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Kaz. I have worse things to worry about right now than you.

For your information, my Dad is being tested for bowel cancer. He had a second test today.

I may have said in my journal that I'm not worried, but I'm bl**dy worried sick! As I stated also in my journal, I have lost my rl father to cancer and it will tear me apart if Dad has it too. I'm ing petrified! So don't you DARE come to me writing stuff like that.

Also for your information, I told mum that I was fine about Dad, but as I have had to explain this to you, she will no doubt read this thread and worry for me instead of for Dad.

Thank you for your help and assistance.

Goodbye

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Kaz,

You have a habit of back lashing those who do attempt to care for you. You give out too much personal information, not only about herself,but about others online too. You know this is not a secure site that others read everything. Things that have been mentioned to you in confidence by others, have also been broadcast on site.

VV has been worried sick about you too. She has phoned me many times seeking advice on how she might help you. It was you who cut her off, not the other way round.



Hoping you have peace of mind soon,

lil

I really hope the tests go okay today.

She doesn't have to care if I pushed her away. Tell her to let go and concentrate on her Dad instead.

No...

It is something she wants to do. Now give her and the rest of your friends time to help you.. stop blitzing them before they can draw breath.

(giving you a smiley conga)




lil

I will always push people away, I don't know how or why, but I do.

I bring whinging, grief, insults, I last, I said the nastyest thing today.

neither of you deserved what i said.

I don't want to hurt people anymore.

Please use your energies on thinking good thoughts for those tests today.

I went too far today, I do not know why, I do not deserve forgiveness.

Come back to the thread you started in my PS..

Kaz, i really do think it's about time you tried to get some psychological help. That isn't an insult but advice from yet another person who tried very hard to be your friend.

I don't know what the situation is in RL but Moonglum can't be expected to be your only source of support, you both obviously love each other dearly, but don't exist in a vacuum; for his sake and your own, please try & find out why you behave like this.

zdt*who ain't perfect either & who also has problems; everyone does*

At the risk of being a little callous here, this whole conversation is really inappropriate. Having problems does not give anyone the right to belittle someone else's situation; it's not a competition, after all.

I'm going to spare the embarrassment of people here by asking the Moderators to remove a few postings. I don't want to hear justifications, explanations or excuses, this is just horrible to read.

My advise would be for people to abandon this thread, go away and calm down.

I have been asking for psychological help for the past 18 years. I have written many many journals about how I begged my doctor only to have them refuse yet again.

As I will always be 'difficult' and never able to get help and no I can't afford it, I'm on an IVA (similar to bankruptcy - no money for 5 years), I do not intend having anymore conversations with anyone on here again.

It seems the best option for me.