falling over, but is concerned for sweet head so offer a and a better*

I'll try to get a my mail again soon... it doesn't work I'll create a new account and e mail you agoin from there...


See you in the new thread