h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I get what you're saying about not wanting to seem like an emotional headcase. I don't think you seem like a headcase though. Emotional perhaps, but not a headcase: we can all see who the headcase is and it's not you.

Thank you for that. Yes I don't see myself as a 'headcase' except where that can be channelled into something like creativity..cos it often is needed for that..and even creativity is needed on h2g2 in all sorts of ways.

But emotional yes. No disputing that.

But I like being a bit calmer and more rational at present here and dealing with the emotional stuff elsewhere.

BTW did you ever watch the Stephen Fry programmes about bipolar? He's such a lovely person and explained quite a bit about the way strong emotions can feed into all kinds of creativity.

I actually have a very wide ranging view of creativity..and it can also be a lot about the way people think and will challenge themselves. That should always be given strong affirmation. people may lack confidence about that in themselves...but being a 'sensitive' I see it.

Might now be a good time to draw your attention to this? http://www.bbc.co.uk/dna/h2g2/brunel/F19585?thread=8273588&post=110338186#p110338186

Australia beat the USA 67-5 this morning. Unfortuately I couldn't watch it as I was working.

Yes, I did see Stevie Fry's documentary about bi polar syndrome. It was very interesting and of great relevance to me and my family actually.

Do you have anyone bipolar in your family then?

My mother was bi polar and it proved fatal for her, and I've inherited it from her. I used to take lithium which didn't seem to help much tbh, but now I take olanzapine which I find much more effective. Hopefully I won't pass it on to my children.

The Abu Mazen thread was quite funny. He's been at it again, only this time he's ended up getting chased out of his own thread http://www.bbc.co.uk/dna/h2g2/brunel/F19585?thread=8278632

Hey I also take olanapine. Why haven't you mentioned the bipolar thing before?

He doesn't exist.

BTW I'm putting you on my friends' list. You were so incredibly helpful and supportive yesterday. I won't forget that in a hurry.

And sorry to hear about your mother.

Seriously literally he doesn't exist. I've been informed it's a mask.

Only a sicko would wear such a mask.

One of his bezzy mates in real life informed us what a nice guy he is over a pint in the pub.

(And I will only confine discussion of this, to this thread because even today when stressed in central London I was nearly in tears about what he said to me yesterday when I'd done nothing to hurt him. I can't talk to friends in real life about internet stuff.

Before that happened I had left him a particularly nice post.

My jaws are very painful. It means the teeth grinding at night has started again. I do have a shield for it the dentist gave me to wear at night for the lower teeth. I'll have to start wearing it again. )

You might even be a mask. But you're a helpful one.

But there's some here I got to know really well that I have no doubts about as genuine.

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That's good that I'm helpful. That's cheered me up. I'm not a mask, but I am perhaps rather a closed person in many ways. That's probably why I haven't mentioned the bi polar thing until now, and that was only because you asked. I tend not to mention it to people in real life. Sometimes people only find out when things start getting a bit

...but since I've been on the olanzapine, which is about a year, I've felt very stable.

I wish it had done the same for me. But I don't want lithium because of the side effects. I used to be on carbemazepine..

Yeah it took me a while to talk about it. Ed encouraged me though.

It's quite brave of you then to suddenly talk about it.

And I'm very wary in real life as well.

Yes you have seemed far more balanced for sometime now. I've noticed that.

Man you helped me so much yesterday. What I still can't come to terms with is that he will have known full well when he made such an extreme post that it would be yikesed. So I get all the pain..but everyone else doesn't see it.

I once saw the most unbelivably vicious attack on his ex-girl friend who was pestering him..yes he would be angry but the threats were incredible to do with her career. Of course it was yikesed very quickly..I happen to see it by accident and wished I hadn't.

I don't buy this mask thing he claims.

I don't know how to deal with upset though. its gone so deep inside me. Of course he would have known that because of my recent struggles with mental health.

But there'll be a steady stream of new lambs to the slaughter for him I imagine as new people join.

That's a support hug for how upset he made you feel. I didn't get to read the yikesed post but I got the gist enough for it to upset me and I think it shocked quite a few people.

BTW I hope you don't me talking about this with you..but I just can't talk to people in real life about it, as its the internet. But I'll have to maybe. Seriously today in London it was simply awful feeling I was just about to burst into tears every 5 minutes.

And even if he was banned it would make no difference..the damage is done..and it is literally the worse thing anyone has ever said to me. And it was partly because I had made that really nice post to him the day before and felt much warmer towards him.

The depths of my hatred are hard to express.

Maybe except one terrible thing my mother once said..that I couldn't possibly say.

Hey really thanks. It does help a bit. But I'll let up for now. But I have to let myself cry at home I think.

Here, have another one

Well maybe one last thing. I keep thinking its some kind of punishment for really badly hurting kea in the past. I know that's irrational..but feelings are.

No more hugs.

I just needed to express it to someone.

We'll talk about something else.

The weather?

Actually I'm off to make myself a vodka and coke and maybe cry a bit.

And don't forget to set your alarm for 7:00am for the rugby!