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STUPID....
Posted May 1, 2000
Mother Fuc<ing piece of SHIOT!!!!! I just wrote a fricking big ass mother fuc<ing Journal entry describing what had happened between me and Sara. It took a fricking long TimE! And then i goto fricking post it! H2G2 FUC<ING FUC<S UP and doesn't post it and ERASES EVERTHING i FUC<ING WROTE!!!!!! And it's not like i can FUC<ING rewrite the piece of shiot! It was a fuc<ing once in a lifetime, straight from the heart entry! I put myself into that fuc<ing entry and now it didn't even get fuc<ing posted! Great! this is just FUC<ING GREAT! Wow! this just FUC<ING MADE MY DAY!!!! FUC< I wonder if it will even post this one! the fricking piece of SHOIT!!!! IT WAS FUC<ING IMPROTANT!!!! JOHN THE FUC<ING BAPTIST!!!! Man this pisses me off! ANd if you ever want to hear what i was going to FUC<ING POST! then i may do a fuc<ing post of what happened latter! i am do fricking pissed off to do it now! CIAO!
Here's a FUC<ING fish for ya Pengy: 
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Why thank you Tyler!
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Your Woman
Posted Apr 29, 2000
Well, here is one of my favorite songs! Your Woman by White Town.
(If you know what goes in the blank spot, then please tell me!)
Just tell me what you’ve come to say to me,
I’ve been waiting for so long to hear the truth,
it comes as no surprise at all you see,
so cut the crap and tell me that we’re threw.
Now I know your heart, I know your mind,
you don’t even know your being unkind,
so much for all your highbrow Marxist ways,
cause use me up and then you walk away.
Oh you can’t play me that way.
Well I guess what you say is true,
I could never be the right kind of girl for you
I could never be your woman,
I could never be your woman,
I could never be your woman,
I could never be your woman!
When I saw my best friend yesterday,
she said she never liked you from the star,
well me I wish that I could claim the same,
but you always knew you had my heart!
And you’re such a charming handsome man,
now I think I finally understand. Is it in your genes,
I don’t know, but ______________ for sure,
why did you play me this way?
Well, I guess what you say is true,
I could never be the right kind of girl for you.
I could never be your woman.
I could never be your woman.
I could never be your woman.
I could never be your woman.
Well, I guess what the say is true,
I could never spend my life with a man like you.
I could never be your woman.
I could never be your woman.
I could never be your woman.
I could never be your woman.
Sweet Eh?
Here's a fish for ya Pengy: !
Why thank you Tyler!
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Latest reply: Apr 29, 2000
Wagoo!
Posted Apr 27, 2000
Well, It's around 11:25 on the day of april 26th. It was my first day back to school since last thursday, and it sucked. Harsely!
1. Sara. We didn't even talk today. Not that i didn't want to, 'cause i really did, it's 'cause she was totally unapproachable. I really have no clue on what's going on with our relationship. 'Cause last night, we had a really good talk, It lasted for like an hour and I had lots of fun. But then i get to school today and it was like ...humph....! Maybe I was being a jerk, but it would have to be sub-concious 'cause i just don't see it. Another thing! She can't/won't talk to me. She will not tell me, say if i made her feel uncomfortable somehow, or if she is bothered by something. She WONT tell me what it/I is/did! And then i ask her about it, she just goes and says that it was nothing and that it was really stupid of her for letting it bug her. That's total BS! If I did something that is bugging her, I want to hear about it so that I wont do that again, or if it was really something that was dumb, then i'd still want to talk about it. I am a firm believer that communication is the basis of any relationship. And it is essential for a GOOD relationship! And i just can't see how we can have a relationship if there is no communication. Don't take me wrong! I really like Sara, and i want to continue our relationship, but at the moment i don't see it continuing if something's don't change. And it is my responsibility to make those changes. I have to have talk to her and make it known how i feel, 'cause if i don't then nothing will change, except for the part with us going out. So anyways, I was getting to a point somewhere in this ramble! lol! And that point is that I am going to talk to Sara tomorrow, let her know how i feel about all of this. But! am I expecting to much from this??? Am I expecting trust and openness to suddenly from a person i'm just getting to know? Do these things take time? Am i being impatient or do I have a valid point?
2. Friends's's's's! hehe, when isn't something up with my friends? It's like when one thing really shity goes away/gets fixed, something just as worse steps in it's place. There is always some conflict going on and it is starting to wear me thin. You know? Like the times when i'm not down in the dumps some one else is. And all of this constant sadness/troubles/misery/uggness is really bringing me down. Usually I am a very jolly/happy/allways grinning/cracking jokes kind of guy. And I am still going to be, if just for the fact that I make my friends laugh/smile. Like i can deal with a little troubles by myself and put on a smile no problem, and I am glad to do it. But then there are those day's were it's like ARRRGGGGGHHHHHH! It is my DAY to be the one who is down in the dump's. Who needs a friend. Who needs a hug. Don't get me wrong! I like to be the friend, and the dude that gets you outta the dumps, but I don't know. I guess i just want some attention. Maybe it's a bit selfish, but people need attention to survive, and im really rambling now,and i barely know what im typing because I do get a lot of attention. But i guess it is the wrong kind of attention. I get it for craking a joke. Or being the class clown. Or for making a fool of myself. Never is it for anything else. Sometime's i really hate being a funny person. 'Cause everyone expects you to be funny all the time. Like, nobody can just take me seriously most of the time, cause they think i am just screwin around. Sometime's i can have a super valid point, but people would look at it differently cause their enitial reaction is that i was tryin to pull thier leg. But i guess it is my fualt for leaving that impression. Cause i goof around a lot. I like to have fun. Like one of my friends described me " You are a very simple person Tyler, with a very smart brain" or something along those lines. I am a very simple person. I like to laugh. I get pleasure from other peoples pleasure. I can have fun with most anything. But i just wish that there was a way to switch from 9 year old Tyler to 16 year old, very mature, Tyler. Holy crap! I've been writting for half an hour. And i still feel like rambling. Like, i can't believe i'm almost finished High School! I feel like i should be in grade 4! I wish i was in grade 4! I had so much fun when i was a kid. And people my age, i guess just aren't like that. They are to caught up stupid little things, like what other people think of them, their appearance, thier impression, thier popularity. I know only a couple people who know how to have fun, and even they are nothing like me. It is like i am 2 different people. The little 8 year old, and the 16 year old which grew up to early. I have had so many people say that i grew up way to early. When i was 12 i had the maturity of most 16 year olds. Now, I can talk to my teacher's and have a very mature, open conversation with them. I can meet thwm on the same wavelength, I think like they do. And it is very hard, trying to deal with two sides to my personality. You know what? I am truly insane. I am so different from anybody I know. I feel like i don't belong. I have never truly felt like i have ever belonged anywhere. That is probably what i most truly desire. The feeling of belonging. I want to be able to look at my peers and colleauges and say that these are people like me. That I can relate to these people. But all i see in my peers are wierd, unmature (i hate that word! it is soooo F^CKING STUPID) little morons. Maybe I am just a fricking insane jerk. An egomaniac, a hypocritical, asshole. uggggggg!
3. this stupid ass number system! why did i do it? i got so sidetracked from my last topic it isn't even funny! (actually it's hylarious! LOL 
And I am really getting tired, missing keys on the keyboard. making typos and forgeting any piece of grammer i have ever learned. But I guess rants aren't always legible
And Tyler trips over the gapping maw of Hades, into the Pits of Hell!
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UGGG!
Posted Apr 25, 2000
Shoit! I forgot to phone Sara tonight.Shoit! I was going to see if Mr. G had got a hold of her. Cuase I was going to offer my spot on that trip to her tommorrow. Ugg, ohhh well. I wonder if she will show up at the time of the trip tommorrow, Cause if she does then ill let her take my spot. But oh well. What can you do about it. Uhhh, I finished that picture for you Sir ACE Big Luke! So, if you ever get online i'll give it to you. Jeez, nobody is on right now. I'm bored. But I have had 2 late nights in a row, so I should probablly just crash. So how was everybody's Easter weekend? Mine was mind/eye opening. Not that i really had a fun, super awesome weekend, actually it was pretty boring, it's just that i've got a lot to think about. Ciao!
And from the Pits of Hell, Tyler arises from the gapping maw of Hades with a fish for Pengy: !
Why thank you Tyler!
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Latest reply: Apr 25, 2000
Hey Laddie!
Posted Apr 24, 2000
Hiya, I'm just in a peachy mood! I'm going to be expanding my bussiness (Slade Entertainment) to encompass a new bussiness venture with a colleauge of mine. We will be doing some real cool stuff! So check back here in a couple of days to get the full details! (Right now it is a top-secret project, so my lips are sealed!) Yup, and i'm hyper from eating my Easter chocolates. Other than that I guess I am doing good. Just finished talking to Theresa (U115660) and that was good. I hope i helped. Um, I want to talk to Sara though. I want to talk about our relationship, but unfortuneatly, she is outta town, and wont be back till tuesday, where she was supposed to go on this trip with me and a bunch of other people. Unfortuneatly she was cut from the trip due to lack of room in the Suburban and that she is too young to goto the conference. So, i prolly wont get to talk to her until tuesday evening, if i can get out. I hope i can get over to her place so we can talk in person. Hopefully Stacey isn't there. Not that I don't like her, cause she is nice, but i dont think that Sara would want to talk in front of her. SWEET! I've got the Bee Gee's going! STAYIN ALIVE! Ah,ah,ah,ah,ah, STAYIN ALIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIVE!
LOL! But anyways, Ciao!
And from the Pits of Hell, Tyler arises from the gapping maw of Hades with a fish for Pengy: !
Why thank you Tyler!
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