h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I need to speak to you straight, no nonsense whenever you are back, please.

Don't hang around please.

Effers X

Crikey Vicks I'm really missing you. It's horrible. Please come back soon.

Sorry Vicky I haven't made much sense on this thread I know. It's because my sense of reality at present is a bit strange. Not quite to a space station in the far future stage yet but on the way - a bit into orbit.

Last night I got in a kind of existential panic. An email had been sent to me earlier which affected my way of perceiving things, ie interpretation of posts. I suddenly started interpreting your posts in a rather horrible calculating way which is very alien to me as a person. But because of my extreme vulnerability of mind I was unduly influenced. I can be quite 'suggestible' when my mind is vulnerable. I got into an absolute panic over that post that 3dots once made about you, which I then posted on the 'Why am I on your friends list' thread. I suddenly wasn't sure if you were a real person. And that really frightened me. So that's why I posted 3dots thing there.

I feel mortified now. I can't apologise enough. All I can say was that my only motivation was pure panic. It's sometimes difficult trying to explain strange states of mind.

I'm still feeling extremely angry at the way my mind has been influenced because of my vulnerable state. You will see several posts on that thread afterwards that seem a bit 'all over the place'. Like the two here, before this one. All over the place exactly describes how I am at present. I am making a big effort to write this intelligibly as some sort of explanation to you for my irrational behaviour.

Ever since I posted that 3dots thing I've been consumed with guilt and very worried that it might have really upset you. I'm so sorry. It was out of character due to my panic.

Okay I hope you are feeling good, and are actually coming back to h2g2.

Don't know what else to say....

Hey, Effers, please don't worry! I've had a couple of days like you wouldn't believe - too much work, and a broken lift, which has meant toiling up and down three flights of stairs all day, that's why I've been absent..

I haven't experienced the problem you have, but I have had a problem with depression, so I know what it feels like to be not exactly in control of one's thinking as one would like...

Whatever's on the other thread, don't worry, thank you for explaining here...

Today's much less of a panic (less work, so I don't feel so overwhelmed) but the lift's still broken and I had a hassle with my boss in Australia which all turned out to be due to the differing meanings of the inoffensive words 'first floor' there and here...

I'll laugh about it one day!

See you soon,

Vicky

Hey Vicks. I'm very relieved you are okay. I can blow things up to huge proportions in my mind sometimes when I'm like that. It was pretty scary, trying to cope with these different ways of looking at reality. Last night I took some zopiclone, said a quick prayer, and slept for 8 hours solid. You're right, prayer and meds work brilliantly (just ribbing).

Seriously I feel more like myself again now. I think that's a good thing?

I can't believe the funny title I gave this thread. Kind of appropriate though. It was a nightmare and now I'm laughing.....

Wow, I am relieved that you're feeling better! I was worried that you weren't here, when I finally got the chance to come on... But of course you were sleeping...

Did you really say a prayer? If so, great.. If not that's okay too.

I am glad you're feeling more like yourself...

Vicky