h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

It's been a funny kinda week. Not funny funny though.

Last friday, about this time, I was at my parents, having phoned them in tears, determined that I wasn't going to contnue the PhD. Because I am too stupid. I'll never get and results. I'm no good as a scientist. And lots and lots of other, less coherent reasons.

Pretty much a minor breakdown. So, from this I've learned that I seem to be suffering from depression. Adn of course it would seem that everyone else knew/suspected, but couldn't get me to talk about it. No surprise there. I am not good at feelings and emotions (well, at least at admitting my own to myself)

So, I went and had a chat to my Supervisor about this. He was one of the unsurprised (so why couldn't you help before I got unravelled??!?!?) but he is willing to sit and listen. We'll sort out the specific PhD niggles along with an outside monitoring panel.

But I need to think about the things I can do myself to stop the self doubt and paranoia that has prevented me from talking about this to my freinds and family. This is not easy - being honest with yourself rarely is I suppose.

Yesterday and today I started by sorting out the little things I have left, but needing doing, like sending off the photo so I can get my drivers license back. Sorting out the shifting of money from one account to another, and sending off for the weekend in Amsterdam I won from a freebie from the tv rag.(this I think I'm definately going to take at some point when the weather is nicer - or at least if there aren't too many terms and conditions attached) Maybe I'll make a start on the travelogue I've been promising to write for the Post since August.

This is going to take lots of time I suppose - but at least thinking about it is no longer sending me off into floods...

Zantic

I seem to remember leaving some behind. Whilst seldom the answer to all your problems it can be relied upon to taste nice.

Or, if you don't fancy that, you could always clean your lavatory

Are you trying to say summat there luv!?!??!!??! Cos if you are, you could have cleaned the loo yourself!

I'm being good. I haven't finished the yet....almost, but it isn't finished!!!! .... I decided to have dinner first.



Zantic

Yoa having bad time too?

helps, though I woudn't recommend a whole box of that posh stuff in one go

I still coming end of the month, and we meet up for birthday b4 then

What we need is a good party. F73037?thread=367391

be don't for get you only live twice.

A string walks into a bar with a few friends and orders a beer. The bartender says, "I'm sorry, but we don't serve strings here."
The string walks away a little upset and sits down with his friends. A few minutes later he goes back to the bar and orders a beer. The bartender, looking a little exasperated, says, "I'm sorry, we don't serve strings here."

So the string goes back to his table. Then he gets an idea. He ties himself in a loop and messes up the top of his hair. Then he walks back up to the bar and orders a beer.

The bartender squints at him and says, "Hey, aren't you a string?"

And the string says, "Nope, I'm a frayed knot."

A guy walks into a bar with his dog on a leash the barman says, “Geez that's a weird dog: he's stumpy-legged, pink, and doesn't have a tail, but I bet my rottweiler would beat the heck out of it.”
50 bucks is laid down. Out in the yard the rottweiler lost.

Another drinker says his pit bull will win but the bet is 100 bucks.

Another trip to the yard and when it's all over the pit-bull terrier lost. The drinker pays up and says, “Say what breed is that anyway?”

The owner says, “Until I cut his tail off and painted it pink it was the same breed as every other alligator.”

An engineer died and ended up in Hell. He was not pleased with the level of comfort in Hell, and began to redesign and build improvements. After a while, they had toilets that flush, air conditioning, and escalators. Everyone grew very fond of him.
One day God called to Satan to mock him, "So, how's it going down there in Hell?"

Satan replied, "Hey, things are great. We've got air conditioning and flush toilets and escalators, and there's no telling what this engineer is going to come up with next."

God was surprised, "What? You've got an engineer? That's a mistake. He should never have gotten down there in the first place. Send him back up here."

"No way," replied Satan. "I like having an engineer, and I'm keeping him."

God threatened, "Send him back up here now or I'll sue!"

Satan laughed and answered, "Yeah, right. And just where are YOU going to get a lawyer?"

Toc Hunny., A suggestion. One should not be ALBE to eat a full box of Kschokolat - no matter how unhappy one is. I admire your will, but pity your tummy (I can't eat more than one or two at a go myself - duc do' on the other hand... mmmmmmmm)

Wanna help me shift furniture at end of month, or shall I do it before then?

Zantic

I managed I wan't sure bout the last few but I did it, it sorta became a stubborn thing

(btw I did a tarrot thing the other day in a let's just see way & got the Queen of Swords as me, the phrase 'cuts off nose to spite face' was in the description, can't see it meself)

I can help shift stuff, if you can wait

Oh my dearest Zantic huge

I am sooooo sorry. and here I was thinking that you had gone off me - that I had offended you. And I thought to myself I am NOT going to let Easter pass without wishing you a Happy and Blessed Easter. and then I started looking for your address. And you were even gone from my list of friends. So I got even more paranoic!!.

I really feel as if I have failed you miserably. I do hope that you get this, and it comes to you with literally tons and tons of affectionate . I did ask you and psycho to come to the summer meet before I had read this. What are you up to? Depression is jolly mis. But you can eventually see the light of day, and then you will be on the road to wherever you want to go.

You can and you will do it. You are too special and lovely a person not to do it. And even if you do not want to finish your PhD. now you can always do it later.

Please let me know if you receive this. And please also remember that if ever you want a break you can always come and stay here. It is not the most glamourous or wonderful place, but hopefully it is somewhere where you can pick up the pieces and continue on the difficult journey of life - no kidding!!.

With my fondest as always

Also Ran1
I believe that I sent you my addy and telephone number. I have unfortunately mislaid yours. Do contact me if you want to.