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waht do you mean vicki


andy

Ocassionally, especailly after living a backwards existance for the last week or so.

Sorry Owlatron, I won't attack you again.

ok

andy

I is very, very confused!!

I'm lost and I don't know where I'm off to!

your not the only one

anduy

Thanks Kaz

Friends can be sh*ts, these ones in particular, and I'm just sick of being loyal and believing it'll get better, because although it does briefly it alwys goes back to something back with this lot. Clean break will do me a world of good and it's their loss, they've told me before that i'm a good friend and a good listener, but if you treat someone like sh*t they're not going to stick around long...well unless you're me and then you stick around for about 12 years and at least 3 years since the last big problem

I'm not going to change for them, I'm changing for me, this is a start of a new outlook if I'm honest, just realising they won't change is a big enough step, changing my outwards appearance is just because the next time I see them I want them to think "bloody hell, what happened to her! she's so different!"

I want to feel more comfortable, I wanrt to feel more confident and I don't want to feel like I have to subdue who I am just to fit in with a group.

Not that I ever did...so why not, I'm going to art school, I'm going to be me, I'm going to show the world what Emily Boyd is really...and that's intelligent and creative and the kind of people who makes oneliners rather than attempting full scale jokes...

I'm scared of being without that lot, which is the first time, I've always been terrified that if I lose them there's not going to be anyone else, but that's

Oh and Pink for my bedroom mMMmm should really be cleaning in here so I can start that actually

Fairy Nuff time to stop being cunfuzzled and focus on pink.

indeed!

Yay... pink You'll do fine hun. It's amazingly easy to make mates from a group who like the same things you do, if you push yourself

*hugs*

Hi,
I read your original message with interest, and most of the replies too.
I too once had a friend who turned out to be very bad for me.
We became very close at a difficult time in my life and i guess because i needed her a lot, i didn't realise that she needed me more. That she was sort of living life via me, everything i did she wanted to do, even the not so good stuff.
She eventually turned out to be trying to become me in a serious way, and i'm not that great a person really, i mean i am not bad but i certainly don't think my life is that big a deal. she had the same chances as me, she just was too lazy to make the effort and wanted to drag me down to her level of failure.
The worst thing was that whilst she was taking over my life i was too busy living it, so it didn't become clear until it was too late, and most people couldn't tell who was who anymore.
The thing that hurt the most was her really trying to isolate me, even from my family, with whom i was having at the time the usual difficult relasionship anyway. She also stopped me seeing most of my friends, as she had gotten really close to them on a false foundation.
I guess i have the satisfaction that my life is going really well now,and she is in a dead end job, with a dead end life. You should consider those people in the same terms, just get ahead with your life, be the best you can be, forgive yourself for your mistakes, fight for what you believe in, forget those who hurt you, they were never really your friends, they were just leeches on your soul. Don't amuse them by being angry, rude or crying, I did and it made it harder to pick myself up.
Best of Luck.

Thanks Researcher 236372 (what's your name incidentally??)

thanks for your comments, I totally agree, no one's ever done that to me, I don't know why they would seeing they find me so terminally annoying and horrible that I must be treated like something the scraped off their shoe

I think the worst thing is, and it's just really come to light in the past hour or so, a) the guy who's email addy was being used, his girlfriend has basically apologised but it's more trying to save his back than because she's genuinely sorry and b) his dad was on the phone to my dad (big bit of the story I've seemingly forgotten to tell on here) but anyway, his dad is a social worker and therefore knows the laws about this sh*t fairly well, but it's like a huge deal, I mean it's illegal to misuse the net like that, this could go to te police and court! (overreaction I wouldn't go that far, but I could, and so could this boys dad as it seemingly wasn't him but someone else at the party)

and, this boys mum works for my dad, which is why the situation's been made worst cause my dad read the stuff that was written and...

urgh, it's just not worth going back

mornin hun

andy

morning sunshine

Morning Em

morning odo

morning again hun just got up after my night shift less than four hours sleep not good

andy

you should go back to sleep honey

with who though?

your a ickle you hun


andy

lil ol' me?

Now why on earth would you say that?