h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

My dearest several, aka random, rick, milo74, saloonatic, friend, diary, blue m&m, partner, love, misunderstood, little boy, bad boy, enemy, devil's advocate, and everything else in between,

it's been a few years now since I told you that I'd always love you, no matter what. That's never changed.

You hurt me so badly this past year. I don't think any man ever hurt me as much as you did. So i was so mean and rotten to you; I said so many horrid things. I wanted, somehow, to hurt you back.

Then about a month ago you just, kinda, 'disappeared'. All your friends started working about you, me included. It's a thin line between love and hate, and that line I had crossed, I had done so only for my own self preservation, in pain. "Hatred is a choice, and not a very smart one". But as i began to worry about you, i knew i was only kidding myself. I didn't really hate you. I still loved you, just as always. So I started checking around to find out what was wrong. I knew SOMEthing had to be wrong. That was just so totally unlike you.

I found out you were in the hospital. Very sick. I wanted to come out and visit, but I wasn't sure you'd want to see me. I wanted to send a card to apologize for all the rotten things I've said this past year, but didn't know if you'd be well enough to read it.

It's been a little over an hour now since I found out that you died on Sunday, 2 days ago.

Between crying, and hugging my big, blue stuffed m&m, I've written notices in the Cleveland Indians Forum and Colorado Rockies Forum to let them know. And here, on your page which you'll never see again, I write one last final, more personal, intimate note to you.

Oh, God!!! How many notes have we shared??? Thousands???

I love you still. I'll love you always - you're a part of my heart now, and you'll be with me, wherever I go. I won't say goodbye.

Nancy,
dna_level_c (cleveland, spelled backwards)

The girl from the Indians Forum, about 40 miles away

Hey hon! It's been almost 2 years now since you died. You've been heavy on my mind tonite, heavier than usual.

As i promised, I love you still. I always will. Yes, i've moved on, but you're never far from my mind.

N.