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Warnng: Writing an entry has a "short" time limit.
Posted Sep 16, 2020
TL;D-finish before the deadline.
30 minutes of writing gone to the ether.
Walked. Saw too much imperfection all around. Why now?
Much personal history mused upon.
Well, I feel better for having thought about it .. as writing will do to one.
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be aware of emotional dependance
Posted Aug 21, 2020
Continued bedtime reading of one of the 1000 books here, "Working on Yourself Alone" one of Carol's many books on meditation. Not many pages into it was a bookmark that I think was hers, implying something caused her to stop there. I cannot ask her about why. As a college graduate on the quantitative side of things, if I start a book, I give the author a lot of slack and always (100% of the time) finish it. I am neither a speedy nor voracious reader. I keep a dictionary near by. I no longer trust my assumed connotation from context sufficient to know what the author intended. After Carol's death a definite change came over me in a desire to understand what is being said to me. Before, and noticeable yet, I had a shoulder shrug if I intuited that I was involved in a "conversation" with someone who was more than "2 standard deviations" different from me. We wouldn't be able to communicate. The talent of having empathy happened to me sometime after the morning of January 21, 2016.
I momentarily dropped off, book in hand, but, at 73, I know I can choose to immediately turn off the light or prolong the descent. As my vision focused once more.. "The very process which lies behind your wandering mind can also be a life-saving tool when you get stuck in a long-term meditation or reach an unresolvable point."
Unbidden, a voice, my audible voice: "She has been dead four years. Four years!". It was a conglomeration of accusation, astonishment, and sadness for several things. I pursed my lips (mentally at least .. I don't know) and turned off the light.
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Marriage dissolution
Posted Feb 28, 2016
On 1972-06-14 I vowed
"to have and to hold fro thys day forwarde, for better for wors, for richer for porer, in sikenesse and in helthe, tyl deth us departe"
Well, that I did until 2016-01-21.
Its hard to enjoy anything. All my senses seem grayed out. I question e v e r y s i n g l e t h i n g.
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Edward Overbeck Kluth, genius, gone August 12
Posted Sep 11, 2012
My close friend since 1968. I swear I am still getting lumps in my throat every day... over unlikely things that connect in some sub-conscious way.
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Such a happy celebration!
Posted Jul 5, 2011
H2G2 Lives! io.com died. Friends died. Computer equipment died. So hot, so dry there was no fireworks here in Austin on the 4th of July!
H2G2. My! I have to work tomorrow, but I will celebrate with Blanco, TX pale ale.... and think of the Murphy's I enjoyed my last trip to the U.K. in 2000.... seems like only a couple years ago. It is vivid in my memory. Well, off to the fridge! I am so happy... now.
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