h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

hmm. It's been a weird few days. In fact, it's been a weird 3 months or so. I turned 26 in June, and in the weeks as it approached, and ever since, I've felt like a by-stander just watching my life form around me, as if sitting down slowly in an air-chair.

Ir's a very strange feeling. I'm just shutting up and seeing what happens... dropping things out of my life, working a few less hours, and just chilling. It feels like a necessary process, it feels somehow right, but I don't have much idea why.

I think I'm coming to understand myself better as a result though, and maybe that's what it's all about. I feel ready for a bit o' love again, too

I also bought some quite introspective music recently, which I've listened to three times so far today. Suits my mood at the moment. The CD is Either/Or by Elliott Smith. You may know it.

You know, this whole feeling was quite magnified by a conversation I had yesterday with the girl I met on Saturday night.. (see 'Out on the pull'). Her name is Sam, by the way, and she seems a lovely thing.

Anyway, it turns out that she knows a girl I went out with last year, Becki. hmmm... ... she's a hell of a nice girl. didn't work out though. That was just down to circumstances, but I can't help but feeling robbed of a wonderful episode in my life. And in hers, too.

But anyway... that's life, innit? And if you don't go through it then you're not human, so I have that to comfort me.

Maybe things'll be good with Sam, who knows? I can imagine that being really good if the circumstances are better this time..

Anyway, Journal, I keep you posted