h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I noticed you weren't around for a while, and then I noticed you are around again. You say you are working part time, and painting and things.

How are you enjoying it? (It is good remember that underneath all the bustle and hustle there is a real live human soul, no?)

I am trapped in hustle and bustle for another month, and then my contract ends, and who knows where the wind will blow me next? I am looking forward to the break, and should me more nervous about not having any work lined up yet.

Take care my dear, and look after that boy of yours.

Love

B

Hi Ben

Have you even had time to settle into your new home yet?

I've been enjoying myself tremendously, am finally destressed (I was really in terrible shape the end of last year, pretty nearly suicidal at that time) and am loving life. Funny how things change.

I'd decided to give myself a 40th birthday present of 9 months of seeing what I really am about, having the time to actually DO the things I've been saying for years I'd do if I had the time... it's been an eye opener. I discovered that I'm not a writer, though I like to write my little stories when I get the urge, but I don't like trying to do it in a disciplined manner. I tried, just made a bunch of crap. But one of these days Peetie God will reemerge from limbo, and I'm sure I'll have some more stories about him when he comes back. The painting has been awesome. I've always been able to draw a bit better than average, but never really trained myself at it. Now I get these big pieces of paper, stick them on the wall, and just go to it. I'm having fun learning to work with the colors and it's always a surprise to see what happens next. I'm thinking that if I make enough of these things that I like I'll go ahead and look into showing them locally next spring. I don't have any illusions that I'm a great artist, but these things I'm painting have presence even though they lack skill.

I have a strong feeling that a year from now my life is going to be totally different, in a good way, from what it is now. This is kinda a mid-life vacation, and I feel as if I'm building up all kinds of energy, the will, I guess, to start pursuing what I want for myself. Too often in the past I've gotten the idea that I was going to go for something and then I get lazy, or maybe a little bit scared of committing to success, and I float. It feels like body surfing, when you see a great wave coming that'll carry you all the way in to the shore, and you start to ride it but the power and speed (and potential for getting tumbled on the bottom if you make a wrong move)become overwhelming, so you just slide back over the top of the wave and float on the swells. I think I'm about ready to just do it. COWABUNGA!!!!

One of the things I like about this site is that the history remains visible, to remind us of where we were then, and show us where we are now.



B