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Post 1

Haylle (Nyssabird) ? mg to recovery

Well, so, yesterday I was running around like mad, getting kids to grandparents, getting grandma educated in Joseph's nebulizer, getting present for my daddy, etc. I was invited to my Dad's to help them celebrate his birthday (which entailed eating cake, and his being allowed to drink beer with *alcohol* in it..hey, you only turn 50 once). Securing his gift made me quite late - after 10 PM actually, but they were unperturbed, and ushered me in. Dad liked his present (a Putumayo CD [rock!] and an orange flowering cactus). OK, this is all standard stuff, but here's what blew me away. Melanie, my step-mother, at one point took my face in her hands and told me I was so pretty and was looking soooo good smiley - cry. Dad had only approving things to say to me all night long, and at one point in the kitchem told me how proud he was of me smiley - wah. I didn't know what to say to that, but Dad and I chatted about life, the universe, and everything until past 3 in the morning! I don't know if he and Mel suddenly realized life is short or what, but quite unconsciously I'm sure, they both said things I had been waiting 10 or more years to hear. They don't think I'm a f*ck up or inconsequential anymore I guess. In some ways, it makes me nervous, because I've grown accustomed to the emotional barrier I had put up between us, and the vague discussions. But Christ, I even mentioned to Dad that I'm moving to Oregon! And that I'm coming to the UK in January! And that I'm bi! I threw out all sorts of things at various points, and he had nothing but encouragement. It boggles my mind....


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Post 2

zendevil

smiley - discosmiley - magicsmiley - discosmiley - magic

Nice one Nyssa! You must be smiley - flyhi!
I should think they've probably finally realised that for you to have gone through all the s**t you have, at such a young age & still be pretty together (hurting & screaming OK, but bloody hell who wouldn't?)
..... you must be a pretty special person!

So, an early Xmas present smiley - peacedove&smiley - love
Can't be bad!!
smiley - zensmiley - devilTerri.


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Post 3

2legs - Hey, babe, take a walk on the wild side...

smiley - love sometimes we seem to travel thorugh "life", just doing the mundaine, and having the s**t kicked back at ourselves so many times, that when someone is genuinely* kind, nice or simular to us, that we can't just comprehend it. Especially if it is coming from those that have previously been kicking up the s**t, I know I have great difficulity with anything ressembling a kind thought, compliment or loving gesture, I guess I'm too used to being kicked down when I'm already at the bottom smiley - sadface Well done, sounds like they have finally grasped who you are, as a person smiley - smileysmiley - hug should make Christmas go even better smiley - smiley : And don't forget you still ahve London in January still to look foward too smiley - wowsmiley - smiley and I can give you a RL smiley - hug and smiley - cuddlesmiley - smileysmiley - zen


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Post 4

Chan-Mick le Frog

The wheel is spinning. More good things to come...
Don't worry, you 'll get used to it.
All the best!
smiley - elf


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Post 5

The Researcher formally known as Dr St Justin

smiley - cuddle

Just goes to show what wonderful beings parents are smiley - hug


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Post 6

Saturnine

smiley - smiley Yey.


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Post 7

njan (afh)

What can I say? people are full of surprises, for better or for worse. It's nice when you hit upon the better ones. smiley - biggrin

smiley - cuddle


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Post 8

abbi normal "Putting on the Ritz" with Dr Frankenstein

Awwwww.. Nice! smiley - love I always say people CAN change, and do, just never can count on who! Those surprises are the BEST! smiley - smiley


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Post 9

2legs - Hey, babe, take a walk on the wild side...

smiley - erm well, after returning fro the pub, and a couple of pints, I can't say any great change to the dull boaring world has occured, its just the same, one day something I do will come to fruition smiley - sadfacesmiley - zen


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Post 10

Amy Pawloski, aka 'paper lady'--'Mufflewhump'?!? click here to find out... (ACE)

Yyyyaaaaayyyyy Nyssa smiley - hug

smiley - cuddle 2legs


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Post 11

Potholer

Nyssa,
It seems after a bad week, there comes a good one. I'm so pleased for you. *huge hug* smiley - smooch


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Post 12

Saint Patrick Patron Saint of Depression: Here to haunt your dreams and stalk your waking hours

smiley - cuddlesmiley - smooch


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Post 13

Haylle (Nyssabird) ? mg to recovery

Speaking of 'heart being full'...thank you, you kind people who sent me cards smiley - cry That was so nice to come home to smiley - smiley I assure you, I *have* everything, it just still needs assembled and I need a spare moment to make it to the post office smiley - smiley. Hey I'm not Christian, why should I feel like things should be sent at Christmas? Merry Winter!! *grin*


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Post 14

Saturnine

Merry Monday!


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